Home Menu

Menu


Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
  #1  
Old Nov 10, 2008, 12:23 AM
MINIME's Avatar
MINIME MINIME is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: May 2008
Location: NO WHERE
Posts: 1,515
My T's say that my body is having pain from the kidnapping and ra++ because it has to be heard. So I listened to it tonight and Im sure its the nine year old girl talking but this is what I said to myoo emdr T when I called her and left a message.. what the he++ happened to me? I know that I was attacked but why did it hurt and what happened to me. No one ever sat down and explained to me what happened. I know now I know the answer sort of but I have never had any one explain to me. I dont know if i can hear it. No one looked at me and said you were rap++. No one ever ever told me why the pain was so bad and being nine of course it was but no one explained it to me. I think that is my right to have someone explain this to me, and then tell me why people do this willingly as adults. I have no clue. Am i stupid?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
__________________
Happy fall my friends

advertisement
  #2  
Old Nov 10, 2008, 12:35 AM
snowflakes's Avatar
snowflakes snowflakes is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Jun 2008
Location: Cainta Rizal, Philippines
Posts: 179
(((((((((MINIME)))))))))

aww... minime.... lots of hugs for you. you are not stupid. you are loved here... Godbless and take care of yourself... just hang in there...



>>>snowy...
__________________


DO GOOD!

FEEL GOOD!

LOOK GOOD!

Thanks for this!
MINIME
  #3  
Old Nov 10, 2008, 02:23 AM
Tired12's Avatar
Tired12 Tired12 is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Sep 2008
Location: Earth
Posts: 105
Awwwe MINIME sending more hugs your way. I don't know why other people don't think. It is not you who is stupid. It is the people who have neglected to see that a innocent nine year old girl can't comprehend such actions on her own. I do hope that T can spend the time nessary to meet your needs now.

More warm hugs your way.
__________________
Tired12
  #4  
Old Nov 10, 2008, 06:47 AM
Anonymous29412
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
(((((((((((((((((((minime)))))))))))))))))))))

That is not stupid AT ALL. My T has had to explain to me what happened to me. And he told me how he would have helped me if he had been there...and it was very healing.

You have wonderful Ts - I know if you tell them what you need, they will give it to you.

I'm sorry you are suffering
Thanks for this!
Sannah
  #5  
Old Nov 10, 2008, 09:14 AM
gimmeice's Avatar
gimmeice gimmeice is offline
Elder
 
Member Since: Mar 2008
Location: Indiana
Posts: 7,416
((((((((((((((((( minime ))))))))))))))))))
I am sending you lots of hugs, I think it's very insightful of you to know what you need and what you deserve. I don't consider that stupid at all, I think it's a step towards healing.
__________________

what I need....am I stupid?

Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You, too? Thought I was the only one." C.S. Lewis

visit my blog at http://gimmeice.psychcentral.net
Thanks for this!
MINIME
  #6  
Old Nov 10, 2008, 10:23 AM
Sannah's Avatar
Sannah Sannah is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Jul 2008
Posts: 19,179
Everyone above said wonderful things which I second....
__________________
Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........

I'm an ISFJ
Thanks for this!
MINIME
  #7  
Old Nov 10, 2008, 12:01 PM
MINIME's Avatar
MINIME MINIME is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: May 2008
Location: NO WHERE
Posts: 1,515
I feel so stupid.
__________________
Happy fall my friends
  #8  
Old Nov 10, 2008, 12:33 PM
Sannah's Avatar
Sannah Sannah is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Jul 2008
Posts: 19,179
I'm not sure that I understand Mini? Were you in some denial and now you are wanting to break through it? This doesn't make you stupid..........
__________________
Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........

I'm an ISFJ
Thanks for this!
MINIME
  #9  
Old Nov 11, 2008, 12:14 AM
MINIME's Avatar
MINIME MINIME is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: May 2008
Location: NO WHERE
Posts: 1,515
It doesnt matter. I just feel like I am such a stupid idiot. I know what happened to me but I had to figure it out for myself. I dont understand why no one ever talked to me about it really no one said this is what happened this is what its called. They treated me like I was a stupid invisiable kid. Now I am an adult who was raped as a child and has a rotting raped child inside her that is rotten. Ok sorry for the drama just a little bit worn out.
__________________
Happy fall my friends
  #10  
Old Nov 11, 2008, 12:34 AM
(JD)'s Avatar
(JD) (JD) is offline
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Member Since: Dec 2003
Location: Coram Deo
Posts: 35,474
You aren't stupid. Don't add to your hurt with incorrect assumptions, that's just more abuse that you don't need, and don't deserve.

I'm glad you were able to cope, even if that meant cordoning off the child that experienced this trauma. That doesn't make you stupid, in fact, it shows how brilliant your mind is!

I'm sorry for your trauma. I'm sorry no one was there for you when you most needed it. I'm sorry no one protected you, when you couldn't protect yourself.
__________________
what I need....am I stupid?
Believe in Him or not --- GOD LOVES YOU!

Want to share your Christian faith? Click HERE
Thanks for this!
MINIME
  #11  
Old Nov 11, 2008, 03:37 AM
Capp's Avatar
Capp Capp is offline
Poohbah
 
Member Since: Oct 2008
Location: Third Star On The Left
Posts: 1,096
((Minime))
everyone has given you good advice and reassurances that you are not stupid...hopefully within those words you will find comfort.

jme, but most adults cannot adequately explain to the child what has happened to them. many times it's because they are afraid of causing more trauma--a denial of sorts that leaves the child feeling more alone.
I'm so sorry that no one was able to gently be direct with you.

Anger and disappointment are but two things we face as adults when we are able to talk about our rapes. There may be more to come, but it does get easier.
There is nothing rotten inside you. There is a hurt and confused child who needs patience and recognition of their strength...you survived then and you are surviving now, and that takes a great deal of courage and endurance.
Please be as kind, if not kinder, to yourself that you would be towards someone else...you deserve to show yourself love.

I hope you are feeling better, Minime. Sometimes the days and the nights of our healing are so very hard.

Cap
__________________
The most dangerous enemy is the one in your head telling you what you do and don't deserve.
~~unknown~~

http://capp.psychcentral.net
Thanks for this!
MINIME
  #12  
Old Nov 11, 2008, 10:55 AM
Sannah's Avatar
Sannah Sannah is offline
Legendary
 
Member Since: Jul 2008
Posts: 19,179
Quote:
Originally Posted by MINIME View Post
I had to figure it out for myself. I dont understand why no one ever talked to me about it really no one said this is what happened this is what its called.

They treated me like I was a stupid invisiable kid.

has a rotting raped child inside her that is rotten.
I am sorry Mini. I know your adult mind knows how to approach this but that child is still struggling with it. Having this come up is the only way to deal with it. I know you will process this too ...
__________________
Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........

I'm an ISFJ
Thanks for this!
MINIME
  #13  
Old Nov 11, 2008, 08:15 PM
phoenix7's Avatar
phoenix7 phoenix7 is offline
Wise Elder
 
Member Since: Oct 2008
Location: Australia
Posts: 8,135
HI Minnime,

You arnt stupid, you were a child who dealt with it as best as you could at the time and now you are an adult and you are having the courage to see a therapist and deal with what happened even if you dont remember it all - you are VERY BRAVE - you may not feel it at the moment. Why didnt they tell you ? maybe they were ashamed or did not want to make you suffer - they probably thought if you forgot it would be ok - who knows - I don't remember a lot of - well most of my childhood because of the violence and abuse and i used to call myself names like stupid and dirty and worthless until my psych asked me to write 2 letters - one was to myself about what i remembered and to tell myself how i felt about myself - that was a horrible letter - i let it all out all the horrible things i said to myself - next he said write one about the same incident but as if you were writing to a friend - this one was kind and compassionate and then he said try to treat yourself as you would that friend - and that's what i do now - i hope you can find a way to do the same - sorry if i waffled on - take care P7
Thanks for this!
MINIME
Reply
Views: 829

attentionThis is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.




All times are GMT -5. The time now is 12:48 PM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2025, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.




 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.