Welcome to the Couch! People of PC Psychotherapy (All Welcome Part 3)

Chia sprouts are good in salads and sandwiches.

PANCAKES!!! When I was living with my mom, whenever they said pancakes on TV I would shout, PANCAKES! Like there was an ad for "Politics and Pancakes, breakfast with the governor on Sunday morning". My dad used to make the pancakes, so she had to criticize, plus she claims she's allergic to maple syrple. So I would sometimes make blueberry buckwheat PANCAKES! for my Saturday supper. She would have a taste and admitted they were okay. But she would grumble and curse whenever I said PANCAKES!!! We were like Abbott and Costello. Or Foreman and House.

Mmm pancakes
I had a horrible sleep last night, anyone have coffee or tea at the couch today?

Sorry you slept badly Silent. Cup of tea sounds good. I'll go make us some.

I just got back from a bike ride. Forgot to set my computer when I set out so not sure how many miles I did but I rode an hour out and an hour back. I think that'd be at least 23-25 miles. That's what I need to be doing regularly.

you know what? I still feel okay about the break up/time out (I think I'll call it a time-out instead). I really think I need to focus on me for awhile and on getting into a healthier space.

guess I need to go try this chia ... I keep reading about it all over the place these days and I'm really curious. I've read about it having huge health benefits, lots of nutritional value. If I'm gonna run so much, maybe it would be a good thing for me to add to my diet.

yep, strong fresh coffee right here! how do you take yours? I always have to put in some sweetener/creamer.

cleaning today to keep ourselves distracted♥

Two sugars in coffee, 1 in tea - need to maximize with caffeine and sugar high. . And a splash of milk for colour ty

Ok guys, I have to ask a question on hopes that's don't spend the rest of my days worrying about it and never sleep again.
I don't think I've really gone into much detail of the situation on here so I'll give some background (read as, rambling about to happen scroll quickly if you like your eyes where they are).

So I was in a relationship for 6 years. We were really good together but back in 2010 some things came up and we were struggling to overcome it. We had our ups and downs in the year after. Then after talking to his doctor (a whole separate topic) about his stress levels, his doctor said he had to eliminate a stressor. Well guess what that stressor was. Yep me, our relationship. He said he just needed a break, time to get himself back on track. I wanted to be able to support that, but I just didn't have it in me. I built up my wall and he was on the other aside. He abandoned us and I couldn't reopen that door. I avoided some of his messages and eventually he gave up. I messaged him after the silence went on for a while and he confirmed I hadn't tried hard enough. now at this point, we haven't talked since the end of may. it's his birthday this weekend and I want to message him just to say happy birthday. I want him to know I thought of him and I care. But I don't want to upset him or rib his day if he doesn't want to hear from me. I don't know what's weirder, to message after breaking up (I'd that's what we've finally done) or to not say anything after 6 years. I'm at such a loss for any understanding I feel like I'm losing my mind. He's really the only person whose really been there for me and just taken me for who I was. Ahh but no I'm side tracking. Do I say happy birthday or do I just let it go? Anyone?

Silent- 6 years is a long time to be in relationship with someone. That is Not just a fling you had. It was a long term relationship. You have spoken since the end of May but its only the middle of June. I personally do not see any harm in sending a message just to say Happy Birthday. As long as you only put that in the message and don't drag any of the other stuff into it. He may reply with a thank you or he may not but again, as long as you can just say "Happy Birthday" I see nothing wrong or no harm.

@Silent_tsol I agree. I guess I'm not seeing the harm in wishing him happy birthday. I mean office coworkers wish each other happy birthday.

6 years is a long time. I'm really sad/sorry for you for your loss. It sounds like you were blindsided. I would be. How are you feeling now? It sounds like you're still kinda holding onto the relationship. When was it that the break up happened? in 2010?

In the midst of the healthy eating conversation that has been going on here, I must confess that it was a McDonalds day for me.

dont feel bad-we are sorely tempted to eat some chocolate♥ its been almost 2 full weeks since we went off all refined/white flour and sugar and days like today we reaaaaaaally miss it

oooh hang in there TD! I've done that and I know that if you give in you'll crave it more! If you wait out the craving it'll go away. At least this is how it worked for me.

Trinity-I've withdrew from sugar before. The cravings will pass. I normally try to stick to healthy foods but I have an ED so I always fluctuate 20 pounds every couple months by either eating slop or not eating anything.

Hey y'all
Sorry to interupt....

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I am having suicidal thoughts and havent attempted since 20. Wife and I are fighting med change drinking fake weed... Spiral.

Anyone just talk to me

LOLA! I'm here! Talk to us!
What's going on? Are you at home? Do you have anyone with you right now besides your wife?

I hate this method of communication for stuff like this. It's so slow! Please check the board and write back. I'm worried!

(((LOLA))) I am only checking in for a couple of minutes...I have to leave soon. Please be ok. Get around people...don't isolate! I am sorry you are fighting with the wife!

I'm alone on the lake at a friends

Lola just keep writing in please. I'm here. Stay with us.

Where is the friend?

Will you do me a favor and stay away from the lake for a little while? Just humor me!

Also talk to me! I'm lonely. I need someone to talk to. I'm alone right now, my friend has gone to work for the evening and I've no one to talk to right now. I'm gonna try reading one of my books and try to stop thinking about XT for at least 60 seconds.

They should arrive soon, wife may go out with friends if she does I can go home and be with puppies.

I'm ok I'm fishing ... No bites gonna switch to minnows not worms... It was a thought well a moment , opportunity.. I was gonna email T but don't wanna freak him out . My wife pushes me to hard, no addiction all better back to normal in 2 weeks are you ****in kidding me? Then the roller coaster she cry I'm angry, I feel violent angry not just mad I punched a fukin metal door .. I mean ugh

Fishing... huh? My sister's into fishing. I never could get into it. What's the difference between minnows and worms for fishing? Different types of fish?

Where did your friends go? Do they know what's going on?

I was blindsided in 2010, and t doesn't think I've quite recovered from it - dealt for a while but then I just couldn't anymore so I packed it away.
The break started in February and the last comment he made where I hadn't given enough effort was in may. Yes I am still holding onto the relationship, I'm afraid to let go. Because of how bad I was in 2010, I've not really allowed myself to feel much in regards to what's happened.

Lola, I'm here too. At work so can't talk much, but I'm here and thinking about you

My friends know me and wife have been fighting the weed booze therapy but not SI