I called T today

With everything going on , I called my T today. My appt last week had to be canceled cause of him having car trouble and there was a mandatory meeting this week. I left him a voicemail and he called me back an hour later. I think he knows that for me to call him it takes alot. And right now I am on edge. I am feeling pressured intod doing something I feel I cant do. I feel I have no other choice but to do. I dont want you guys to feel bad for me. I really dont . But I cant stop shaking. Everytime I think of what is going to happen. I start shaking . I get so nervous. If you wonder what I am talkign about read my post in Caregivers Support " My Dilema" T is getting me in on Thursday and I also see my pdoc on Thursday thank goodness. I feel like I am needing something to calm down my nerves also. There is more to this than what I can tell. I guess if some of you wouldnt mind.. I could realy use your thoughts, prayers, good vibes whatever it is you do. I am really stuggling . Thanks so much!

Hugz~
Beth

Sending you soothing growls and good vibes. My furry paws are crossed for you! (((((( Beth ))))))

Thank you Fuzzy. T is upset with me. He knows I am overwhelmed already with everything else I have to do for dad. And to take on full time care for him at his home with my physical and mental disorders.. its going to be too much. Ijust dont know any other way. He wants me to talk to him. Tell him that I cant do this because it could break my marraige . I dont want to upset my dad like that. But I dont want to be separated from my husband or my home at a time when things are going well for us . I just need a peace of mind about all of this.