[eclogite]

I feel a little silly asking, but it would mean a lot to me if I could get a little support for tomorrow.

I have my very first pdoc appt. I'm super nervous. I spent most of my session with T last Friday smoothing out a lot of my anxiety about it. I'm nervous about so much: possibly having to expose SI, starting any med(s?), telling all my stuff to someone new (big trust issues), side effects of meds, cost, dependency, access to meds, etc. Ugh.

Very soon after the appt, my T made a slot for me if I want to see her.

I'm 80% confident it's all going to go great and I'll have good news to share tomorrow night, but until then I'm on pins and needles.

So yeah, any extra support is kindly appreciated.

Thanks to anyone!

[Flooded]

I'm right there

[Rapunzel]

I'll be happy to ride along too. I had all of those same worries the first time I went to a pdoc, and I survived it. You will too.

[roads]

I'd be happy to pocket-ride, eclogite. Promise to be on my best behavior too.

Good luck, I'm sure you'll be fine

[Chopin99]

I'll be glad to ride along with you. I have all confidence that you will be fine. I remember my first trip to the pdoc about seven years ago. But I'm in your pocket if you need me (but really, you'll be fine)!

[sittingatwatersedge]

Originally Posted by roadrunnerbeepbeep

I'd be happy to pocket-ride, eclogite. Promise to be on my best behavior too.

(what's this roadrunner? no offers to call T names? Must be getting too close to Christmas! )

Eclogite, 80% is hard. Count me in too!

[delicatefade26]

I'm in there with y'all!! Seeing a pdoc for the first time is very scary!! But you got this!! You can do it! Update us!!!

[rockymtngal]

I'd like to share with you my first ever Pdoc appointment. I was very nervous too. However, it turned out to be quite entertaining. At the very start of the appointment he was sitting at his desk and accidentally kicked over a couple of 2L sodas he had stashed under there. He nervously looked up at me. I didn't think anything of it-I knock stuff over all the time. The session went smoothly-I wasn't pressured to go into my past. Then at the very end I went to open the door. He reached for it the same time I did. So I pulled back to let him open it for me and at the same time he pulled back to let me open it for myself. So I reached forward agian to open it, thinking he was going to let me open the door, but at the same time he reached forward to open it yet again. This happened 2 more times. Finally he put his hand on the door and left it there, and said "I'm really sorry about all of this". I think I said "no problem" and allowed him to open the door for me to leave. Talk about awkward! I thought it was hilarious though. I was so nervous but I think he was more nervous than I was. He was a new pdoc and it was the very start of his career. I ended up seeing him for 8 years and he was wonderful and we had a great rapport after two socially awkard (on his part) sessions.

I've found most pdocs to be a little socially awkward, but for the most part they seem to have their heart in the right place.

You'll be fine!

I'm in Looking forward to hearing how it goes

[mixedup_emotions]

Hopping in your pocket too! Remember, pdoc is there to help YOU.....(( HUGS ))

[rainbow_rose]

i'll be there too!

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by rockymtngal

I'd like to share with you my first ever Pdoc appointment. I was very nervous too. However, it turned out to be quite entertaining. At the very start of the appointment he was sitting at his desk and accidentally kicked over a couple of 2L sodas he had stashed under there. He nervously looked up at me. I didn't think anything of it-I knock stuff over all the time. The session went smoothly-I wasn't pressured to go into my past. Then at the very end I went to open the door. He reached for it the same time I did. So I pulled back to let him open it for me and at the same time he pulled back to let me open it for myself. So I reached forward agian to open it, thinking he was going to let me open the door, but at the same time he reached forward to open it yet again. This happened 2 more times. Finally he put his hand on the door and left it there, and said "I'm really sorry about all of this". I think I said "no problem" and allowed him to open the door for me to leave. Talk about awkward! I thought it was hilarious though. I was so nervous but I think he was more nervous than I was. He was a new pdoc and it was the very start of his career. I ended up seeing him for 8 years and he was wonderful and we had a great rapport after two socially awkard (on his part) sessions.

I've found most pdocs to be a little socially awkward, but for the most part they seem to have their heart in the right place.

You'll be fine!

A clumsy goof would be fine as a therapist, but I'd want someone a bit more coordinated to write my prescriptions.

[eclogite]

Thanks for all the support!

It was.. ok. There was good and bad. I kept my appt with T after and that really got me to a good place about it all.

My biggest fear was about maybe having to have blood pressure taken and exposing SI, but that didn't happen so yay!

It was awfully awkward. I followed him back to his office, he didn't introduce himself or anything, just started rapid-fire asking all the terribly intrusive questions. There was no attempt at a connection, bedside manner, etc. but he was patient with me when I took my time answering stuff. It was so odd, so awkward, so uncomfortable. After all HIS questions he took the time to find out my expectations and concerns about medication and I think he found a good starting med for me so I'm happy about that.

I'm SO glad I saw T after it though. I got to decompress and open up more about stuff and address concerns I couldn't tell pdoc about. I'm worried about having access to meds, and she offered to hold onto stuff for me if I wanted her to. We also ended up having a pretty good session about other stuff after that was squared away.

So... some good and bad, but T really helped me feel good about the experience overall.