would disappearing *really* be that bad?

lately we have been doing more than just some passing thinking about just disappearing. not in the sense of Su,but like just taking what money we have and going somewhere nobody knows us and dropping out of sight. the practical,realistic part of us knows this is not a wise thing but the rest of us,the stressed,depressed hurt parts dont want to think about practical. how bad could it really be? we honestly feel like there is no hope for us and we are broken and unfixable beyond anything anyone can do. we are very close to just cancelling all appointments and just..stopping thank you if you finished reading our rambling♥

I totally understand. I think about this too.

I have researched and written very detailed plans for disappearing. There is no way I could go absolutely no contact with my children...and the only way to truly disappear is to never contact anyone again.

The thought has crossed my mind a few times ...... while driving, I think, what if I just drove over the horizon and went somewhere no one knew me and I was alone and free? Nope, it's not practical or wise or maybe even so realistically possible, but it's a fantasy that isn't so strange to have really ..... T1 told me that, anyway ....... maybe it's a bit of a mental break to let yourself indulge in the thought for a little bit and then go on with life as it is....

cores youngest,whom we love very much,is probably the only reason we dont carry that plan out. but the urges get so overwhelming sometimes. and maybe he would be better off without our poison anyway. sorry for whining just having a bad day

not whining, just doing the best you can to deal with big feelings, acknowledging them and dealing with them.
I feel grumpy-ish today, too, some things on my mind, feeling like some friends are slipping away from me, and just other things coming up, too .... some days are like this! but they pass .....

we are sorry youre having a tough day♥♥♥

I did this. It was quite good and I don't regret it in the slightest. But I wouldn't recommend it if you are close to your family because they would probably ask a lot of questions, i'm guessing. The only thing is, if you do disappear, your troubles go with you.

wherever you go, there you are!

yeah unfortunately we cant leve us behind

I've done that Trinity. and yeah, I followed myself there and it didn't help so I came back. staying at home is cheaper misery! lol

I completely understand this feeling. I actually had to explain to my T today (on the phone) what I meant by "I feel like giving up," and that "I want to disappear."

I have running away fantasies all the time. Trouble is, I'd have to take my cats and a few people I really like with me. So, not very practical.

we hear paris is nice this time of year♥

I think about this. but I think all I really have to do is change my cell phone number. I used to joke that my mother would only be able to find her way to my town if they built a casino here - then, she'd be first in line.

if all it would take is changing our number then wed be at the phone store bright and early tomorrow!

Oh yeah, I've had this fantasy a lot. Ah, to start anew, be incognito, create a different life, leave troubles and problems behind. But, like it's already been said, 'wherever you go, there you are.'

but we could leave cores daughter behind!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I've thought about this and planned it also. It isn't as easy as I thought.
I'm sorry anyone thinks of this. For me, it would be a huge set up. I know how it would end.

Ain't that a drag! Cannot leave yourself and your troubles.
Well TrinityDancer, may you day get brighter with the knowledge that others share your wish to disappear. We can never hide. We leave a medical trail where ever we go because we are type one diabetic. So disappearing really is not possible...need the medical care. It was nice to think about for a few minutes though.

everyday I want to run away from my home, I tried to run away before I was even in the double digits! our worst enemys are ourselves though, so I guess running away like others have said...while it will take you away from the physical problem...the emotional/mental problem will still be there right where we left it...in the mirror.