Couch 19

I posted the above after you posted this to murray, RTS:

I'm really not helping with that noise, am I?

So i have t tomorrow evening after work. We're going to be talking more about my reasons for requesting to start the termination process. I've been thinking a lot about it this past week and have asked myself a couple of really hard questions. Overall, and bottom line I guess, is I still feel ready to take on the world w/out t. But one of my reasons that I gave her is that I don't want to be dependent - and I had to ask myself, is that really what I mean? Or is it actually closer to, I'm afraid of loving t more than i already do? And then I want to ask Chopin - is this what you meant by the 'don't wanna go back' shuffle?

I put my young dog outside while I was riding the exercise bike and she hasn't come back. I went out in the pasture with a flashlight and drove all around the roads but I can't find her. She has never been gone like this. I'm thinking she has to have been killed or she would be home begging to get in by now. Can't sleep but can't see well enough to keep looking in the pasture. I'm afraid one of the horses may have kicked her. and I feel awful that the last thing I said to her was 'not everybody wants to play with you every minute. You're being obnoxious."

MKAC - I am sorry about your dog. I hope she comes home in the morning.

Artemis - for me the thing is, when there is a break, after the weirdness of the first week, I feel better. Therapy makes me feel bad all the time. Going back just sends me back to bad about not being heard or understood by the therapist and me not understanding her.

Thanks, stop. Me too. I cannot even find words for how horrible I feel.

MKAC - I know. I wish had something to say to help, but I know.

Some good questions here!

((MKAC))

A dog can run a long way if she has had a fright.
They don't necessarily run straight home, either.
There is still hope.

It is sad to think that you might have parted on bad terms.
But dogs, like children, need discipline as well as love.

I'm sorry, mkac... I hope she's all right, but I understand the desperate worry.

i'm up and hopping mkac dog has returned safely at home

so far a bit of panic thismorning about unimportant stuff and i am just trying to let myself know they are unimportant.
i have things i need to do today to keep my mind off going to T.
i am bringing my friend to her doc appointment and that will take most of the morning and some of the afternoon or longer depending on what they find.
after that i think i will come home and graft and maybe nap before i go to T.basically trying to stay calm.

MKAC - Sorry about your dog. I hope he has turned up.

Granite - I hope t goes well for you today.

I need to hurry and get ready. My appointment was changed this morning. I have a long list of reasons why I really don't want to go this morning, all of which I'm trying not to think about.

good luck trdle jumping in

Good morning couch friends.
MKAC - I hope you dog returns. I know the feeling of panic anytime one of my cats escapes.

Oatmeal with walnuts, cranberries, and flax seed this morning. Where's Wiki? I want her stamp of approval on this one

hey guys...yawn...stretch.

Granite...I'm in your pocket!
Good job sconnie.
MKAC...thinking about you and just prayed for your dog. I'm worried too. Please let us know if he turns up.

I have three things to say this morning, then I have to run of to my mothers:
Trauma T is stupid
Parts Therapy SUCKS BIG BALLS.
Vermont is HEAVEN!

oh...and a Wiki Challenge for the week:

Buy LOCAL produce and dairy. Read the label, find out where your food comes from. Support local farmers.

oh gawd...one more thing: I don't know what kind of shirt that trauma woman was wearing because she had a winter coat on. Seriously.

I had a hang up on my cell last night before I knew my dog was missing. I spent all night up and looking for the dog, other than a couple of hours from 2-5 because it was just too dark to see. This morning, I remembered about the phone call, and called it back. It was a neighbor and they had called to see if I knew who the dog belonged to because they thought they 'knew' my dogs and were sure it wasn't mine. They hung up because the county humane society was calling them back on the other line. So, the county humane society has my baby. I have left a message and emailed and am waiting for a call back.

thank you to everyone for the support and the good wishes. I need to take her to a micro-chip right away. And a collar that won't break.

Thank goodness - I'm so happy to hear that.
I hope you'll have a good day, mkac - a day after a sleepless night is always hard.

Good morning everyone!

MKAC...I am SO glad your dog has been found. Just thinking about this happening with one of my pups creates a feeling of panic.

Wiki...welcome back. Sorry the therapy stuff sucks. Glad you enjoyed Vermont, though!!

Everyone else...hello!!

Time to get ready for work. Let's see if I can arrive before noon today.

Have a great day!

Hello everyone. I can't stay but just want to drop a little hello.

Good luck to whoever has T today.

Chopin- Was it my comment about the old guy that set you off in a rant last night about your H's job? If so-I'm sorry.

Granite-hugs to you. You are strong. You got T tonight. You can do it. Stay calm.

Wiki- Welcome back! Hugs hugs hugs.

MKAC-I am glad your dog has been found. Hugs.

Hello hugs and love to everyone else. And a Nod of the head acknowledging StopDog.

See you all later.

morning all....

Welcome back Wiki
MKAC I am so glad you found your dog
Granite you can do this, no problem....easy breezy
morning SD,Chopin, Sconnie, Jersey and TB... afternoon APT.

Im laying bed, partner just called to give me a good does of guilt...
I'm thinking I don't care..., or at least trying not to care. Have a most excellent day!

The humane society lady actually brought Zoe by the house. She was impressed with Zoe's training and said she seemed so "well cared for" and trained that the woman knew someone was looking for her. Zoe seemed suitably chagrined, and happy to be home. Maybe now I can stop bursting into tears over and over and settle down and go to work.

Hello couchskis.

MKAC - very happy to hear about your dog.

Lola-don't buy into the guilt. It your days off. Take care of Lola. Do what Lola likes to do.