[Paige008]

Last week, I had a really honest and hard and realy session with my T. I opened up about feeling like I don't care anymore and wanting to be 'done'.

I was supposed to have any appt. today, but it was cancelled.

I feel even worse than I did last week and incredibly alone. I don't feel real. I was looking forward to the session today because they bring me back some and resettle me on the ground.

But, not there's no session to bring me back. I know it's not T's fault that they had to cancel, but I'm disappointed in my therapist and that's not helping all of these other feelings much.

I know we all get cancelled on sometimes and it usually sucks. But, I've never felt that things were this bad before when I was cancelled on.

What do I do now...? How do I manage the next several days without my session?

[Mike_J]

I don’t have any great ideas on how to get through the next few days until you can see your therapist. I’m just writing to let you know your not alone I’m struggling with not seeing my therapist today, though I think your situation is more serious than mine.

[bazza12]

I've been cancelled on before too, when things were horribly and the only way I lasted waiting until my next session was to distract myself with other things. I watched a lot of TV, tried to work extra shifts, worked out a lot, etc. Anything you can do that will take your mind off of things, I'd say do. I also counted down the days on my phone calendar, which helped too. Sorry you're going through a hard time. You can get through it, though.

[Paige008]

Thanks guys. I'm going to try to stay busy. It's just so hard. I'm so tired of feeling like this.

[FourRedheads]

I'm so sorry. You're among friends here. Many of us understand the agony of waiting for T day, and then for it to be cancelled...

You did great by posting here! Keep posting if it helps. We are here to listen.

Can you call or email your T? Yes, keeping busy can help, but I know his difficult that is when you are hurting.

[healed84]

I was supposed to have an appointment this afternoon, but when my phone rang right at a 8am this morning, I knew it was Ts office calling to cancel. Luckily, I got rescheduled for tomorrow (if T is better by then)... Before this T, I was seeing one that started having medical issues and canceled numours times, and it just got to be such a let down.. I hated that feeling of waiting for the phone to ring the morning of my appointment. I still get worked up about it now... So, anways.. Just wanted to say, I can relate as most people here can. I hope you make it through the next couple of days okay. Hang in there!!

[WantingtoHeal]

Paige, I hate it when they cancel. Makes me so mad. I take it very personally and tend to do most of my SI then. Not a great or healthy way to deal with things.

Writing is what I've been doing lately, lots and lots of it.

I worry every day that I have an apt that it's going to be cancelled. I have been trying to think of ways to prepare for it, but I never quite get there. I just get furious about it.

Distraction helps to make the time go by. I watch movies, take naps, read books, etc. It isn't pleasant, but the next session eventually comes.

You definitely aren't alone in this.

[Paige008]

Originally Posted by FourRedheads

Can you call or email your T? Yes, keeping busy can help, but I know his difficult that is when you are hurting.

My T is sick, so I don't want to email or call. I mean I WANT to, but I won't. I'd feel too guilty if I did.

[Paige008]

I'm sorry that you were cancelled on too Healed. It really is a let down. You spend all the time waiting and waiting to feel 'safe' in their office and then it's taken away from you. It sucks. I'm really sorry that you're here too today.

I have another appointment later this week - I go twice a week - but, it just seems like forever right now. I really needed some sense of safety or something today, I don't know.

Wanting - I deal with some of the same things and SI is always the first thing I think of, but I haven't done it in awhile. Days like today, when i just wish I didn't wake up, and when my T cancels, make me want to go back to that though. I usually write as well. Today, though, I can't seem to get my mind straight enough to even do that.

Thank you for all the comfort though. It is making my feel a little less alone.

[roads]

I don't know how flexible your schedule is, Paige, but if you're somewhat open you could ask to be rescheduled instead of cancelled. Or is this not an option where you are? With my T, I can go on a standby list for clients who cancel ... I might get a call asking if I can come in, for example,

NOW!!

Just a thought, if your T got to feeling better...

Roadie

[CantExplain]

((Paige))

Im so sorry! I am going thru the same thing today. Its so difficult! Im just going to try to keep busy too.