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Old May 21, 2012, 10:10 AM
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My session last week seemed kind of blah, which normally would make me obsess about my T and what I want from her. For some reason, I only emailed her once, right after my session, and here it is Monday already! I'm not complaining, but it's weird. My brain is in a fog or something--maybe it's the hot weather.

Or maybe it's because she's back in town so I feel secure. Or maybe I really don't care about her so much anymore? Something changed since my minitrip, for the good. I don't know if it will last, of course. Tomorrow's session may bring back my usual frustrations about the T-relationship.

I don't know.....I just feel kinda weird, and don't trust it. Anyone relate?
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Old May 21, 2012, 10:24 AM
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It's good that you got a little relief and feel secure. Maybe it's a sign of things to come?? If anyone deserves it you do.
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Old May 21, 2012, 12:16 PM
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If you agree that your pattern was due to your mother's anxiety and that the T makes you finally feel secure, then just knowing this, I told you, is 90% of the cure.
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Old May 21, 2012, 01:59 PM
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Maybe this feels strange, but sometimes progress does feel strange! It's a little odd when we realize maybe we aren't carrying around a weight or burden we've been carrying around - feeling free of it can feel strange because we're so used to it being there, maybe we almost miss it, or as you say, don't trust that feeling of lightness or liberty. But maybe it really is progress, rainbow, and you could allow yourself to enjoy that possibility?!
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Old May 21, 2012, 07:19 PM
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It's good that you got a little relief and feel secure. Maybe it's a sign of things to come?? If anyone deserves it you do.
You're so sweet to say that, Wiki!

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If you agree that your pattern was due to your mother's anxiety and that the T makes you finally feel secure, then just knowing this, I told you, is 90% of the cure.
Sannah, it seems too simple! I know it's more than my mother's anxiety but it is true that my T makes me feel secure. It has a lot to do with my recent trip too. I did something for myself and it turned out to be what I needed.

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Maybe this feels strange, but sometimes progress does feel strange! It's a little odd when we realize maybe we aren't carrying around a weight or burden we've been carrying around - feeling free of it can feel strange because we're so used to it being there, maybe we almost miss it, or as you say, don't trust that feeling of lightness or liberty. But maybe it really is progress, rainbow, and you could allow yourself to enjoy that possibility?!
Yes, I'm enjoying the progress for now. I do feel lighter, maybe not so powerless as before. I don't think it's from the EMDR but from my trip. Whatever it is, I'm enjoying the calm and hoping I can cope when it changes. I'm not naive; I know it will change.
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Old May 21, 2012, 08:01 PM
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This is great, rainbow! I understand that weird feeling - after something shifts - how suddenly it seems so simple and all the pain i had worked through fade away. But I don't question it. I don't examine it. I accept it. I am amazed by it. I am thankful for it. I know that my therapy is working.

You don't have to trust it. Just let it be and enjoy it.
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through great effort and willpower,
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in open relaxation and letting go.

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there is nothing to do or undo.
Whatever momentarily arises
in the body-mind
Has no real importance at all,
has little reality whatsoever.

Don't believe in the reality
of good and bad experiences;
they are today's ephemeral weather,
like rainbows in the sky.


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