Flat Tire t

Yes! This is so true for me. I LOVE to write (I was an English major in college!), but somehow never understood the point of journalling. T finally convinced me that if I could get things down on paper, they would stop swirling around in my head and I could get some peace. I tried it, and it was like magic...I had been dealing with a memory that kept going around and around in my head, and I finally forced myself to write it down (which was scary) and the swirling STOPPED.

BlueMoon, I can't believe (well, I can!) that your T discouraged 15 minutes of self-care a day! OMG! You deserve way more than 15 minutes of care a day.

My t says i overanalyze and overthink things, but she still encourages my writing. I journal and also write poetry. The poetry, in particular, is what i use to express my pain symbolically. I use the journal to sum up what's happening in therapy. I don't overdo with the writing, but i can be obsessive with my thinking and ruminating, sometimes spending good chunks of whole days thinking about the same thing -- usually a problem of some sort.

Bluemoon,

I am so happy to hear that your meeting with flat tire t went well! It sounds like she has some of the necessary experience with trauma and ed that you need. It's also good that you felt comfortable with her. I'm hoping she's a much better fit with you than your current t is. Are you going to let your current t know you're quitting? Or wait a few weeks first to see how things go with flat tire t? Even though it will feel uncomfortable, you probably need some kind of closure with her.

hi i think flat tire T sounds great. Yay for having a couch! And no desk. good luck with deciding

Yay for the couch is right! The room is comfortable and feels safe, not too big.

I like what everyone said aboutt journaling. Tree- I also have stuff swrling around in my head and when I get it down on paper it begins to make sense. I just get scared I will get more confused. I will do some writing tonight. It scares me become more aware of my triggers. Maybe I will just write one or two things down during the day and not in too much detail and start that way.

Does anybody have any fear that their writing will be found by someone? I have always felt this way and threw out whatever I wrote. I never trusted anyone to not read my stuff so I had thrown out whatever diaries I had as a child. Too bad.

As far as letting my t know I am leaving- I am thinking (for now anyway) that I will have another appointment with her. When I dont know. I will say whatever I can and not worry too much how things come out of my mouth. But I dont think I'll do it this week. Maybe once I have another appt or two with ft t.

Peaches- when you are ruminating over the same thing all day does writing help or make matters worse?

Does anybody have any fear that their writing will be found by someone?

Well, after posting here on Psych Central all this time...

So funny! I was thinking the same thing. I dont want anyone to read my writing....except for the hundreds on PC.....