[PsychNitrous]

A soon as I'm able to get back on insurance - hopefully very soon here - I know I need to get myself back in therapy. I'm also thinking about trying to get on meds again. I've done it before, been on a huge list of SSRIs with no positive results. However, I'm starting to wonder if the lack of results has been a resistance to therapy and getting better on my end. I already have decided that I'm going into therapy this time with that attitude, and will be informing my therapist that I think I've been resistant to getting better in the past, and I'm worried about following the same path this time.

I'm still really worried about trying meds again though. I fear that, again, I won't have any positive results, but it might just be because I'm hoping for faster results than I can really get. I'm hoping I get a pdoc who I can talk to the same - just start right out with my worries about past resistance and the lack of results from meds. Has anyone else had no luck with meds before and started again with better results? I'm hoping maybe some good stories from people who have done the same might give me more hope for my upcoming attempt to get better.

My list of SSRIs I tried is probably smaller than yours, but I did have lackluster results with my first try. Like you, I don't think I was patient enough, and I think I might have been resistant to getting better as well.

My second attempt, with a different med (started this summer) has been better, and I do think part of that is because I have been more dedicated to working with it and working with the therapy, instead of working against it in various ways.

I hope you'll keep updating as you work through this. I totally get that it's scary. I hate that feeling that "if this doesn't work, I guess that's the end of it, and I'm incurable." Ugh.

[PsychNitrous]

Originally Posted by Bjørnen

My list of SSRIs I tried is probably smaller than yours, but I did have lackluster results with my first try. Like you, I don't think I was patient enough, and I think I might have been resistant to getting better as well.

My second attempt, with a different med (started this summer) has been better, and I do think part of that is because I have been more dedicated to working with it and working with the therapy, instead of working against it in various ways.

I hope you'll keep updating as you work through this. I totally get that it's scary. I hate that feeling that "if this doesn't work, I guess that's the end of it, and I'm incurable." Ugh.

I do worry that I might never find a cure. I'm glad to hear that you're having better luck this time around. I really want to start treatment again and really dedicate myself to it this time.

[TicTacGo]

Good luck! Just remember that there are alternatives. SSRIs are not the only medications in existence. Just look at me. I cannot use antidepressants so we had to try a few alternatives before something stuck.

Seroquel (quetiapine) has a decent antidepressant, as well as antimanic and antipsychotic properties. It is always something one could bring up in the next session.

[PsychNitrous]

Originally Posted by TicTacGo

Good luck! Just remember that there are alternatives. SSRIs are not the only medications in existence. Just look at me. I cannot use antidepressants so we had to try a few alternatives before something stuck.

Seroquel (quetiapine) has a decent antidepressant, as well as antimanic and antipsychotic properties. It is always something one could bring up in the next session.

Thanks, I'm hoping I can get connected with a pdoc who will consider alternatives to SSRIs. Maybe if I'm lucky I can try something else right away!

[Shazerac]

You have some good points. Thank you for sharing. SSRI don't work for everyone. But maybe this time a different one help you. The list is long. I hope you do find a pdoc who will work with you for alternative treatments. Congrats on getting back on insurance. Thank god for it. Good luck on your journey and keep us posted.

[PsychNitrous]

Well, I had hoped with my insurance issues being straightened out I'd be able to start therapy again soon, but it looks like it might take a but longer. On the plus side, the delay may be due to me starting a new job, which in itself is going to help my depression and anxiety.

[Biteplate]

I had horrible experiences with meds in the past but my new pdoc did a DNA test and the test listed the pills compatible for me. I feel great now and the pills I take work. If you have Medicaid the DNA test was free.

[PsychNitrous]

Originally Posted by Biteplate

I had horrible experiences with meds in the past but my new pdoc did a DNA test and the test listed the pills compatible for me. I feel great now and the pills I take work. If you have Medicaid the DNA test was free.

I've heard of that test before, I'd love to find a dr who knows more about it and would test me. I'm glad it helped you.

[reb569]

A combo that finally worked for my daughter is Tegratol, Nefazadone and Desipramine. (Tegratol and Nefazodone are contraindicated, and Tegratol impacts the effectiveness of the Desipramine which means her dosage of that is very high) It's a very unusual combination and the pharmacists have refused to fill a few times until talking to first her IP Pdoc, and then more recently her OP Pdoc. But it did finally pull her out of a very deep depression.

She's actually doing quite well right now.

[PsychNitrous]

Finally managed to get all my insurance issues dealt with. This morning I went to schedule an appointment with a therapist. It's still 2 weeks out, but I'm going soon.

[whisperingskye]

I have tried a lot of different meds over the last 7 years (anti depressants, mood stabilsers, anti psychotics)and nothing really made much of an impact, or they did and stopped after a short time. I'm sure a big part of that was poor med compliance.

A little over a year ago I stopped my meds and decided to go med free. This lasted about 9 months before I decided to try again thanks to my worsening depression. I left it too long I think, and again was **** with the whole compliance thing, and I ended up going inpatient. I was there a month. Started on additional meds and doses increased. I have been on them all before but at different times, but I do feel this combination is working better than others. I'm in no way cured, and also aware I have only been out of hospital for a month, but I am managing for the most part. I have only selfharmed once in the last month, that in itself speaks volumes.

This is a long winded way of me saying meds might help, perhaps you need to try a different combination of meds you already tried. Hope you get to feeling better soon and the therapist is a good fit

[WildcatVet]

I was off my meds for two weeks due to insurance/hospital screw-ups. Just two weeks and I'm a psycho basket case. Starting all over with a new therapist, pdoc, and hopefully the meds I was on previously that kept me stable.
Wishing you the best of luck with yours....

[PsychNitrous]

Originally Posted by WildcatVet

I was off my meds for two weeks due to insurance/hospital screw-ups. Just two weeks and I'm a psycho basket case. Starting all over with a new therapist, pdoc, and hopefully the meds I was on previously that kept me stable.
Wishing you the best of luck with yours....

I'm sorry to hear that, it's terrible how we need insurance to stay on meds. I've been off my psych meds for 6 months, and had to go through several week periods without my arthritis meds because I couldn't afford them. Hoping your experience improves as well.