[Hopefull]

I have been thinking about my amazing capacity for denial. Is there anyone else out there sticks emotions that are "inappropriate" into their black holes of denial? How does one stop doing that? I think that is why I screw myself up sometimes and end up developing a compulsive need to talk to a T and spill my guts of the denied emotions/thoughts. I mean I could probably deal with the emotion/thought right away and it would be much smaller than when it pops out of my black hole of denial.

[(JD)]

Oh I sure can relate! If it weren't for my relationship with my T I doubt even he would have the "guts" to show me and tell me when I'm in denial about something! Talk about stuffing! It sure does seem like a coping mechanism, eh? (((hopefull))

[pegasus]

Hopefull,

Yeah, we all do DENIAL.

PAINFUL STUFF, so we deny it.

Sometimes tucking it away helps for a bit, but then it can smack you really hard when you least expect it.

I'm learning to keep the drawer half open, so that it does not frighten me so much. If you keep the stuff locked away in the drawer, it'll bite you when someone opens that drawer. If the drawer is wide open all the time, it is too painful. (Hope this makes sense.)

It's a tough one.

Hugs.

oh yea. This I do quite a bit. Some days I wake up and the only way I can funtion is to push everything that is coming at me away. But in doing so I write a quick blab in my journal of what is going on so that later when I am journal writing I can take time to think about what was going on and why. that way its not all clawing back at me at the wrong times. Maybe you can try that. Talking into a tape recorder also helps.