[mcl6136]

All,

Two hours until T. Of course, I'm freaked and worried whether the new T will like me (it did help to get this out yesterday about my old T. on a thread...thanks for the input).

Also worried whether I will like HER! that's progress.

I'm hoping to find someone I feel really comfortable with (or feel that will grow over time). I'm picturing a much more welcoming atmosphere and an ability to do some preliminary "small talk" and hoping that my new T will be more participatory and offer some reflection and feedback. Still I feel like hurling....I just do.

I'm so nervous that I'm considering showing up REALLY late. Or "gettiing lost"

I'm also considering calling a very old T back...we did some good work together but her approach has become very different (new age stuff and law of attraction stuff, which doesn't suit me as well as I"d like). Still, this very old T and I have wonderful rapport. We really "get" each other.

No real questions here just huge nerves. I'm just so afraid of opening up...to be shut down, and it's clear to me that I felt really damaged by my cold distant T. I honestly think I need therapy to deal with my failed therapy. Someone here relate?

[stopdog]

Originally Posted by mcl6136

I'm hoping to find someone I feel really comfortable with (or feel that will grow over time). I'm picturing a much more welcoming atmosphere and an ability to do some preliminary "small talk" and hoping that my new T will be more participatory and offer some reflection and feedback. Still I feel like hurling....I just do.
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I'm so nervous that I'm considering showing up REALLY late. Or "gettiing lost"
.......

No real questions here just huge nerves. I'm just so afraid of opening up...to be shut down, and it's clear to me that I felt really damaged by my cold distant T. I honestly think I need therapy to deal with my failed therapy. Someone here relate?

Good luck. Give the new one a chance. I can relate to hurling. I did it before every appointment and it is starting again. I get needing therapy to do therapy too. Keep us posted.

[skysblue]

I can hardly wait to hear how it goes.

Rats, too late to ride along. But I hope it went well! The right T for you is out there somewhere...hope this is the one.

[FourRedheads]

I'm too late as well but I would have loved to come along. How did it go?

[skysblue]

Would you like to share how the session went? Was it ok?

[beadlady29-old]

beads too late ta ride along as well, but we do hope that your sessoin went well!

[rainbow_rose]

hope it went well, mcl6136

[mcl6136]

All,

My T session was a partial success. I felt like this T might be able to particiapte the RIGHT amount, and I felt like I could imagine myself in her office dealing with some stuff that needs to come out.

I'm not sure what the deal is with my insurance company, so that could be a bit of an issue, with some network that Aetna takes.

(Acck! How did insurance companies come to run our country?)

Overall, I felt pretty good about things, enough that I made a new appointment for ten days from now (travel kept me from a week). I think a lot of my fear starting to decline as the session went onwards, which is GREAT. I really feel RELIEVED and like this might be a new beginning for me. Whew! I feel like in some ways, this T is less analytical and more supportive, which is a huge part of what I need. Definitely a potential "keeper."

I will, say, the questions that I had prepared kind of flew OUT of my mind once I got in there, but potentially, could ask them again. I kind of went with my feelings, and I'm okay with that, at this stage.

Thanks for everyone's support!