[ariatboot]

I hate it when I have to skip a week a T because of other things that have come up. I had a very horrible weekend with feeling depressed after my usual Tuesday morning session. I got a hold of T on Monday and he wanted me to come in to do an assessment and when I got there he couldn't do the assessment with me so I was pushed off onto one of the other T that work in his office. For me it took me over a year to trust my T and be able to open up to him and pushing me off onto someone else just made me shut down and tell that other T I was ok and I was just over reacting. Now I don't know what to do. I'm anxious to meet with my T but that wont be until next Tuesday. I have no other way to get in touch with my T and I'm starting to have anxiety attacks over it. I cant believe I am so dependent on my T but I am.

[Elana05]

Originally Posted by ariatboot

I hate it when I have to skip a week a T because of other things that have come up. I had a very horrible weekend with feeling depressed after my usual Tuesday morning session. I got a hold of T on Monday and he wanted me to come in to do an assessment and when I got there he couldn't do the assessment with me so I was pushed off onto one of the other T that work in his office. For me it took me over a year to trust my T and be able to open up to him and pushing me off onto someone else just made me shut down and tell that other T I was ok and I was just over reacting. Now I don't know what to do. I'm anxious to meet with my T but that wont be until next Tuesday. I have no other way to get in touch with my T and I'm starting to have anxiety attacks over it. I cant believe I am so dependent on my T but I am.

Hi ariatboot,

Is there any way you can call or leave a message with your T explaining this? It is totally understanable to need to feel that he is there for you. I can relate. It doesn't seem fair that he sent you to another person. Is there any way you can tell him?
Sending supportive thoughts...

E

That sounds really tough- that he made it sound like he could see you, and then sent you off to see a stranger. I think it's very understandable that you responded by shutting down, as it took you a long time to build a trusting relationship with your T.

I'm so sorry that you have no other way to contact T until next Tuesday, and this feels so far away. Can you try to think of strategies and skills which have worked for you before when things have felt very bad?

Thinking of you

[WikidPissah]

ariatboot....that totally sux. There is no way I could have opened up to a stranger either. I really hope you can find someway of reaching your T to talk before next week.

[ECHOES]

The pushing away would have triggered me, made me anxious, and I wouldn't call it over reacting - you reacted as you reacted because it touched deeply on the issue of trusting your T.

Talking to T about it when you do meet again will help with the anxiety this provoked. I'm sorry you are feeling anxious right now, but it is understandable. Can you go past the anxiety to the reasons behind it, so you can accept those valid fears/worries to find some relief?

[sugahorse1]

Yes, for me this would have also been VERY triggering. I have cancelled T apps in the past, because at the time I felt totally in control and happy. I then terribly regretted and battled to wait a full week until my next app.

Please try contact you T - call, e-mail, or text him. It's important you let him know how you feel, and your feelings are very real and valid.
I'm sorry this happened to you