[MASIMO]

Trying to recover from a PTSD attack this weekend. T emailed me with some support. Still scary wondering when it's going to happen again. T on vacation this week I can still email him though.

[Indie'sOK]

Let us know how it goes Squig...hope you're ok

[childofyen]

I've been meh for a couple of days now. No energy, no focus, no emotions, no wants, just meh. It's all the energy I have just to type this... but I need to keep a record so I can talk to my T about it when she gets back... which feels like a lifetime from now. Wish I could drink to pass the time but I need to make it to my next T appt. Eleven days. Meh.

[kaliope]

i only have two clients today at one and two. dont want to be here. think i will leave early today as i work late the next three days teaching classes. thought this morning maybe i would start going to church. im searching for meaning in life and im certainly not going to find it at the starbucks drivethrough, the only other place i visit outside of work.

crazycanbegood- good luck on the licensing exam. what are you getting licensed in?

mixedupemotions- dont sell yourself short- cleaning a cat box and a fridge takes LOTS of energy!

Just got in from the doctor. The good news is that it is NOT melanoma! The bad news is that I have second degree burns from overusing the ice packs. Just have to follow some simple things until it heals. Other than that, I am okay. Phew!! that was a scare!

[quote=kaliope;1942930]i only have two clients today at one and two. quote]

Are you a therapist?

[Indie'sOK]

Yay Squig!

Bad day today....realized that how I feel about myself is based on how other people treat me....it really sucks...my H. treats me like i don't matter or even exist...

[WePow]

Did well today. I saw that PC article about sugar being linked to depression... so I decided to cut down on sugar this weekend and at work today. I actually think it worked! I was more peaceful. Now to just keep it up!

In addition to my doctor appointment, I went to my school today and worked in my classroom. I had a blast. My room is almost ready. It is so bright and colorful. I got my door decorated and it looks awesome!! A very 'cheery' welcome to my new students this year.

Overall I feel really good right now.

[karebear1]

That's good to hear (about the cutting back on sugar) WePow. I know you're going through a hard time with T being gone- but you're doing SOOOOOOOO GREAT!

Today has been kind of a hard day for me. I'm kinda reliving the rupture T and I had a few months ago- and I'm struggling with it. I think I have been for the past couple of weeks. I've had a hard time walking into her office- I almost can't do it, and I'm afraid that when I have my next appointment I probably won't be able to go in there. It's really troubling me right now.

[Flooded]

Can't.Stop.Shopping

[Amore415]

Originally Posted by elliemay

I ordered "love's executioner" today by Irvin Yalom. I guess I figure things have been so good, calm and productive in therapy as of late that it's time for me to freak out again.

It's a good book! My copy is signed! I met him almost 15 years ago.....

[Amore415]

Originally Posted by geez

I've had a good day and trying not to think about my 'last appt' at the end of August! My next appt is this Tuesday and I think the hard part of ending therapy is the transference I'm experiencing right now.

Remember you can always go back for a check in!

[wintergirl]

I have to say that I'm jealous of those of you who can email and text your T! I think it would probably turn into a weird compulsion for me, but it'd be nice to have that contact option.

But anyway... today went well. I had only one temper flare-up, and it was fairly easily contained, and I didn't let it ruin my whole day. And I get to see T on Wednesday! It's been a month since I've seen him.

[Kacey2]

The pain and growth I have felt lately has been amazing. Today was an overwhelming day. I wanted to check myself into the hospital but I didn't. I have never willingly went to the hospital before. I have always been in on a 72 but things are rough lately. I know that I hit a whole new bottom when I want to go there. I met with my t and feel stronger, like I can do this. I told him that I wouldn't su because it would hurt him and a couple of other people in my life.

Today I told my t that I have so much gratitude for him. That I feel so cared for by him and that after all these years I know that I am loved by him. I told him that he didn't have to say anything, he didn't have to confirm or deny it. He did say, "KC you are right, I do love you."

It is so much easier for me to do therapy when I know that this is a very real relationship. My therapist gave me a very beautiful gift today. I will never forget this.

[kaliope]

Kacey2 - going in the hospital voluntarily is a whole different experience. Getting hospitalized has always been my greatest fear in life. I was placed on an involuntary once and it was horrible. A year later my T talked me into going in voluntarily and it was so much better. I stayed for a week and it was realy beneficial.

Squiggle. I am not a therapist, but i am a social worker. i do educational counseling, mostly parenting/divorce issues and i teach classes.

Today i am feeling anxious about something i cannot identify. it is antoher slow day and i have to stay late tonight to teach a new class and not many families have called back to say they would be attending so i dont know what to expect.

I wish i would have had appt with T today but i only see him every other tuesday. it seems so long since i have last seen him. we had a misunderstanding at the end of my last appt and although he called to straighten it out it is still weighing heavy on my mind. i guess that is what my anxiety is about. it is tueday, T day, but not the week i see him.

hope everybody else is doing as good as they can be.

[sunrise]

Originally Posted by Readytostop

Bad day today....realized that how I feel about myself is based on how other people treat me....it really sucks...my H. treats me like i don't matter or even exist...

This really struck me, as I have been there. You know your true worth, Readytostop. Don't let the naysayers get you down. Hope you have other relationships that bring you comfort and joy to help balance out the other.

[skysblue]

25 hours until I 'confront' my T. Dang, it's going to be tough. But, I promised her (by my own volition) that I will be as honest as I possibly can and that includes bringing up things that are really really tough for me to bring up.

My session today was incredible!!! Absolutely awesome. I let her read some of the posts I made in my other thread about things you would like to say to your therapist but can't (posts #85 and #191). She got teary-eyed!! OMG, that just made my day!

I am elated at the moment!

[WePow]

Today was my 13 yr anviversary with my mate. I worked then went to dinner with her. It was good. But she brought up the physical stuff and that is a whole 'nuther subject. But it kinda made me feel worthless. But it is ok. I will work through it with my T ... if he ever gets back!!!

[lastyearisblank]

I boxed- yikes! Did test prep & tried to be good. I guess not every day can be inspired but sometimes the best you can do is to be independent.

Wepow congrats!

[Lauru]

I did a lot of work, and have even more to do. I am anxious, scared of failing. I can't fail, not again. Not again. At least my partner is there for me. She is so kind and loving and everything about her makes me feel so much better. I truly love her. So I guess it wasn't such a bad day after all

[Butterflies Are Free]

Well, I did pretty well today - my T. comes back next Monday. I saw my PDoc today and had a good appointment. I think about my T a lot but I think that's okay.

[laceylu]

Today I am still tired. Listened to the guided imagery by Belleruth Naparastek on my mp3 player last night for the first time and at midnight I startled awake thinking who is talking to me!! The player must keep on playing over and over. How funny. Still have to work out the bugs with the player.