this is insane

I laughed when I read the results- schizophrenia, borderline, what ****ing else? This test is stupid and designed to blame you of having at least one mental ilness. Just like people checking their symptoms in the net and always finding out they have cancer. So since I took that test, I must be insane, yeah right. And I know you Americans think you're the center of the universe- there are no centimeters and kilograms, only your crazy pounds or sth and in the list of the countries there is no mine.

I know. According to the test I'm a time bomb of mental illness ready to explode.

I'm NOT borderline or schizo, but the test says so. Also I'm FAT. Oh, gosh, sorry for having a few kilos overweight. BMI is stupid anyway. I am supposed to way 64 kilos tops. But I'm allowed to go down to 48 kilos and NOT be underweight! Who the heck weighs that little? I mean sure some do, naturally, depending on their frame. But on me? Wow. I'd be skin and bones. I weighed that when I was 9 and I was totally super skinny. Almost see through. On top of that, the test missed almost ALL of my real issues. Yep.

And the questions are so obvious- I don't think any schizophrenic would admit they think someone intervene with their thoughts. In mental hospital I had a 500-question questionnaire and honestly, the person who wrote them was insane himself and thought all people are dumb. And although there were questions about sexuality, the psychologist who checked my results didn't find out I was sexually abused.

The test isn't a tool for diagnosis. It is only meant to show that you appear to have signs and symptoms of those disorders or other problems. And bashing Americans over our units of measurement is not really mature. This site isn't solely for Americans either.

And your signature is pretty morbid.

Ok, I know you don't want me here cos I don't know your american measurment and I dared to use a signature that reflects my feelings. Sorry I can't conform with happy people. I used to think this is a support forum, my bad. Just another example of how everyone is against me and wants to hurt me and make me feel bad. Judging from my experiences, now the admin finds this post unacceptable and bans me. Day like everyday.

I know the metric system and I use it. In fact I hate the Americans system. No need to conform. I am not happy either lol. I'm not against you. I was pointing out your signature because thinking like that will only continue to make you feel down. Believe in yourself and you can do anything. This is a support forum. Please feel free to stay and use this forum.

I read your kind replies to others and yes, I'm the random person who gets only criticism and rejection. Evryone is nice to everyone except for me. I'm always the one who gets attacked by incredibly wise people who can judge me though they don't know me. Everything I do or say it's wrong. Even if it's suh a silly thing as the sanity score. Even if the other person actually does see my point, the attacking has to take place, never mind my feelings. I'm always amazed when people attack me, though they in fact agree with me. And I'm always attacked when I refuse to pretend to be ****ing happy. Oh! I admit I'm depressed and the sexual abuse affects me, sorry for not using Bible as my signature or some optimistic quotes. I'm not happy, I'm not well, I'm depressed because I've been abused and now I explore the depths of secondary wounding. There's no one who experienced that much of it. EWveryone's against me, everyone wants to hurt me and see me crying. I hope you're happy now, you won.

I didn't mean for my comments to appear as attacks. I actually felt you were attacking American's. However, I am not happy; actually I am depressed. I don't care if your signature is bible scripts or not. I am merely suggesting that you change it to see if it lightens your mood. Always telling yoursels negative things will only bring you down. Wake up every morning and tell yourself you are great. See how much it changes you. This is being blown out of proportion.

This thread is way off the mark, I never take these tests serious anyway if I did I would be some kind of lunatic

Everyone is not against you. Did you not recieve positive feedback in your thread where you stated nobody reads or responds to your posts? Yes you did, I was 1 of those people. Just bcoz you get called out for dissing americans, does N0T mean you're being attacked, it could mean that you were criticized or even advised, but not attacked. If this is your general perception of things, then no wonder you feel like the world is out to get you. Just like you are able to point out the negative, if you look closely, you'd find a positive too, and positivity helps heaps when struggling with MI or any kind of illness. ALOT of us struggle with similar issues, we don't find this site by searching for comical relief do we? So why would any of us want to attack someone who we are sure is struggling/ suffering. So, just like you expect others to be mindful of your struggle, be mindful of theirs... And incase you're wondering, that was N0T an attack, it was some genuine friendly advice so that you can get around to making friends here among us instead of convincing yourself that perfect strangers hate you for no reason, coz that can't be good for your self-esteem at all. I really do hope you stick around and prove yourself wrong.
Take care

Perfect. Everyone attacking me. Just because I, as an Eurpean having strong dyscalulia, cannot get your American measurment. You do realise you're a minority when measurment is concerned, don't you? Usually there's an option- either your pounds and stones or metres and kilos, on this site there's no such thing, so forgive me for assuming it's discriminating against Europeans and saying this is for Anglosaxons only. Forgive me I use a signature that is a quotation from an article about rape victims, this does reflects my thoughts and in case you didn't know, depressed people cannot cheer themseves up. Using some rainbow-and-unicorn quotation wouldn't help me. Thanks for reminding me I don't deserve anything good and I will always be attacked and picked on for the silliest reason. My list of examples of how everyone's against me is getting longer by each day. I know no one cares about me and everyone thinks it's acceptable to hurt me. Thanks for clearing that up.

Are you SERIOUS? point out 1 single sentence where I attacked you... You can't can you, but your reaction is ok by me cos that's how you want it, you want to be everybody's victim. Entirely your choice. And just so you know, I'm not american, I'm south african, we use kilo's and metre's, but what do you care? You already decided I'm attacking you, after I said I'm not. You must think about what you want out of human interaction. If you want everybody to smile meekly, and agree with your every word, then you must state that in your title here online, but in real life, you're setting yourself up for a MAJOR dissapointment unless of cors you're a princess, then it can be done. I'm done now, coz my input is obviously not wanted here, but I bear no ill feelings toward you. Goodluck with whatever it is you seek.

Why would someone with schizo NOT admit to it. If you don't know what is happening in your own mind, you want to know what the hell is happening. Understanding what and why things are happening is how you help change issues in your life so you can become the person you want to be.

Those questionaires are repeditive, yes, but thats becuase people who ARE delusional and pyschotic at the time don't realise what is going on becuase they are so "high" on delusions. if you ask a lot of questions then the probability of knowing something is wrong, and WHAT is wrong goes up, which means that person can heal faster and sooner.

Try not to take things at face value, look behind the lines not just directly at them.

Learn to love yourself and other's will learn to love you too. quote i read in a book somewhere.
Optimism is hard as well but if someone isn't open to reciving critique to improve there skills, they will only be able to improve so far. Different veiws let you see things at different angles. the more angles you cover the more people will love what they see cuz no one stands in the exsact same spot with the same veiw.

I'm also European. I'm actually glad I am...

Bathony, I think it is sometimes like this. Humans can't tolerate things to be random. It scares them very much. Something must happen for a reason. So if someone attacked you when you were little, it might be too scary to admit that no one really controlled that (more than the attacker, and sometimes the victims are random or sort of come in handy). No one controlled it, it was for nothing, and nothing to cling onto or save you.

I think that is one of the reasons people think it is their fault. Because if it is, there was some strange sense of control, something that made it happen.

So even if it hurts thinking you were to blame, it is less scary. Even if it means you have to believe you are useless (which you are not).

Also, I think people are generally good. Not abusers and those, but most people. I think it is a defense thing so people can live together peacefully, in the tribes or where they used to live. If someone was mistreated and always grew up to be outwardly hostile, there would be a non stop war. So I think people are programmed to turn it inwards.

I don't know if any of this made sense...

Because this thread has gone off topic and the unsupportive posting, it will now be closed.

sabby