Had to cancel T today

The dentist called me today and gave me his home phone number for over the weekend Which was very nice and reassuring, but I'd rather not be in the position of needing the dentist's home phone number

The swelling has been going down gradually today. I get tired really easily, but I feel like I'm heading in the right direction. I still look quite scary, but it's an improvement.

And to bring this back to therapy (), I had such an urge to call T today before he left town for the weekend, to ask for a message or something. Just some contact. But I realized that I didn't really *need* to, and I managed to wait it out and not call. There have been times in therapy when that would have been denying my needs and NOT a good thing...but today, it felt like it was a positive step. I didn't really *need* T, and I knew he was busy trying to get out of town, and we just talked last night. I was able to get through it on my own

I see him Tuesday and Thursday next week. I can't wait. Although, I think because I don't feel well, the thought of "therapy" is AWFUL to me right now. I'd like to just go and sleep in T's office. Maybe I'll be over that by my appointment time

((((Tree))))
I'm glad that the swelling is decreasing. Good job also on taking a step forward and feeling confident in yourself to wait and talk to T next week. I'm glad it felt good and not like you were depriving yourself.

(((((treehouse))))) I'm so glad to read the swelling is starting to go down. How is the pain now? I hope you are not suffering too much.

Treehous hope things are abating now. Totally sucks that you missed your T appoint and had to deal with so much pain. Sending to a lot of positive vibes.

What a relief that the swelling is going down and you are headed in the right direction.

I totally understand the positive of not calling T. What changes and growth you have undergone. This is a real big deal, you are in pain, very swollen with an infected bone in your mouth, scared, H has not been feeling well (but hopefully better by now), tired and have a house full of kids, yet you have the inner strength to know you will be OK. And you are relying on that inner strength. You have done amazing work, Tree, its like carrying an inner T with you. WOW!

I hope tomorrow is even more improvement

Good for you tree that you're feeling able to manage to make it through the weekend without needing a msg from t. Glad to hear the swelling is starting to subside. Sounds like the antibiotice are doing their job. An infection and strong antibiotics are certainly going to have an effect on your body and you'll need to give your body a rest to heal. Sounds like you're giving yourself good self care. Your family learns by this too that everyone needs to pitch in when things aren't running smoothly and mom's are human and get sick too. Always a silver lining in each cloud. Now if only I could believe that too. Anyway hope you continue to feel better.

Be well and take care,
bl

"There have been times in therapy when that would have been denying my needs and NOT a good thing...but today, it felt like it was a positive step. I didn't really *need* T, and I knew he was busy trying to get out of town, and we just talked last night. I was able to get through it on my own "

Pretty dang awesome, Tree! Knowing it, seeing a new boundary and knowing that you can make it, setting it, keeping it. All REALLY good skill-building. I think that totally earns T Points!!!