Daily Roll Call for Psychotherapy Forum

skysblue · Aug 21, 2011, 06:44 PM

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Originally Posted by kaliope

that sounds so nice skysblue, can i come join you?

Sure, I might've gone if you had come. I ended up going to Borders to get some books on sale (as if I need any more books

) Maybe beach tomorrow instead.

FourRedheads · Aug 21, 2011, 06:46 PM

Today was ... nice.

Went to church this AM and wasn't triggered. It was pleasant to go there and feel safe. Kids have been happily playing with neighbor kids all afternoon. Walked the dog 4 times today. Feels good to walk outside.

nicoleb2 · Aug 21, 2011, 07:26 PM

Long, long day today. School supply shopping.. just feeling really sad today. Don't want to do anything

Aug 21, 2011, 09:35 PM

Today was triggering in so many ways. I am trying to do what my therapist taught me to do in times like these. I cleaned the house, then went shopping. Anything to get me distracted!!

My husband wants me to call my therapist and talk, but I am not doing that. I am not in a 'crisis' and don't want to bother her. I may send her an email later tonight just to 'get this out'. Sometimes that really helps me when nothing else seems to be working.

Hoping for a better day tomorrow. Please let my students be good!

Aug 21, 2011, 09:39 PM

It has been a difficult day. If my sister had lived, she and her husband would have celebrated their 35th wedding anniversary today. I suppose this year will be filled with those kinds of significant dates that will bring her memory very close.

To add insult to injury, I've been harassed via PM by someone on PC today. Talk about kicking a person when she's down. I didn't deserve the crap I had to endure today. I'll never understand why some people get their jollies out of being cruel. Oh well, moving forward.

Tomorrow our students start their first day at school. I've already been corresponding with one particular student who is enrolled in my class who has special medical needs. Hopefully I was able to reassure her that we could work out whatever needs to happen to keep her safe and healthy in the classroom. My son's best friend was also talking to me today because he has had to change high schools due to a move and he's really nervous about coming to my school. He has my room number now and will come by whenever he needs a touch of home. I guess I'm ready to start this grind. It has been such a miserably hot summer here in Dallas and I'm just not feeling terribly refreshed. It will come. It will come. It always does.

Rose76 · Aug 21, 2011, 09:56 PM

Up all night fighting/avoiding sleep. Slept 3 and 1/2 hours this morning. Have been up and doing things since. I just could fall out of this chair easily, I'm so sleepy. I will go lie down.

delicatefade26 · Aug 21, 2011, 09:58 PM

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Originally Posted by farmergirl

To add insult to injury, I've been harassed via PM by someone on PC today. Talk about kicking a person when she's down. I didn't deserve the crap I had to endure today. I'll never understand why some people get their jollies out of being cruel. Oh well, moving forward.

That is no good no one deserves to harassed on here!! I'm sorry that happened to ya especially when you are dealing with a lot it sounds like! I hope you have a good start to your school year-I'm sure it's very hectic for awhile!

Rose76 · Aug 21, 2011, 10:03 PM

Well, I did get showered and shampood and went to church. Then I did go to Walmart's and get groceries. With so little sleep, that was pretty good.

Indie'sOK · Aug 21, 2011, 10:52 PM

I want to see T. I want to hug her. Just want a day off, really. I've worked 4 days so far, and I've got another 5 to go. Is it pathetic that I only work four hour shifts, yet want a day off?

The 29th can't come soon enough.

nicoleb2 · Aug 22, 2011, 12:16 AM

Frustrated... should be sleeping. My diary card for my T and dbt took me forever to do this week. Nervous about seeing T tomorrow because we are going to further discuss the last time I si'd

SilentLucidity · Aug 22, 2011, 12:43 AM

I finally got around to playing with my clay today. It is so nice to get out of my head for that bit of time. I am hoping to make Sundays a day for ME this school year - no work, only spending my time how I want to spend it. Today was a good start on that road.

skysblue · Aug 22, 2011, 09:23 AM

Strength training at gym this morning at 6:00 a.m. - shoulder press, rear deltoid, arm extension, etc. etc. inhale, exhale, inhale, groan, gasp, grimace, sweat dripping - man, that felt good.

3 things I need to remember to bring back my equilibrium - exercise, nature and dancing.

To the pool tomorrow.

rainbow8 · Aug 22, 2011, 09:29 AM

Yesterday my H and I went on a day trip with our friends. It was very nice!!

Rose76 · Aug 22, 2011, 12:37 PM

I am really sleep deprived and I wouldn't even try to drive like this. Hope I can go back to sleep. Then I better get my meds. I ran out of some stuff and I am all messed up. Totally my own fault. I am med dependent to sleep. I hate to lie down again. What a cycle this has become.

delicatefade26 · Aug 22, 2011, 01:37 PM

Doing really well today-was feeling a little anxiety over school starting up again next week and how busy it will be...but after organizing I feel more excited than anything!! I think I will take advantage of the time I have to nap this week! Also-I can't wait for my next session with T-I could use a prayer & a hug from him

FourRedheads · Aug 22, 2011, 03:11 PM

Feeling sad today. And... angry .....

WePow · Aug 22, 2011, 03:17 PM

I woke up still exhuasted and in some pain, but doing MUCH MUCH better than this weekend. I went into work but was still hurting and customers on the phone were asking what was wrong with me. And I was just too exhausted. So I called my boss and went home. I just couldn't force myself because I knew that was bad for me long term. I wrote T about that and he said I did a good job taking care of myself. I actually was sitting at work thinking "What would T do?" I went home and slept until about 20 min ago. Will go back to bed in a while. But doing better by the hour. Yippie! I don't EVER want to be in that much pain again!

kaliope · Aug 22, 2011, 04:30 PM

well today didnt start great. made an inexcusable professional mistake, but just took steps to correct it but doesnt make it better. going to a suicide conference the next two days. worried about how will respond to it. i think my T is going to it as well. would it be inappropriate to track him down so i can have him for support while i am there?

Aug 22, 2011, 05:34 PM

((((((((Chris))))))))))

This will be a year of "firsts" with your sister. I'm sorry the pain of missing her is so close right now.

AND sorry to hear about the PM situation. No one needs or deserves that.

Many, many

Aug 22, 2011, 06:00 PM

Well, the first day with students was a testimony to Murphy's Law. Schedules had the wrong room numbers on them so we had kids wandering everywhere. The district has started a big technology boost. We're all supposed to be utilizing technology. Well, ironically, the district server got a virus and the WHOLE system shut down on the first day of school. Gotta love technology. (That's why I still prefer to work without it in the classroom. Technology is entirely unreliable; books and paper don't break down.) Oh well, call me a dinosaur. Tomorrow should be a bit smoother, but the virus issue is going to take some time to work out.

nicoleb2 · Aug 22, 2011, 06:28 PM

Feeling very vulnerable right now. Opened up and talked to T about some stuff I have not told her in the 4 years that I have been seeing her.

I don't like being vulnerable and feeling like I am out of control. Having bad SI urges right now

SilentLucidity · Aug 22, 2011, 07:21 PM

Had to power through the sheer act of getting to work today - didn't think I was going to make it. It sure would be nice if I could tell why some days are so much harder than others. Just have to remember to breathe. However, the one good thing I did today was tell someone, "No thank you. I choose not to participate." I am very proud of myself for that because it is REALLY difficult for me.