Couch 19

SD- I know, but you know me.... To be honest life was easier when they were around....more for her to concentrate on besides me. Not making any rash decisions, just a thought. You have T today SD?

Not today.

What's this week's therapy question?

I have no good ideas about the therapy question. Just thinking about how much I hate that ****ing couch in my office. And he always lets me walk in first while he goes and get me a cup of water. Wondering what he would do if I took his chair instead of the horrible awful no good couch.

Yeah - what is it with these guys and their awful couches? The one I see does not have a chair for clients - just an awful couch that is uncomfortable and hard to get up from. I hate it. I would prefer a plain wooden chair to that stupid couch.

just booked my night at spooky world for my B-day gonna be a total blast haunted houses and hot chocolate with peppermint schnapps and huge bomb fire

http://www.nightmarenewengland.com/

how about color and type of shirt T is wearing as T question unless someone can come up with a better one lol

Awesome Granite, very excited for you and glad your BFF is back in your life. Type and color is cool with me, my T is color blind so I always notice if his socks match his shirt...LOL

who has T today?????

I see the man tomorrow. Why do I have this need to talk to him TODAY? Nothing in my life is that extreme, right? My aunt died and my mother is insane and doing weird stuff, but . . . Did I tell you guys my aunt died? I cannot even remember who I have told what at this point.

i am also lola but i am not trusting it yet well see how things are when she can get around

I am so sorry to hear that MKAC, are you ok? I see my T tomorrow too.

If she screws you over after that, you are done right and I can Kick her A S S for you?

WOW mkac i'm sorry about your aunt .could that be whty you want to talk to him. can you call him just to touch base i don't remember how he is about out of session contact

you bet you can.she is the girl on my face book tahnking me for trucking her but around and talking her out saturday. her husband id a jerk and just leaves her alone to deal.

Therapy is hard. Really, really hard.

whats going on

I am not allowed to text or email (well, I can email on rare occasions). I can call whenever I like, but he is not always able to call back. He has a couple of times not called back even when I indicated it was important. He said it was because the receptionist didn't give him the message. He has always called back quickly if I said it was important AND I was talking to the messaging service and not the receptionist. [Have I mentioned that I hate the receptionist?]

It's kind of a long story, but the bottom line is that, for the first time, T and I are really out of sync about something. It started last session and got worse today. I think we're going to have to spend some time on the relationship at my next session. I know it's important to do and helpful and all that, but it always feels like a bit of a waste of a session when we do that.

Plus, I see the pdoc for the first time today and I'm nervous about it. I'm sure that didn't help T and I connect this morning.

sounds like my T i can call thats it and she will call back if she is in the office. nothing else. how are you doing with the death of your aunt.i hate my T receptionist also

MKAC - sorry about your aunt.

I refuse to see therapists who have receptionists. I have enough trouble just dealing with the therapist - adding another person into the mix would be disastrous for me.

just be as honest as you can with pdoc and you will be ok.i totally get not wanting to talk about your relationship with T. last session was the first time we even touched on the T relationship stuff and my thinking she is angry at me all the time

I am not even sure how I feel about my aunt. She was kind and gave us presents very Christmas when NONE of our other aunts or uncles did. My grandparents on my dad's side didn't even give me gifts ever. So, there's that; she was nicer to me in that sense than any other aunt or uncle. However, she never learned my name. Seriously. NEVER. LEARNED. MY. NAME. She called me number 2. She knew my older sister's name. But my younger sister and I were #2 and #3. Never remembered anything about me from one meeting to the next other than I was the one that liked animals.

ETA: And it wasn't like she lived out of town or anything. She lived like 30 minutes away and we saw her every month.

I understand indifference about the death of a family member who you weren't close with. Your response if what I expect when my mom and dad pass, for me. Still, I am sorry for your loss...is your mother not reacting well and that is causing you issues?

Yeah, I don't think I'm indifferent. I am sort of sad. Maybe. Now I'm mad that I don't know how I'm feeling or how to describe it. So, I will stick with mad because at least I understand it.

And yeah, my mother is not reacting well and that is causing me the larger issues. Thanks for getting that, Lola. It's all about HER and just thinking about her reactions has my heart hammering in my chest. My dad was my aunt's power of attorney. His name was on her bank accounts so he could pay bills for her. My mom thinks that because my dad is dead, that means my mother now gets my aunt's bank accounts, and is all disappointed when I told her that was not how it worked. She somehow felt entitled even though my aunt has two sons. AND it was obvious she was calling to get that legal advice and not because she cares whether or not I know that my aunt is dead.