Daily Roll Call for Psychotherapy Forum

SilentLucidity · Aug 24, 2011, 10:17 PM

just breathe

kaliope · Aug 24, 2011, 10:27 PM

day two of suicide intervention training done. triggered more today but coped well. bit obsessed with idea of death. dont know where i am going to go with this.

Rose76 · Aug 24, 2011, 10:28 PM

Tonight, I am promising myself that I am going to bed before midnight. I need a routine, because this has gotten too stressful physically.

delicatefade26 · Aug 25, 2011, 12:47 AM

I'm pretty sure I'm in a hypomanic state...it's almost 2 a.m. and I feel like I could stay up the rest of the night-I went to the extreme in organizing my notebooks and things for classes that start next week...if other people were not sleeping in the house I would clean...It just sucks b/c I've felt so dang good the past 3 days and I was hoping it was just a normal good feeling days..I'm so confused...I have a session with T tomorrow (well today really...and I honestly don't feel like telling him about any of this...I have one thing in mind I want to talk about-so I plan on just saying I'm good-feeling good...he usually can tell when I'm not saying something though-so maybe I will just be straightforward with him-I don't know I guess we shall see...I wonder if doing a little bit of dancing will help me fall asleep..lol! I wrote my list of what i want to talk about with T tomorrow-maybe I will prioritize that for a while...oh I just realized I also have to fix my calendar on the wall-i forgot that one!! alrighty hope everyone is doing well!!! talk to ya later : )

crazycanbegood · Aug 25, 2011, 02:51 AM

Blah. Leaving T in 5 days.

delicatefade26 · Aug 25, 2011, 09:30 AM

Doing okay today-I actually did get some sleep! I know I should go to the gym-I don't know if I can motivate myself enough though...I have a session in about 5 hours and I can't wait to see T!! I've missed him so much this week! I hope it's a good session!

Rose76 · Aug 25, 2011, 10:02 AM

I went to sleep at 2 a.m. which was an improvement over 7 a.m. I am coming out of that "driven" mode. Now I think I'm on a normal mental energy level. I am not depressed. Anxiety is there, but not too hard to manage. This is best I've felt since getting diagnosed with major depression last Fall. Next step is to start writing a daily plan. Hard to do because I am not self-disciplined. I better or I'll just fritter away time and forget what focus has to be.

kaliope · Aug 25, 2011, 04:27 PM

i am exhausted today after two 13 hour days. i should really plan better. now i will be 7 hours over on my time card. that with the 2 hours over from last time period gives me 9. save them for my vacation i guess.

i signed up for an online dating service. scary. wasnt getting any hits at all. stopped visiting the site all togehter. i asked god if he would send somebody nice into my life a week or so ago. then the other night i check the site and i had gotten a post from a man, a very friendly note. there was nothing about him that i could criticize. i wasnt going to write back and closed out but something told me to go back and tell him thank you for the nice note. he seems very kind. could this be the guy i asked god for? weird timing for certain. i dont know what to do. i havent been in any sort of relationship for over nine years. fear.

FourRedheads · Aug 25, 2011, 04:34 PM

Tired today. Didn't sleep well last night. Beautiful weather today. I feel flat. Numb. I don't know if it's worse to not feel anything or to feel all the bad stuff.

nicoleb2 · Aug 25, 2011, 05:32 PM

Today is a bad day. My kids are yelling and screaming and I have no patience for it at all. I am in a cruddy mood. My T wants me to keep feeling my feelings, but I don't know how I can keep going when the feelings make me so anxious and sad

laceylu · Aug 25, 2011, 06:38 PM

tired and wanting T to help

granite1 · Aug 25, 2011, 06:43 PM

thinking way to much about the past today and not dealing well with it hopping tomorrow will be better

SilentLucidity · Aug 25, 2011, 07:47 PM

What do you do when work seems to be your trigger?

BonnieJean · Aug 25, 2011, 07:48 PM

I was fine yesterday. Had an anxiety ridden day with my daughter today.

And now I'm realizing it has been 26 hours since I emailed T and she has yet to reply. Why hasn't she? Was it what I said in the email? Was it Wednesday's session? Is she just busy? Is she away? She's never not replied. Should I email her again? Why can't she just respond????

Butterflies Are Free · Aug 25, 2011, 08:33 PM

Had a good session with T today - brought in my poster about "finding my voice" - worked on it for a few hours last night.

delicatefade26 · Aug 25, 2011, 09:26 PM

I had a session with my T this evening and it was really good!! I brought in a list for the first time of things I wanted to talk about-and that seemed to help b/c sometimes I totally blank on the things I wanted to discuss! He is so supportive of me and makes me laugh-and I can feel how proud he is of me on the work I'm doing and it's helping save my life pretty much (I don't think he knows how much he means to me)

Aug 25, 2011, 09:42 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by pachyderm

I imagined myself talking to a therapist and trying to say what was going on. Finally the T said to me that maybe I had a lot of legitimate things to be angry about. I told the imaginary T that that was the first time in a long time that anyone had validated my experiences, instead of arguing and disputing everything I said.

I LOVE this, pachy

But I'm sorry you're feeling so bad.

Aug 25, 2011, 11:01 PM

Today was another long stressful day at work. On top of that, I am not feeling well. Crackers is just about all I can eat! I am looking forward to Saturday when I can sleep as much as I want!

Aug 25, 2011, 11:08 PM

Busy, busy busy day at work. same tomorrow and same saturday, sunday off, then the grind starts again on monday.... AAAHHHhhh opening days at a university. so much fun, so many new people, all excited, some scared,... but ohhh so busy... crazy dayz.....
LOL needing a foot massage big time!