Tomorrow marks one year since my t left the country for a family emergency

My heart aches so much.

A year is forever. It just feels like forever.

We talk on the phone and see each other on skype

But we miss her hugs so badly, abd holding her handl and going for walks, and having snacks at the park, and going out for ice cream. We miss the hugs the most. Its like our skin is starving to death.
W dont have anywhere else to go for hugs. Our husband is a t but he doesnt give a $&it about us. We are so lonely.
She still doesnt have any idea when she will be home. My heart is aching so bad.

[rainbow_rose]

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad, SarahMichelle.

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by SarahMichelle

Tomorrow marks one year since my t left the country for a family emergency

My heart aches so much.

A year is forever. It just feels like forever.

We talk on the phone and see each other on skype

But we miss her hugs so badly, abd holding her handl and going for walks, and having snacks at the park, and going out for ice cream. We miss the hugs the most. Its like our skin is starving to death.
W dont have anywhere else to go for hugs. Our husband is a t but he doesnt give a $&it about us. We are so lonely.
She still doesnt have any idea when she will be home. My heart is aching so bad.

((SarahMichelle))

It's sad that your T can't be with you, and even sadder that your H doesn't care.

I used to be so happy al the time.. Out of all of us inside, i was the happy one that everyone could count on..now im so depressed that all i want to do is sleep.. Its a struggle to make myself brush me teeth.meds are not helping.. I miss how i used to be. Inside mids are out of control.. I hate all of this. Everything. I hate being so alone. Im sorry...no more of this from me..

[pbutton]

I am so sorry. I wish there was more we could do to help you. I can't even imagine how hard this has been on you.

[Wren_]

this one reminds me of you and your T - keeping each other in one anothers hearts

i hope she is able to come back home again soon

[rainbow8]

Did you ever consider marriage counseling? I just wonder what kind of T your H is if he doesn't care about you? Sorry if I'm intruding. It just makes me very sad that your H, a therapist, doesn't have compassion for you. I wish your T would come back soon, but more than that, I wish your H would care, or if not, that you had others in RL to hold your hand and hug you. Is there anyone at all other than your T?

P.S. Can you volunteer at a day care center or somewhere you can get and give hugs? Or a hospital?

[Butterflies Are Free]

I wish I could give you a hug through the computer... I am so sorry that it had been a year...

[taylor43]

((((((((((((Hugs)))))))) im so sorry, you are hurting so much. I wish your h cared more for you. Hope your t comes back soon. Please keep posting here.

[WikidPissah]

sorry your so lonely sarah.

Numb today. Too much crying. We dont want to think anymore

You will always be together when apart..
Don't you know love is the joiner of hearts..

We talked to t for a long long time last night on skype. On the anniversary. There was a lot of crying involved. Ugh . We didnt used to be such crybabies, until she left last year. Its ridiculous. She still has no clue about when she can come home.. She doesnt even see it anywhere on the horizon

I remember when it used to seem impossible to get through her one week vacations . Ha ha ha do i feel ridiculous now! One week is nothing! I never though we would have to get through more than a year... Who knows how long this will last.

T says she will not ever leave us...she is trying very hard to stay in touch with us and keep us in her life. Which is true. How many Ts would make time to talk for hours and hours and hours a week when theyre having a family emergency overseas? How many Ts would give us their address and cell phone so we could send letters and text them. Etc. We know she really loves us.

Anyway.. I cant think about this anymore right now. I just cant think.

Originally Posted by SarahMichelle

T says she will not ever leave us...she is trying very hard to stay in touch with us and keep us in her life. Which is true. How many Ts would make time to talk for hours and hours and hours a week when theyre having a family emergency overseas? How many Ts would give us their address and cell phone so we could send letters and text them. Etc. We know she really loves us.

She does love you, that can be a truth that comforts you while she is gone.

[Wren_]

it really does always sound like she cares very deeply for all of you and is doing all she can to give support in a difficult situation, i just wish this was easier for you

Mostly i am numb.
Getting lots of headaches and stomach aches.
She doesnt even see coming home on the horizon yet... Thats what really got me
I keep praying and praying there will be a miracle and God will work something out.

Mostly i just sleep and read. Sleep and read. And work. So i dont think. I have an extremely difficult classful of kids right now so they tire me out..and keep me constantly on my toes...