[mixedup_emotions]

It's been 3 weeks since my last individual session with T, and I just don't feel like going back to that "place". That place of vulnerability. That place where I have to share my feelings of sadness, misery, etc.

I just want to live my life, pretend it all doesn't exist, didn't matter and just learn to forget again....I know I can do it.

My session is tomorrow, and I don't know. I just don't want to go. Just wondering if that's a common feeling when you're used to seeing T 2x/week and then go 3 weeks without....

[sunrise]

mixed_up, I haven't felt that way, but just wanted to offer some hugs. It sounds really difficult.

Maybe you can have some sessions where you don't put yourself in a deeply vulnerable position. Not every session has to be that way. Some sessions can be "resting" sessions, where you gather strength to do the deep and painful stuff the next time, or the time after that. Sometimes it can be helpful to go to therapy and do largely supportive work and build the therapy relationship. That makes it easier to dive into the hard stuff the next time. Do you ever do supportive sessions?

Take care.

[lily99]

Hi mixedup,
I'm not sure if I've experienced this myself, but earlier on in T I used to space out sessions by weeks, because of how deep the sessions would go and I was scared of the attention placed on me. I thought it was too good to last, so I'd stop going to make sure T would still care about me and be concerned when I returned.
Dunno....I'm a weird one

it makes sense that you want to stay away from a place that must stir up such hard emotions. All I can say is do what you need for yourself - you know yourself better than anyone. But stay strong. It's so worth it in the long run.

Take care

[BlueMoon6]

Hi MUE- I have felt this way. I wish it would all go away and I that I didnt have to do any work or "go there." I just want my dysfunctional ways and not feel anything...pain or anything.

But, then, I go and I do the work, because I know I need to and there is a VERY good feeling about the care I get from therapy. I guess its a decision.... which feels worse, to go into the pain, or live with it "underground."

But, it seems like it would hard to see T so frequently and then not at all for 3 weeks. It seems like it might be a good idea to just re-connect instead of getting into anything heavy.