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Dec 05, 2005, 10:23 PM
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I have an appt with my T tomorrow and I am really stressed out about it. I have been building up to a point of disclosing some details about my abuse, so I'm sure this is why, but I can't get past this. This is the FIRST time I've ever been in tears over something like this. . .I have been crying off and on all day long. . .whenever I think about having to go. He has never scared me, respects my boundaries. . .is basically a good guy. But he sees me. . .and I mean, he "SEES" me.
I have been having this repetitive dream, over and over. . .about seeing him, and trying desperately to tell him, to force the words out of my mouth, but I can't. I can't do it, and I try to bolt. He is talking to me, but I can't hear him and I run. I am running trying to find my way out of the facility, and finally end up behind the water fountain trembling. I am so upset over this. . .has anyone else experienced anything like this before in therapy?
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Dec 05, 2005, 10:32 PM
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Ok ((((gracey))))) I'm sorry to hear you are struggling with this. Can you try telling yourself (the truth) that you won't HAVE to share anything you don't feel like sharing when you are at T's?? You have the thoughts if you decide to share, but if you allow yourself to not have to, maybe that will reduce some of the stress, the expectation of divulging?
Maybe you feel like you will lose control? That you will share more than the T can handle? You need to tell yourself that neither of those things will happen... don't feel pressured (even if you are doing it to yourself) to expose any thoughts unless you decide to in session... and then it will be ok! TC
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Dec 05, 2005, 10:36 PM
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Maybe you need to move a little slower? and or copy this post you made on your fears and share that with him so he can make it less scary when you are ready?
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Dec 06, 2005, 12:00 AM
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I'm so sorry you are struggling this much about telling your T about your abuse. If you don't think you can tell him verbally, maybe you could write it down. It's just a suggestion that may make letting him know about the abuse a little bit easier.
Hang in there...I'm sure you'll do fine in whatever you choose to do.
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Dec 06, 2005, 07:22 PM
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I notice that today is the day you saw your therapist. I hope things went well and you divulged what you felt comfortable doing. It is such a hard subject to broach that I worried about telling my t and finally resorted to writing it down. Agian, I hope things went well today.
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Dec 06, 2005, 07:46 PM
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If you can Gracey, let us know how you are today.
I've been thinking of you too. Petunia |
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