[mixedup_emotions]

I know this has to be from the effects of the medication change for my migraines....but every ounce of my entire being is raging internally.

My daughter just left the house on a playdate, and I literally took the opportunity to scream aloud....hoping that it would help. And it didn't.

The agitation is so incredibly intense, I can barely stand it...

I was already taking things a minute at a time...and now I'm taking it one breath at a time.

I don't know how I'm going to endure this. Knowing that I have a daughter to take care of, a roof to put over her head, a miserable work life with a torturous boss to face tomorrow, an unrelenting ex-husband...How am I going to survive this? One breath at a time, I guess.

And at what point do I cry MAYDAY? And who do I reach out to? My new doctor? My T? Go to the ER? I have no clue...

[pachyderm]

Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions

And at what point do I cry MAYDAY? And who do I reach out to? My new doctor? My T? Go to the ER?

Pick one and send out that Mayday. See what they say.

[mixedup_emotions]

Originally Posted by pachyderm

Pick one and send out that Mayday. See what they say.

Thanks....I don't want to cry MAYDAY just yet....cuz I'm frozen with fear as to what could happen.

I'm going to ride my exercise bike to see if it helps...if it doesn't, then I'll try a klonopin wafer...God help me....

(((((((((( mixed emotions ))))))))))

[sunrise]

Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions

And who do I reach out to? My new doctor? My T? Go to the ER? I have no clue...

Since you think this is from the new migraine medication you are on, I think the person to check with first would be the doctor who prescribed the medication. He/she may take you off the med, change the dose, etc. The side effects sound pretty severe, so I hope you can get relief soon.

[mixedup_emotions]

Originally Posted by sunrise

Since you think this is from the new migraine medication you are on, I think the person to check with first would be the doctor who prescribed the medication. He/she may take you off the med, change the dose, etc. The side effects sound pretty severe, so I hope you can get relief soon.

Thanks.....

I really do think it's more from coming off the other meds that I've been used to taking over the last few years rather than the new meds.

It's been 4 days without the old meds, which - sad to say - is the longest I've gone without using them in years. Perhaps being weaned off of them would've been more ideal, but since I've already gotten to day 4, I keep thinking that by just holding out a little while longer, I'll be ok.

I may call the dr if things get worse....

[skeksi]

It's bad enough to have emotional stuff going on, but when you add in pharmacological switches, it's like the whole internal system goes kablooey. I remember that they told you the first month would be rough, but maybe there is something they can do to ease the transition?

I think the idea of calling the dr tomorrow if things get worse is a good one. There's no need to suffer if they can help reduce the stress on you.

[mixedup_emotions]

Originally Posted by skeksi

It's bad enough to have emotional stuff going on, but when you add in pharmacological switches, it's like the whole internal system goes kablooey. I remember that they told you the first month would be rough, but maybe there is something they can do to ease the transition?

I think the idea of calling the dr tomorrow if things get worse is a good one. There's no need to suffer if they can help reduce the stress on you.

That is so true.

And yes, she did say that first month will be tough, possibly with intensifying migraines that the new meds may not help with until my body is adjusted to them. So far, so good with that aspect because I haven't gotten a severe migraine yet.

I will call the dr tomorrow if I feel worse. Thanks!!

[MissCharlotte]

((Mixed up))

If you feel you are in any danger please go to the ER. Otherwise, I agree with Sunrise. Maybe the doctor can prescribe something to help you during the transition between meds.
I hope you feel better soon.

[mixedup_emotions]

Originally Posted by MissCharlotte

((Mixed up))

If you feel you are in any danger please go to the ER. Otherwise, I agree with Sunrise. Maybe the doctor can prescribe something to help you during the transition between meds.
I hope you feel better soon.

Thank you....The feelings haven't subsided much, despite my efforts....but I'm at a point now where I am trying to accept them for what they are. It's difficult, and yes, I'm struggling...but I'm trying not to panic. I will definitely go to the ER if this gets out of control...

mixed, i recently went off an antidepressant that i'd been on for years. i knew the withdrawal effects were supposed to be awful for this drug and they were. it sounds somewhat similar to what you may be experiencing. one thing that really helped with the overwhelming stress (a lovely withdrawal effect of this drug) i experienced was to do a detox tea. i can't remember the name of the one i did but i got it at a health food store and you drink a gallon of tea over 3 hours. it helped a lot with the stress which was a side effect from going off the med. the tea was a box that had ~16 teabags, was specifically for detox and cost around $16-20. don't bother with the cheap ones you can get at the grocery store but a good detox tea can help a lot. i've done it twice now and it greatly helped flush the residue of the med out of my body. i don't normally feel irritable or cranky but boy was i when i was going off that med.

[lifelesstraveled]

Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions

I know this has to be from the effects of the medication change for my migraines....but every ounce of my entire being is raging internally.

My daughter just left the house on a playdate, and I literally took the opportunity to scream aloud....hoping that it would help. And it didn't.

The agitation is so incredibly intense, I can barely stand it...

I was already taking things a minute at a time...and now I'm taking it one breath at a time.

I don't know how I'm going to endure this. Knowing that I have a daughter to take care of, a roof to put over her head, a miserable work life with a torturous boss to face tomorrow, an unrelenting ex-husband...How am I going to survive this? One breath at a time, I guess.

And at what point do I cry MAYDAY? And who do I reach out to? My new doctor? My T? Go to the ER? I have no clue...

mixed up. I have been there before...not due to any meds--not sure what it's from- but I know what it feels like and it's dreadful...actually beyond it...it's unbearable. Can you try working out? like taking a walk--well depending on where you are and if it's still daytime(it's night time where I am) Maybe do some deep breathing exercises? If things get really bad please seek out some help, ok?

[mixedup_emotions]

Originally Posted by bloom3

mixed, i recently went off an antidepressant that i'd been on for years. i knew the withdrawal effects were supposed to be awful for this drug and they were. it sounds somewhat similar to what you may be experiencing. one thing that really helped with the overwhelming stress (a lovely withdrawal effect of this drug) i experienced was to do a detox tea. i can't remember the name of the one i did but i got it at a health food store and you drink a gallon of tea over 3 hours. it helped a lot with the stress which was a side effect from going off the med. the tea was a box that had ~16 teabags, was specifically for detox and cost around $16-20. don't bother with the cheap ones you can get at the grocery store but a good detox tea can help a lot. i've done it twice now and it greatly helped flush the residue of the med out of my body. i don't normally feel irritable or cranky but boy was i when i was going off that med.

Thanks for the suggestion! There's a health food store near my work that I can stop in during my lunch break tomorrow. Of course, that's after I call my dr.....

[mixedup_emotions]

Originally Posted by lifelesstraveled

mixed up. I have been there before...not due to any meds--not sure what it's from- but I know what it feels like and it's dreadful...actually beyond it...it's unbearable. Can you try working out? like taking a walk--well depending on where you are and if it's still daytime(it's night time where I am) Maybe do some deep breathing exercises? If things get really bad please seek out some help, ok?

I did do some exercise and it took the edge off slightly, for a short time. I am hoping to try to get some decent sleep tonight, although that's usually when the restless legs and agitation start acting up again. Grrr. I just took an Ambien, so hopefully that'll help....

Thanks for caring!!

[Sannah]

How are you today MUE?

[KDlady]

I have been switching meds - trying new ones too - i have been in brainsplitting headache mode for 3 days then it finally subsided - I can understand but I hope you can talk to a doc too - it helped me just to be re-assured that I was on the right track and it would get better

[zooropa]

hope you're feeling better today, MUE

[BlueMoon6]

((((((MUE)))))) I hope you are feeling better today. I agree that calling the doc is a good idea. Maybe you have already?

I have been on and off so many different kinds of medications and it takes such a toll on your body and mind. I also remember you saying the first month would be difficult, so you are 1 week into it, correct????

[mixedup_emotions]

Thanks everyone! I feel so cared for here....

Today was a tough day...The agitation was pretty bad this morning, so I went home for lunch and rode my exercise bike. Then, took a klonopin and a phenergan (which is one of the new meds).

I ended up feeling less agitated, but incredibly sleepy. So, I drank an energy drink to try to counteract the sleepiness. I felt like Elvis....

I was busy, so being occupied helped....

It's a lot more tolerable right now, thankfully. I am hoping things will improve from here....I keep thinking that if I can get through the next couple days, I'll be ok....so far so good.

Thanks again for caring!

[theave]

I'm glad to hear that it is becoming more bearable - look after yourself and I hope you sleep well, and that tomorrow is easier than today.

[BlueMoon6]

Im glad you are feeling better, too. That is a relief. I do hope it gets better and better.....Elvis

[mixedup_emotions]

Thanks, everyone.....

This morning, the agitation is back in full force. Along with a full blown migraine. Ugh. I don't want to have to be in a cycle of popping meds that make me sleepy just to get rid of the agitation...and then having to take something to wake up...so I am going to call the dr this morning.

(((((((((elvis))))))))))

[zooropa]

I'm sorry you're still struggling with this, I can see how hard you are trying and I now how frustrating it is to be on the merry-go-round of meds. I hope your dr was able to help you when you called this morning.

[mixedup_emotions]

I called and left a message for my new dr....and did not get a call back.

I found that as the day went on, the agitation lessened in severity - BUT a mother of all migraines was on the way.

I followed the dr's initial instructions by taking the new meds....and capped out. Then, right before group T, I took my "rescue med"....

NOTHING was helping. The migraine became so incredibly severe last night that I couldn't stand it. I was writhing in pain and resorted to taking narcotic pain meds (my old meds) just to ease the intensity. It took the edge off, but I am suffering. Really suffering.

Needless to say, I am not a happy camper. Not only do I feel like I 'failed' in keeping to the new meds only, but I feel defeated because I cannot function when in so much pain. I cannot take care of my daughter, be a good mom, get to work, perform my work duties, etc. while dealing with such severe pain. Considering my job is already on thin ice, it's just not a good time to be dealing with this kind of situation.

On top of that, I'm feeling quite defeated overall in life right now. The depression is starting to get the best of me. Between my job, my ex, the migraines, my life and the emptiness, lonliness, and misery.....

And on top of that, my T made mention in group about my "trust and comfort" issues - wondering if I'm taking an active role or just simply hoping it improves with time/experience. How about, this is as good as it friggin gets for me?