[BlessedRhiannon]

I don't usually do this - I don't usually actually count down the days until T. I'm really struggling right now, though, and find that I'm counting the hours until my next T appointment (currently at 66 hours until T).

I felt like my last session ended with too many things left unsaid, so I asked T to squeeze me in this week, instead of waiting 2 weeks for a session. Because I feel like things are still up in the air, I'm having a hard time concentrating on anything other than my upcoming session.

Also, I'm really anxious right now, and work is being particularly stressful. I've gotten to the point where I don't want to go to sleep, because if I go to bed, then that means that I have to wake up and deal with work in the morning. For some reason, I seem to think that if I just don't sleep, then I won't have to deal with the next day. I know, completely illogical. When I'm really anxious, though, it makes perfect sense, until I remind myself that my anxiety is much worse when I'm tired, so I must go to sleep. Sigh....

Can you not get more regular theraPy? Dealing with difficult stuff needs regular containment.

[BlessedRhiannon]

Originally Posted by earthmamma

Can you not get more regular theraPy? Dealing with difficult stuff needs regular containment.

I had been seeing T once a week for almost 3 years..and that was perfect. A few months ago, T and I decided together that I was ready to switch to every other week. Just recently, lots of stuff has come up, and now I'm wishing I was back to every week. My T is great about finding a spot for me, if I ask for it...but I think I'm going to talk to her about going back to once a week for a while.

[sunrise]

Originally Posted by BlessedRhiannon

Just recently, lots of stuff has come up, and now I'm wishing I was back to every week.

BlessedRhiannon, that's the kind of arrangement I have with my T--I go more frequently to sessions if hard stuff comes up in my life. It is really nice to be able to have that flexibility. I hope you can go more frequently to therapy for a while to deal with your anxiety and issues right now. Sounds hard! I really related to what you said about avoiding sleep so you don't have to wake up to face the next day. That was my thinking too a few years ago.

[BlessedRhiannon]

Just under 50 hours until T. I'm nervous about what I want to talk to her about, but also really, really need to talk to T about these things.

I'm glad she could fit me in this week. I think we're definitely going to have to talk about going back to once a week if possible, especially if I bring up the things I want to bring up.

[BlessedRhiannon]

One hour and 15 minutes to go. And, I'm completely freaking out with panic. Now that I finally get to talk to T, I'm terrified to do so. Dang it.

How are you doing? I hope it went okay.

[BlessedRhiannon]

Originally Posted by amaj910

How are you doing? I hope it went okay.

Thank you. I'm doing okay now. Session was rough. I shared some things that were very upsetting for me, and ended up in tears. T was, as always, awesome. I was T's last appointment, and she kept me over a few minutes, just to make sure I was okay enough to drive.

I really empathize with that, I had a difficult one myself. I'm glad your t is supportive, that really makes the difference when they handle the hard stuff well.