What's the most hateful thing you said to T?

I am actually having trouble coming up with hateful things that I've said. I am sure there are some things though. Maybe not. Maybe I just act like an angry buffoon and that's not the same thing.

T2 did mention that it's fairly rare that someone storms out of the office yelling. He said it's kind of exciting when it does happen, just because it's so rare. So yeah, they can handle it.

-"I am angry and sad right now because you don´t do your F*** job. Take on some professional responsibility for me as a client"....Okey I didn´t say the "F word" but is was said in a "F word" tone. Yeaks T didn´t seem to pleased but sort of had to agree

I said I hated her I didn't like her, and what's up with all the weird touching she does?

'I don't trust you'

The worst thing I ever said to T was in a dream:

T: "What do you want of me?"
C: "I want you to shut the f**k up and listen to me. Earn your money."

Telling a therapist you want them to do their job or don't trust them is not all that bad in my opinion. Is the hateful part because of the sometimes added swearing? I don't think therapists are all the fragile.

I remember saying some hateful stuff in an email once over boundaries after he wouldnt hug me. I attacked his ability as a T and that's the only time I can ever remember him getting all defensive and upset over things I said.

wow, what did T say to that I wonder?

On the one hand, you are right. Technically, it was not a personal attack.

On the other hand, I certainly meant it to hurt! The hate was unmistakable.

PS:

You raise a very interesting point. When I really wanted to hurt her I attacked her profession, not her. I have made personal remarks ("you have a big nose") but never in anger.
What does that say about me?

Was I simply saying, "You're not doing your job"? Or was I making an attack on her sense of identity, to make her ashamed of what she was?

Have you told her that?

I've written "I hate you" in emails but haven't said that to her face. I know I don't mean it and she knows it too, so it's probably not hateful to her.

However, I did write something very "hurtful" to her, which I know is not hateful, but I did it out of anger, so maybe it WAS hateful. I emailed a list of all the things I knew about her that she told me over the first year or year and a half of therapy. Personal things. Writing them in a list and sending it to her crossed boundaries (even thought she had told me these things) and was hurtful/hateful. I apologized and still feel ashamed of that email.

I have said a few shockers in my time. Mostly I say it to Ts who are either out for my money, or wasting everyone's time. I don't usually say it to them because I hate them as a person.... they are all faceless anonymouses to me so i dont usually know anything about them to hate them as a person.

I did give a very good lecture to a man who was the regional leader of a group I used to go to. He had no qualifications, only "life experience" to his position. As a result, he had no idea what the term "confrontation" means (in terms of therapeutic confrontation). There are rules to thereputic confrontation and he obviously didn't learn them because he was way too indignant and aggressive. And ofcourse I triggered as soon as he opened his mouth. And yeah it wasn't pretty after that. No violence or anything, it was all verbal, but by the time I left he was basically sh*tting bricks out of his mouth. I will not repeat what i said because in hindsight it was a bit harsh, although warranted. The consequence of this ofcourse, was that i cannot go to any of those groups anymore without travelling about 2 hours to get there (out of his catchment area) hahaha

Well, thats what happens when you tell a severely depressed person to "get up off your arse and do something for once".