[SoupDragon]

Had a weird session today (reflects a weird week really).

I always sit in the same place and suddenly today I got an urge to move from that place and "her" and sit somewhere else in the room. So much to T's surprise, I did.

I suddenly felt so much freer and unburdened - I could look at where "she" sat and could almost see her as distinct from myself. I didn't feel like her, I felt more powerful, lighter, in control, more confident - she looked weak, needy and sad - I no longer wanted to be her.

It still feels pretty weird and I wonder if I shall feel the same next week and not want to sit in "that" place.

Just wondered if this has happened to anyone else?

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by SoupDragon

Had a weird session today (reflects a weird week really).

I always sit in the same place and suddenly today I got an urge to move from that place and "her" and sit somewhere else in the room. So much to T's surprise, I did.

I suddenly felt so much freer and unburdened - I could look at where "she" sat and could almost see her as distinct from myself. I didn't feel like her, I felt more powerful, lighter, in control, more confident - she looked weak, needy and sad - I no longer wanted to be her.

It still feels pretty weird and I wonder if I shall feel the same next week and not want to sit in "that" place.

Just wondered if this has happened to anyone else?

I've experimented with seating positions but it didn't lead anywhere.

Hmm, I haven't tried that! I think I will next week. I have always sat in the exact same spot.

[Big Mama]

seating makes a huge difference to me. My T has a sofa and a loveseat. She uses another arm chair. I like the sofa. I can take off my shoes and put my feet in the seat. She has commented on what personality types like to take there shoes off. I don't know what I will do when summer is over and I can't wear shoes I take off easily.

It sounds like you're changing, and in a good way. Sitting in a different place was an outward sign of the changes that are taking place inside, and allowed you to look at yourself differently. I don't know, but the whole thing really sounds kind of .... awesome!!! I feel like I should say congratulations, so I will. Congrats!

[SoupDragon]

Originally Posted by TheBunnyWithin

It sounds like you're changing, and in a good way. Sitting in a different place was an outward sign of the changes that are taking place inside, and allowed you to look at yourself differently. I don't know, but the whole thing really sounds kind of .... awesome!!! I feel like I should say congratulations, so I will. Congrats!

Thanks TheBunnyWithin - it was starting to freak me out a little today, but maybe you are right, maybe it is positive and is about me changing. Wow, maybe it is even a little exciting

[sconnie892]

Thanks for posting this Soup.
When I started I changed seats in t so I could not see the big wall clock. But now that I've discovered t has little clocks stashed all over her office it doesn't really matter. Perhaps a seating change is in order again for me too.

[WikidPissah]

t has 3 offices, and for the past two years I have mostly seen him in one of them. Occasionally though, I have been in each of the others. I found one of them (the red office) to be very comfortable, and I chattered on and one. I have been in that office several times, and it was always the same. If I wasn't going to find a new T then I would ask to switch my days so I could be in that office. I think it's a sign of you changing as well.

[SoupDragon]

Originally Posted by sconnie892

Thanks for posting this Soup.
When I started I changed seats in t so I could not see the big wall clock. But now that I've discovered t has little clocks stashed all over her office it doesn't really matter. Perhaps a seating change is in order again for me too.

lol - that's really funny about the clocks . Actually the place I moved to yesterday, meant I could see the clock (well the only one I am aware of), so I became time monitor, which was also a little empowering.

[SoupDragon]

Originally Posted by WikidPissah

t has 3 offices, and for the past two years I have mostly seen him in one of them. Occasionally though, I have been in each of the others. I found one of them (the red office) to be very comfortable, and I chattered on and one. I have been in that office several times, and it was always the same. If I wasn't going to find a new T then I would ask to switch my days so I could be in that office. I think it's a sign of you changing as well.

It is really interesting about finding it easier / more difficult to talk depending on the environment, but when it is still the same person.

The weird thing about yesterday, was that it was not a case of wondering how it would be to move, but a real compulsion to do so, up until now, I have thought about sitting someone else but the compulsion has been to stay where I was, this time it was the opposite - such a strong pull to change places, so maybe it it more significant in terms of changing - oh my! I wonder who I am about to become???? Ahh! That is a little scary, I have been this other person for so long.

[unaluna]

I changed seats a few months ago, as T brought in a 2nd client chair, moving the old client chair to a new spot. I was not comfortable in the new client chair, so I moved to the new spot, which put me perpendicular to T rather than straight across, and in arm's reach, if we stretch, but definitely in kicking reach. The me in my head thinks I'm playful, but the one that reacts to him isn't very.

[Sannah]

Could it be that you just tuned into what you wanted and did it for yourself? If so, this is very empowering and healthy and maybe this is why you felt better?

[Butterflies Are Free]

Great insight - happy for you!! I switched once or twice and it did feel good. Thanks for the post!

[stopdog]

I wish the one I go to had a chair instead of just the couch.

[sittingatwatersedge]

Originally Posted by stopdog

I wish the one I go to had a chair instead of just the couch.

there are days I would make make you a really good price on the chair I use in T's office.

[SoupDragon]

We started off in chairs 2 years ago, but now sit on cushions on the floor. T has suggested I even decide where T should sit, which is a little challenging. I guess there is all sorts to consider, straight in front, to the side (which side?), how far away from me, etc. etc. etc.

I hope this feeling lasts, it is so much less suffocating.

I am a terrible creature of habit...but i think I may try this next time. I really wanna lay on the couch. xT had a shag rug and I wanted to sit on the floor but she said no...., glad shes xT.

[sittingatwatersedge]

Originally Posted by SoupDragon

I always sit in the same place and suddenly today I got an urge to move from that place and "her" and sit somewhere else in the room. [...] Just wondered if this has happened to anyone else?

yes, just lately it has occurred to me to choose a seat a lot closer to the door.

But I haven't done it.

Yet.

[SoupDragon]

Originally Posted by sittingatwatersedge

yes, just lately it has occurred to me to choose a seat a lot closer to the door.

But I haven't done it.

Yet.

Has that become an action yet, or still just a thought?

[autotelica]

I always sit in the recliner. Mainly because it's the first seat you come to when you walk in and it's the closest to her chair. But I also like it because it rocks and I like rocking. I also need the support of the armrests because of the floppy way I tend to sit.

There was a couple of sessions when I sat on the couch, but it feels too squooshy there. But I always think one day I'll be bold and sit all the way over in the loveseat, next to the window and the orchid. But I never do. It would be too foreign of an experience, I think.

I don't get a choice of where I sit, but it's usually fine. Sometimes it's felt too far away... Today it felt excruciatingly close - and I wanted to hide under the chair. We've sat on the floor a couple of times before for part of a session, but only ever at her say-so because we were doing some sort of activity (using picture cards or toys)... I kinda liked that, because it felt more informal.. but I don't think I could just say 'hey T, this session I'm sitting on the floor, k?' - it wouldn't be the same if T didn't as well, anyway, and I can't really imagine she'd want to.

[sittingatwatersedge]

Originally Posted by SoupDragon

Has [choosing a seat closer to the door] become an action yet, or still just a thought?

still just a thought. Keeping my options open.

[AngelWolf3]

Soup, that is awesome that you were able to do that and you felt some changes, and some good ones at that! Feeling confident and empowered is great (well so I have heard, lol ) and I am sooo happy for you!

I sit on the couch in the same spot every week. Yesterday, it seemed like the couches had moved (even though they didn't) and it was the very first thing out of my mouth. I kinda freaked a bit...which, looking back is kinda weird. Maybe I will try sitting in the chair kinda next to her instead of across from her, but I don't know. Would be interesting to try!

Thanks for your post!

[SoupDragon]

Thanks Wolfin3, this last session has also restored my faith in the whole "process". There have been many times that I have pre-planned to sit somewhere else, but when it came to the session I just couldn't do it. This time it was relatively easy (with a little encouragement from T), I hadn't planned to sit somewhere else, but suddenly part way through the session, really wanted to sit somewhere else, rather than it being something that I tried to force myself to do.

So I really believe, the hardest part is going to the sessions and for me when I am there, I just have to wait for the rest to happen, whether that be 10 minutes, a week, a month of a couple of years - when the time is right it will happen. Maybe my rational head is not as in control of things as I thought.