[googley]

I'm going to have to leave my T when I move in Aug. I have started to find it really hard to leave each session. I feel sad every time I leave. (More afterward than when I really leave). Then she reminded me that she is going to be gone for a week in July and it made the time seem even shorter. I don't want to have to move and leave my T. I want her to jump into my suitcase and come with me. I am so stressed out right now, I don't want to leave when I'm so stressed out. We have been talking about my finding another T where I move to, but it just reminds me that I am leaving. I have a couple of names and phone numbers, but I don't want to start calling because that means this is really happening. We've worked together for three years now, and I just don't want to have to go through the whole trust building process again. I'm scared that I'm just going to feel all alone again.

[Brightheart]

Have you talked to your T about how sad you've been feeling about this? It might be helpful to discuss your feelings with her. It's so hard leaving our therapists, but little seems to be written about the real grief that is involved when we do. When you form a relationship with someone and you become attached to that person, it is always difficult to walk away from that. I'm sorry for your loss.

(((((((((((((((googley))))))))))))))))))

It must be so hard to have to leave your T...

I hope you can use the time you have left with her to work on your grief around leaving her, and to celebrate your relationship with her, and all of the things you've learned and ways you've grown.

[mightaswelllive]

I'm going through the exact same thing right now. I just sent her an email last night (at 3am) to explain to her how hard this really is and to give her a list of things I MUST talk about before I leave. Make sure if your the type of person that is not always able to express how you're feeling that you find a way to get this information to her with enough time to talk. Good luck, I'm an absolutely feeling your pain.

[googley]

Thank you all for your support. I had a dream about therapists last night (not my T but about finding a new one.) I don't really remember what happened but coming to respond to this thread reminded me of whispers of it. I seem to be processing in dreams lately. We have talked a little about my leaving. We have discussed the process of me finding a new T, and dealing with the insurance I will have that wont have any mental health coverage. But we haven't talked much about my feelings about moving. I have been avoiding, and have had a lot of other stressful things I have had to be dealing with. It seems like I am going to have to use part of my time left to talk about leaving, and part of it to deal with the stresses around my new medical diagnosis. I just have so many things to deal with in this last period. It would be easier if all this other stress didn't feel it necessary to jump in right now. But why would it care what I wanted?

[Indie'sOK]

I hope that, as hard as it will be, you will find someone that will help you.

I'm stressed out about the inevitable end of my counseling, because I want to always have that person to talk to. My friends can't be that person, because they wouldn't know what to say. When I tell them about my SI, they'll act shocked when they see it and tell me not to do it anymore. Well that obviously doesn't help me. She'd never tell me that, she'd just listen. I know it's going to hurt when this is over. I've had something similar happen before, when I was younger. I'd do anything not to have to go through that again.