[dizgirl2011]

Hey guys,

ok so I should start by saying that I am down right now and it's probably why I am feeling so bad about even the small things.

Recently my sessions seem like they are over so quickly that if I blinked I would miss it. I know now before I even sit down that it's going to feel like 2 seconds and it's over. I get 50 minutes once a week. My therapist doesn't offer longer sessions and doesn't do more than one session a week either. They are a great therapist but at the moment this is bugging me.

At my last session yesterday, I felt like we were in the middle of something when the time was up and I felt I was being chucked out the door and that T didn't care. I know thats not nesscarily the case but I cant help how it felt.

T asked if there was anything else I wanted to say (after telling me our time was up) and I was thinking - yes but whats the point in saying it now?!!!!

Arghhhh just so fed up with it - waiting a whole week for 50 minutes, which actually seem more like 5 minutes, only to be chucked back into the world on my own again.

BTW I know therapist cant be there all the time and I do my best with family and friends but they cant really offer support.

Sorry I Just need to vent

I can't offer any help except to say that I feel the exact same way! It's all I can do not to look at my watch every 5 minutes .....

Sometimes it reminds me of the saying "Time flies when you're having a good time..."

[dizgirl2011]

thanks I am glad I am not the only one who feels this

[tkdgirl]

I sometimes feel the time spent there is shorter than the actual 60ish min that it is. One thing I find that helps is when I journal after the session and try to write down what was covered I often find that alot was said and this makes me feel that the session wasn't as short. Not sure if this is something that would work for you.

As much as the waiting sucks I think the processing time in between sessions is can be useful even though some days I would call it torture.

Would it help if you compose a list of topic that you want to discuss and tell your T at the beginning of session so that they know what you want to cover before time runs out (just an suggestion, not sure if it would work or not)?

[elliemay]

I certainly felt that way. FWIW is does get better.

I think one of the reasons that therapy is SO BIG is that, when you are in it, it goes on ALL THE TIME. It doesn't matter if we are in the office at all. That's only the time when we are staring the catalyst for that therapy, in the face.

I don't know about you, but I felt like I was constantly processing things - even in my dreams (which was so unfair, even my sleep was in therapy).

Perhaps it may help to think that you are always working on yourself, even without the therapist there. Staring at the therapist just makes things feel better - like they are moving faster.

Yeah, therapy kinda sucks. I can promise, however, that with time, it will suck less.

Originally Posted by elliemay

I certainly felt that way. FWIW is does get better.

I think one of the reasons that therapy is SO BIG is that, when you are in it, it goes on ALL THE TIME. It doesn't matter if we are in the office at all. That's only the time when we are staring the catalyst for that therapy, in the face

@elliemay. Oh my gosh that's it! That's such a good description! I hadn't realized that before! It's so obvious now!! No wonder this is taking over my life!! :-(

[WikidPissah]

yea. It takes me a long time to warm up each week, so by the time we get into anything deep it's over.

I have 2 x wkly 50min sessiOns but for the first yr it was only Once a week. I think even for the first few yrs of twice wkly the unbearable waiting was just as present.

I think it's something that takes a long time to resolve and tolerate those unbeatable feelings of wanting. I remember T once saying that even if I lived with her all the time those feelings would come up if she left the room. It's about those early needs inside us and not necessarily about frequency. Over time I've built up the internalized relationship. It then becomes mine 24/7

[stopdog]

It is one of the several reasons that I have two of them.

[WikidPissah]

Originally Posted by stopdog

It is one of the several reasons that I have two of them.

another question (feel free to tell me to f off)...
Do your 2 Ts ever contradict each other?

[stopdog]

Originally Posted by WikidPissah

another question (feel free to tell me to f off)...
Do your 2 Ts ever contradict each other?

The gist of what they say is about the same. The one I have the negative response to is bigger into attachment stuff and despite my negative reactions to her, insists I am attached to her. The second one does not say much about attachment at all and explains why she is asking the things she does and tries to make sure I understand the point of what is happening in each appointment.