[greenfairy]

saw pdoc today and had a detailed discussion of how i've been feeling. i told her i dont think the meds are helping i think theyre messing me up. i'm currently on 20 mg lexapro, klonopin 1 tablet (.5 mg) and 1 as needed, and ambien which i rarely take because my 2 year old still wakes up in the middle of the night and i'm afraid i'll sleep through his crying.
for one thing, my panic is only mildly better, and for another, i have been intensely depressed. i have been depressed in the past but havent had a problem with depression until recently, and it coincides with the time i started this medication. this time the depression is overwhelming and scary. i know that theres a lot going on in my life right now, and pdoc suggested that the depression might be related to having to deal with certain people that i have difficulty facing. i'm scared though. shes keeping me on these meds and i'm not feeling better and when things are overwhelming i feel like i want to do something. . . extreme. . . .in the self-injury sense (trying to be careful what i post so i dont get edited). dont know what to think. does my pdoc know something i dont? or is she ignoring a serious problem and is it time to see someone else. i'm in therapy, and contacted my therapist about these thoughts that i'm having and was told "discuss this with your pdoc, it could be related to the meds." i did that. have i done enough? should i just keep taking the meds and hope for the best or is it time for a second opinion? dont know if i should have posted this in the meds area, but it sort of has to do with both.

[Rhapsody]

Hmm - I think your doctor is trying..................... she is not necessarily keeping any thing from you, just trying to figure it all with and for you.... some times it takes a little time to get the right combination of meds, help and therapy - all that is needed to HEAL YOU.

Hang in there....................... ((((((( HUGS )))))))

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[wisewoman]

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Doc and T need to speak with eachother as well as both hearing from you. Good luck. It is so confusing.