Friday is my last session

Hi,

I see my counselor for the last time this Friday. I know KimmyDawn is going through a similar situation, and I admire her courage and strength as she works through this time of change.

I have some similar feelings about my counselor. I feel so grateful to have met him, and we have had a really wonderful working relationship. I, too, wish him well as he moves away. And I, too, can look at the working relationship we have had and tell other people it is possible to have a really good, healthy relationship with a counselor, and healing can occur within that kind of relationship. It does happen!

But I don't feel like my counseling work is done, and my counselor doesn't either. If he were staying here, I wish we could keep working together. And somehow inside, I don't feel ready for him to go. It all seems to have come up so suddenly. So I am struggling with this a lot, even while I continue to wish him the best, if that makes sense. But right now I am having a really hard time. And I can't imagine how Friday's appointment will even go! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I know he is leaving, but right now I can't imagine this whole thing at all. I am having such a hard time.

Thank you for listening.

Take care,
ErinBear

((((((erinbear)))))))) just wanna give u my support

((((((((((((((((Erinbear))))))))))))))))))))

I cried when I read this for obvious reasons. I can't imagine that last visit. Each visit seems more emotional and reflective...sweet and sad.

Even though I have decided to end therapy, I would have continued on to finish bringing things together had he not been moving. I will finish bringing it together on my own. However, if it were two years ago that he left, I would've had to have found another psychologist. Bottom line, if he weren't leaving, I'd finish up with him for about another 6 months or so. However, he is so it's cutting short and feeling unfinished.

I sooooooooooooo understand. I will think of you Friday, as I've already tried to prepare for that last visit and simply can't imagine it in my mind either. How does one say goodbye to something that was so good and not feel great pain and alot of other stuff?

Much care,

KD

((((((((((((((((ErinBear))))))))))))) I am so sorry you are going through this right now.

Dear EsthersVirtue,

Thank you for writing with your support - it means a lot....thank you so much :-)

Take care,
ErinBear

Hi KimmyDawn,

Thank you for your message and your kind words - I couldn't imagine being at the point of the last session, but here I nearly am....with just a couple of days to go. It is very hard.

I think probably in my case, there are years of work ahead of me, even if I were able to keep seeing the same counselor. I still have a bunch of work to do, even though we have been doing good work together. So, I hope I can find another counselor with whom I can create another good working relationship. It's all hard to imagine right now, including finding that other counselor and trying to make a new start.

But for the moment the main task is trying to say goodbye, which is a big job right there. I made a collage over the weekend about therapy - I was trying to process feelings as well as the good things that had occured while we'd been working together. I think that was a good exercise and we had a good time talking about it today.

Even while I know it is ending, it is going to be a huge change, and I am going to miss him and our working relationship a lot.

Anyway, thanks again to you and everyone here for listening.

Take care,
ErinBear

(((((((((((((((Bipolar Bear)))))))))))))))))) thanks ever so much - hugs from one bear to another! I appreciate it so much.

Take care,
ErinBear

((((((((((( Erin )))))))))))

I am so sad for you.

Hugs,

Jan

Thanks (((((January)))))) I appreciate the support here....

Take care,
ErinBear

Thinking of you, I feel bad for you (((((((( ErinBear ))))))))

Thank you, FuzzyBear....I appreciate it so much.....

Take care,
ErinBear

I beat both you and KD to it, and I've done so well in the ensuing month that when I saw my pdoc yesterday, he asked if I wanted to stretch my next visit out to 2 months.

Take me as proof that you can live through this.



Candy

Hi Candybear,

That's wonderful that you're doing so well since the change - thanks for sharing with me/us....and I continue to wish you well!

Take care,
ErinBear

(((hugs)))

Thanks, Sky. It is a hard day here...I know tomorrow is going to be the final appointment with my counselor, and I know that is the reality, but in another way, it's also hard to fathom it. It's a sad day here.

Thanks to you and to everyone here for the support, and for listening.

Take care,
ErinBear

I've been where you are, Erin, and it is so incredibly hard. I'll be sending you lots of courage and strength to get thru that last appt.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Erin}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Mary Alice

Hi Mary Alice....

Wow - good to see you here... (((((Mary Alice))))) hugs if okay

Thank you so much for the support. I'm sorry you've been through this too, but I sure appreciate the support and encouragement. It means a lot to me, Mary Alice. Thanks for thinking of me, and writing to me, too.

Take care,
ErinBear

((((((((((((((((ErinBear))))))))))))))))))))))

Please know I'm thinking about you today.

I'll be around tonight and tomorrow through PM to hear ANYTHING you might want to say.

KD

thank you KimmyDawn
((((((((KimmyDawn)))))))))))
it is so much crying here
sorry

take care,
ErinBear

((((((((ErinBear)))))))))))

(((((((((((ErinBear)))))))))))))

many thoughts to you this night...

kd

((((((((((((((( ErinBear )))))))))))))))))

ErinBear,

I dont know how you must be managing but im sending you love and hoping this works out.

atg

Thank you so much for the caring thoughts....still having a rough time but am trying to get through it. The support here helps....

((((((KimmyDawn))))))

Hugs,
ErinBear

((((((((((((((FuzzyBear)))))))))))))) thank you, fellow bear

Thank you,
ErinBear