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#26
Dec 31, 2008, 03:59 PM
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Like others have said, don't be so hard on yourself. You've got triggers that are being activated. Remember that the PTSD makes our thinking fuzzy even when we're doing fairly well. I don't know how to help you deal with the anger-I'm stuck in anger right now myself. But please know that there are many of us here who feel we can rely on you to be here to talk or to give advice&that's such a good thing! Take heart, the holidays are almost over!
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Dec 31, 2008, 05:56 PM
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thanks skymonk
- maybe im not a complete waste of space then Sannah, how do i give her a voice? if im too afraid to talk how can she? or have i answered my own question? fuzzybear, your dancing bear always makes me smile  Muffy, the "you matter" thing, for some reason it made my eyes get watery (not a write word but the only one i can think of - i cant cry anymore so thats as far as i get - watery eyes - but no tears  ) I guess that touched a nerve, I seem to have always felt that i dont matter that i am more of a hinderance to the world than a help, more the mud on its shoe than the smile on its face - I think thats what drew me to nursing - i felt if i could help others get better and try to protect their dignity as much as you can (there is no dignity in a bedpan! ) then maybe i could be worthwhile, be part of somthing, a family of sorts, belong somwhere, anywhere ...... , i guess i just wanted..... i dont know what - somthing i never had... somthing i never felt or cant remember feeling - and probably couldnt deal with if i did. I'm not sure im capable of love... I can care about or for someone, I can put myself in harms way for someone, I love my cats but that is a safe love, I think im just rambling now..... sorry and anyway it's time to feed the kitties! take care everyone P7
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Dec 31, 2008, 06:04 PM
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P7, I think you did answer your own question.......
What you just wrote sounds like you want to make it better for others and you just want to watch from the outside and not get involved yourself. I know it feels safer to not be involved. With continued therapy you will be able to move forward. Hey, is it 2009 yet for you?
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Dec 31, 2008, 06:18 PM
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I always felt i didnt have the right to participate that i would make things worse - not better - i am working on that
yep 10.15am in a new year a fresh start maybe, maybe a new me for a new year and a better year for all of us  Happy New Year
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Dec 31, 2008, 07:51 PM
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((((phoenix)))))))))))))))
I am so not good with doing the quote thing lol you said ((( Muffy, the "you matter" thing, for some reason it made my eyes get watery (not a write word but the only one i can think of - i cant cry anymore so thats as far as i get - watery eyes - but no tears ) I guess that touched a nerve, I seem to have always felt that i dont matter that i am more of a hinderance to the world than a help, more the mud on its shoe than the smile on its face -)))))) You truly do matter.,......the tear thing will lead to crying again at some point. At that time you will be able to let some of the afraid you were talking about go. Your right it does tire you out...being afraid is so very hard. I know i do not talk about it much ,.or let on ..But there times I to am afraid...Its ok to admit it. In fact its part of healing. You are not a hinderance at all ...many times you have made me feel I matter(((ty))))) Your a good person..AND (((you do matter very much)))))))))))))))))))))) Muffy happy new year Last edited by muffy; Dec 31, 2008 at 07:52 PM. Reason: happy new year |
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Dec 31, 2008, 08:00 PM
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((phoenix7))
You're not a waste of space. And you DO matter. I hope you can realize that one day. All of us already know that about you. I'm sure you're a great nurse. I think your reasons for being one proves by itself that you are very capable of love.
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Jan 01, 2009, 03:03 AM
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I so want to be involved Sannah, but i dont know how, I dont think i learned that - I will try - but i still feel like they are playing a game that i dont know the rules of
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Jan 01, 2009, 03:06 AM
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I'm not so sure - but thanks and Muffy, I am sorry you have times of fear - watery eyes again! take care P7
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Jan 01, 2009, 10:05 AM
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. I had a lot to learn! Of course Fear is the big thing that stands in the way. It can be dealt with..........Quote:
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