[Can't Stop Crying]

Really, really tough session yesterday, just started a new med, fluctuating between coherent and babbling idiot, flashing between past and present at the speed of light, laughing and crying at the same time, my head is in a hurricane

Have I finally lost it?

[Elana05]

(((Can't Stop Crying)))

I'm sorry to hear how tough things are right now. Sending many supportive thoughts. I can relate.

Do you ever take anything for anxiety?

[Can't Stop Crying]

Originally Posted by Elana05

Do you ever take anything for anxiety?

Yes, have xanax and klonipin...already taken more than I should have today

Originally Posted by Can't Stop Crying

Really, really tough session yesterday, just started a new med, fluctuating between coherent and babbling idiot, flashing between past and present at the speed of light, laughing and crying at the same time, my head is in a hurricane

Have I finally lost it?

Where is the thread? I can't seem to find it.

[Can't Stop Crying]

new med - Nuvigil

Thread about my pathetic life is My Greatest Shame in Survivors of abuse... (is that what you meant?)

[ladyjrnlist]

Soundsl like you are adjusting to a lot all at once. I think it'll settle down. Just try hanging on.

[Can't Stop Crying]

I have never felt this before...it is freaking me out. Don't even know how to explain it, literally feels like something in me snapped!

Somebody please tell me that I am not completely insane!

[mixedup_emotions]

((( CSC )))

You are not completely insane! I can relate to where you are, and I know how awful it feels to be so out of sorts with your feelings....It does pass, although hard to imagine when you're in it.

Can you try to do something to help distract you and keep you present? Like, go for a walk, hang out with a friend, etc?

[Can't Stop Crying]

I go back to work on Sunday night (3rd shift) after a four month leave so I'm trying to adjust my schedule back to nights. I haven't slept since Friday morning so I feel like a zombie, but (maybe the new med?) all jittery and jumping out of my skin.
Not sure if I should leave the house right now in this state and I tried painting as a distraction, but my hands are all shaky so I ended up throwing them away.

New meds, tough topics in therapy, stress, anxiety about returning to work....maybe it's just too much?!?!?

[mixedup_emotions]

You sure are under a lot of stress!! I'd imagine that if I was in the same position, I would want to try to do some things to help me relax - like take a nice warm bath, light some candles, listen to some soothing music.

[dizgirl2011]

Hey ,

Are these side effects to be expected? If your feeling very bad please make sure you visit your doctor, even just to let them know and check that your reaction to starting the meds is "normal". I hope you feel better soon hun!

Diz xxx

[Can't Stop Crying]

the meds are stimulants specifically made for shift workers to help me re-adjust to my new schedule. I think the meds on top of everything else is just making me feel crazy

[dizgirl2011]

Originally Posted by Can't Stop Crying

the meds are stimulants specifically made for shift workers to help me re-adjust to my new schedule. I think the meds on top of everything else is just making me feel crazy

This might be a stupid question but were they recommended by a doctor? It just seems odd that you were perscribed drugs for your job...but this could be total ignorance on my part?

[Can't Stop Crying]

Yes- came from my doc. I've worked nights for 12 years and was just on a four month leave due to a break down. I return to work on Sunday and these should help me focus all night. It's almost like ADD meds, but it is not supposed to have any of the anxiety type side effects. There actually is a syndrome called shift workers syndrome for those who do not work typical schedules. I don't have that syndrome, but my doc thought taking these temporarily would help me re-adjust to working all night. The med is called Nuvigil

[lastyearisblank]

Hey (((((CSC)))))) I can imagine all too well what you're going through. I hope you get to take a rest in a while and eat some good foods with lots of vitamins to replenish your energy. It does sound like the drug.

[Can't Stop Crying]

Ordering my kids pizza for dinner and then I'm going to try really hard to take a nap before I take the med and do my second all-nighter. Was almost asleep this morning when h decided to do some house repairs. Hammering and sleeping don't work well together so I gave up on the sleep thing. Being up all night when everyone is asleep gives me way too much time to think...last night I ran out of quiet distractions...I'll have to try again tonight...

[nannypat]

This sounds like me when I am having a reaction to a new med that is affecting me badly. It makes me feel like i am losing my mind. Sorry things are so difficult . I will keep you in my thoughts.

[Julie74]

Originally Posted by Can't Stop Crying

Yes- came from my doc. I've worked nights for 12 years and was just on a four month leave due to a break down. I return to work on Sunday and these should help me focus all night. It's almost like ADD meds, but it is not supposed to have any of the anxiety type side effects. There actually is a syndrome called shift workers syndrome for those who do not work typical schedules. I don't have that syndrome, but my doc thought taking these temporarily would help me re-adjust to working all night. The med is called Nuvigil

I hope you feel better. it's hard trying different meds. Hope it works for you.

[Can't Stop Crying]

Originally Posted by Can't Stop Crying

Ordering my kids pizza for dinner and then I'm going to try really hard to take a nap before I take the med and do my second all-nighter.

So that didn't work, it's incredible how needy children can be when mom doesn't feel good! They are great kids and love them to death, but geez it's hard to be patient when you feel like crap. Night 2 of this med - hopefully will be better. And I hope I can sleep tomorrow. I do not want to think about Friday's therapy session tonight so I'll have to get creative in my distractions. In about 10 hours I should be able to sleep...counting down!

[Brighid]

sorry to hear you are having such a hard time adjusting to the new meds. That has to be tough. I remember when they first put me on my meds, ativan, lithium, and tegratol WOW was I screwed up, we were replacing our bedroom set upstairs, well, that night (first night on meds) I went upstairs to get something out of the bedroom and I woke up to my daughter screaming my name......................I had passed out and the headboard had fell on my head. Then I thought our cat was a large lion about to eat me.....I wouldn't sleep in the bed because of it. LOL...... so, it is very difficult. I really hope it gets better for you!

[online user]

Wow! Lots going on all at once. It WILL settle down and get better. After you do the first day at work, things will get easier. It's more stressful because you haven't been for a while. The second day will be easier than the first, then the second week will be easier than the first, etc. You'll have some satisfaction from being a productive wage-earner again. So it won't be ALL negative. You can do this--just take deep breaths and try to find something peaceful or soothing you can do as others have suggested. Maybe plan a reward for yourself when you get your first regular paycheck again--take some money out to buy yourself something you'd like.

I think, too, that you are entirely sane, just stressed out and uncertain about the new meds. Take care of yourself, for you--you deserve it!

[Can't Stop Crying]

I seriously do not know what is going on with me....I've been literally laughing at everything for like 2 hours straight....thank goodness no one can see me...I'm alone in the basement trying really hard to be quiet and I can't stop laughing. WTH.....there isn't even anything funny, sure beats the heck out of crying though!

4 more hours and maybe? I can fall asleep!

[Can't Stop Crying]

laughing stopped, now the work anxiety is kicking in, ready to go to sleep, I hope I can, it's a bit earlier than I planned, but I am exhausted. how many emotions exist? I think I managed to experience every single one in the last two days.

more about T session when I'm not all whacked out

please, please, please let. me. sleep.....

[SpiritRunner]

wow, this sounds like a very wrenching, exhausting, frightening experience for you! I don't think you're insane, although I can understand how you would feel like it.....I understand the feeling! I felt wild and crazy and weird and sick on my meds too when I first started the Abilify, but it did get better in a few days. Just started a new med, a beta blocker, it does help with the weird anxiety and chest pain I had, but I still feel oddly nervous and jittery.....maybe that will pass soon too.....
I hope your body adjusts soon and you get relief from these symptoms!
many hugs to you.....

[Can't Stop Crying]

slept for about 2 hours...now wide awake again! it's gotta be the Nuvigil, maybe I can just take half a pill...better give the doc a call. I do not want to spend the whole day worrying about going back to work