Freaking out!!!

carly011 · Jun 14, 2012, 10:47 PM

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Originally Posted by Bill3

Did you hear back from T?

It sounds like outpatient would mean that you continue pretty much as you are. There could be progress, but you seem skeptical about yourself in that setting.

With inpatient, your feeling seems to be that there could be a lot of progress, as you said, However, it is scary to be away from home. Do you know how long you would be there? What else is scary about inpatient?

And what about the surgery you mentioned in another thread?

I havent actually sent the email yet

I keep adding to it every day, and then i plan on sending it sunday night that way i dont have to send her multiple emails if something new pops up, its easier for me to get my feelings out in an email so i always send her an email with what is going on so i dont have to come out and say it in therapy

I dont know how long i would be in, hopefully not long! Its scary because i wont know anyone, i will have to get better, i will have to deal with so many things, i will have to gain weight, i will have to eat :/ Im scared because what if i dont like it there? i wont be able to have my cell phone... i also wont be able to self harm when i feel the urge.

I am having surgery on July 9th, so that is another thing that is in the way. Like i cant reschedule surgery, so i would have to be out by then, or do it after or something....

Bill3 · Jun 15, 2012, 12:28 AM

Okay, your email idea seems good to me.

Thank you for explaining those fears. There is a lot on your mind, and to me it as a good thing that you can see pros and cons and type them out here.

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I am having surgery on July 9th, so that is another thing that is in the way. Like i cant reschedule surgery, so i would have to be out by then, or do it after or something....

Yes, this is a critical thing to consider and the views of your doctors will be very important, central to your decision.

carly011 · Jun 17, 2012, 10:27 AM

I emailed my T.... She is now talking about inpatient :/ that didnt go as planned.... Ugh

Bill3 · Jun 17, 2012, 10:56 AM

I'm glad that you emailed T. Inpatient sounds scary to you. What did T say about it?

carly011 · Jun 17, 2012, 11:01 AM

First she told me to go to the ER if i didnt think i was safe from harming myself theb she said to think about bringing my mom into one of my sessions to talk about our problems. Then she said she thought inpatient would be a good idea. I have an appt monday so im assuming we will talk about it then

Bill3 · Jun 17, 2012, 11:37 AM

Monday sounds good. Maybe you can tell her your pros and cons (as above, #26) if you haven't already done that. Can you commit to be safe from harming yourself today?

carly011 · Jun 17, 2012, 11:45 AM

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Originally Posted by Bill3

Monday sounds good. Maybe you can tell her your pros and cons (as above, #26) if you haven't already done that. Can you commit to be safe from harming yourself today?

Thats a good idea. Ummmm depends on what you mean by harm...at this time i can commit to not killing myself...as in hurting myself by self harming...i cant commit to that

Bill3 · Jun 17, 2012, 11:50 AM

I am glad that you can commit to not killing yourself. I hope that you have a good day today.

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