when is it our turn?

sorry for the following rant/whining/whatever post but we cant keep it in anymore
when is it our turn to be happy?? to have good things happen to us?? to have a dedicated,caring,devoted,available,nurturing,truthful counselor???? when do we get to experience being taken care of and feeling worthwhile and like what we need is important??? when do we get to know that there is someone out there who cares if we are hurting,in pain and not wanting to keep going on irl?? when do we get someone who will guide and teach us how to grieve and mourn and cry and let us be US without fear of rejection,abandonment,threats??? WHEN WHEN WHEN WHEN??????????? cause we dont have much left in us to make it much longer like we are....

TD I'm sorry your hurting so badly right now and don't have someone. While I don't have answers I know everyone deserves to be happy including you. And your definately worth it. don't give up, there is someone out there. In the meantime keep posting and we will try help fill the void till you find someone IRL.

I am so sorry, Trinity. I wish there was something I could do to help or make it your turn finally.

I am so sorry Trinity. You deserve the very best. I always enjoy your posts. You are so helpful and caring. I wish for you to receive lots of help and care in return.

Some hugs Trinity you deserve to have this in your life amd I really hope that T will come along...I wish I could share my T with you-I think he would work well with y'all...hang in there and don't give up

TrinityDancer: I'm sorry your in so much pain. Please hang in there. Don't give up. Fight on!!!

thank you so much everyone. dont much feel like fighting anymore

You must fight on. Being happy is worth fighting for. Don't let those who've hurt you take your happiness from you. You're worth it. Please believe it. Please be gentle to yourself.

if we cant find anyone to help us it just wont matter
sorry we just need to shut up

Not at all! What you really need is to keep talking.

And if you're not happy, that does matter.

Sorry your so down right now...All I wish for all of you is happiness...Please continue looking for a T that suits your needs...There is one out there.

TD keep talking don't shut down. Don't let other ppl determine your worth.

just such a deep dark pit of black emptiness inside cant seem to stop falling into it anymore

Trinity, like someone else said, you are a very kind and caring person. And I always appreciate the support you give everyone here. We're here got you to, do sit, talk, whatever feels right for you. But you don't need to shut up here.

Still trying to reach my contact hun. Hang in there. (((hugs)))

I'm sorry TD. I feel like I kinda caused this by posting about my new doc. You're going to have this experience too soon I know you will. I just went through six months of not having a good doc to rely on. If I got through it you will too right? You're gonna be okay. We all love and support you so much. I'm so sorry for your pain right now.

no,no it has absolutely nothing to do woth that- we are very happy for you♥ you just dont know the literal hell we have been through with counselors and especially our last one of 7 years who hurt rejected abused abandoned us in the cruelest most inhumane of ways. we are just so tired.....

spiraling faster and faster no sleep in 24 hours so bad

You are worth so much better than this, TD. You are such a good person and I like you so much. I wish there was anything I could do.

(((((TD))))) Not sleeping makes everything so, so, so much harder!!!

Do you have something that you can take to help you get some rest??

You deserve happiness, and love, and good things.

if we dont sleep by noon we are going to ask cores husband to get us some benadryl on his lunch break,thank you so much everyone♥

I am thinking of you today, with love. I hope you can rest .... rest helps so much, is a healing thing for mind, body and soul.
I wish too that I could give you the happiness/peace you long for so much, because you do deserve it. Don't give up on the journey toward it, because it is there for you ..... there is help and hope for you.
Perhaps it would help to focus on, hold onto, the fact that you ARE loved here ..... we know you, believe in you, love you, think you are worth it. That is real. And you could find, have, some happiness in knowing and thinking of that?

yes,we can try and hold onto that..thank you♥♥♥

Trinity, just wanted to let you know that you're in my thoughts and prayers. I'm sorry you're going through such a rough dark time. I hope things get better for you. Gentle hugs to you

he brought us some benadryl so heres hoping