[PTSDlovemycats]

I think that after what happened on Tuesday I don't want to go see my T tomorrow. I think I am still pretty hurt and upset about what happened. I don't know if I am going to go or not. Do I stay home tomorrow or do I go see my T?? Debating on calling her tonight...I feel like I am at a loss... -Sigh-

[swimmergirl]

(((((((((Cats)))))))))) Argh a lot of people are having a hard time with their T's lately. I hope it means they will make progress. Therapy is so so painful sometimes. With what happened with zoo, you don't want to cancel and then regret it later unless you are sure you need a break. Are you afraid of seeing her? Are you mad at her? How are you feeling? ((((((hugs))))))))))

[karebear1]

For what it's worth cats- I say you should go..... be upset, let T know, but go.

[PTSDlovemycats]

Originally Posted by swimmergirl

(((((((((Cats)))))))))) Argh a lot of people are having a hard time with their T's lately. I hope it means they will make progress. Therapy is so so painful sometimes. With what happened with zoo, you don't want to cancel and then regret it later unless you are sure you need a break. Are you afraid of seeing her? Are you mad at her? How are you feeling? ((((((hugs))))))))))

I am upset. I am afraid that she will act that way again. I want to hide.

[PTSDlovemycats]

Originally Posted by karebear1

For what it's worth cats- I say you should go..... be upset, let T know, but go.

Let her know that I am upset with her? Won't that open a can of worms? I don't know if I can do that...

[PTSDlovemycats]

I am still considering calling her tonight....either to cancel...or to atleast say that I am upset....haven't decided yet..

[mixedup_emotions]

Oh, I know this place so well.....and I know a lot of us have experienced this....

I completely understand the strong urge to want to cancel. But, it does leave the potential for the hurt and anger to drag on - and even possibly amplify it - if you don't go.

Can you try to see this as an opportunity? It's an opportunity for you to address someone who you feel has been hurtful towards you....to tell that person that you don't expect to be treated that way....to try to get your needs met. This could very well happen in other meaningful relationships in your life - and what greater way to figure out what works and doesn't work by addressing it with your dr.

I do hope you go...and I hope you find the strength to address this.

[PTSDlovemycats]

Thanks MUE for your wonderful words of wisom, I appreciate it a lot!

[zooropa]

oh man, this is tough. As you know I just went through this on Monday and I can say that I pretty much regretted my decision to cancel as soon as I was past the point of no return and couldn't un-cancel. Now I have to sit with my thoughts and feelings for another week. I'm just saying, if I could do it over I would force myself to go.

[PTSDlovemycats]

Originally Posted by zooropa

oh man, this is tough. As you know I just went through this on Monday and I can say that I pretty much regretted my decision to cancel as soon as I was past the point of no return and couldn't un-cancel. Now I have to sit with my thoughts and feelings for another week. I'm just saying, if I could do it over I would force myself to go.

Thanks Zoo. I sent my Pdoc a text asking her to please call me because I need to talk to her about something and it is kinda important... I am waiting to hear back from her...

[PTSDlovemycats]

I think if she doesn't respond then I will probably cancel...not certain but that is what I am leaning towards. I see her again on Tuesday so it's not like I would have a huge time to wait before seeing her again,,,,

[zooropa]

that was a great plan, cats. I chose not to call my T about my fears of going to session, and emailed her instead. But then she didn't get the email, so it didn't do me any good. Your idea of texting was a much better one, and I hope you hear back from her soon.

[PTSDlovemycats]

Originally Posted by zooropa

that was a great plan, cats. I chose not to call my T about my fears of going to session, and emailed her instead. But then she didn't get the email, so it didn't do me any good. Your idea of texting was a much better one, and I hope you hear back from her soon.

I hope that I hear back from her soon as well...

[PTSDlovemycats]

I also think that if I don't hear from her tonight then I think I might feel like she doesn't care...care about what I consider important. That is just kinda where I am at right now. Sort of like people are either all good or all bad right now. I know that isn't accurate but I guess that those are just some of my borderline tendencies coming out...

[PTSDlovemycats]

Well, we talked briefly tonight. It looks like I am probably going tomorrow...

[PTSDlovemycats]

I hope that it goes well. Fingers crossed....

[ECHOES]

Originally Posted by PTSDlovemycats

Let her know that I am upset with her? Won't that open a can of worms? I don't know if I can do that...

Yes, absolutely! Go in there with your feelings about it. To stay home would be coping with the bad feelings by being avoidant, it would be self-harming by way of cutting out your therapy session. Go, with the words of what it feels like and how hard it is to have those feelings.

[Flooded]

If you don't go, you'll be proving her right.

[lastyearisblank]

Excellent. Really lovely job you calling her and her calling back. I hope tomorrow's session is good, though I can't imagine what would top ("I've been seeing you suffer for 8 years--- don't do this to me!!")

[granite1]

cats it was a really hard session wasnt it?i am hoping she is going to be a bit easier on you thhis session.and you are able to let her know how she left you feelingill be thinking of you.

[karebear1]

thinking about you this morning cats. hope all turns out well with your session today.

[SpiritRunner]

I am glad you are going, really I am. It will be OK! Just be honest and open with her, tell her you feel like hiding, if that is still the case.......communicate! ((((((((ptsd))))))))))

[mixedup_emotions]

I'm glad you're going too....Update when you can! ((( BIG HUGS )))

[Dr.Muffin]

Originally Posted by PTSDlovemycats

Let her know that I am upset with her? Won't that open a can of worms? I don't know if I can do that...

the way i see it, the can's already open! you can sit there covered in worms, pretending that nothing's wrong....or you can live in reality. you're upset. that's okay. she can handle it. and if, by some off chance, she can't handle it....that's not your fault.

[Sannah]

Very good cats! Going to session and facing your feelings and her is how you will learn to behave as an adult. You can do it!!