I don't want to be dependent on T

I'm sure many of you can relate to this. I feel conflicting emotions right now. Yesterday I told my T about this panic attack that I had, and we talked about it and had a really great session. I left feeling relieved. This feeling continued this morning when I woke up. But I don't want to be dependent on T. I'm already feeling attached to her and I resent it. (Yesterday was only our second session) When I came to this realization I burst into tears. Ugh what is wrong with me today?? I feel so anxious now and my next appointment isn't for 2 weeks!

My t has helped me to see that we all depend on others for different things; in this case maybe you should be able to depend on your t? not in an "I can't make a move without you telling me where to put my foot" way but in a ... well t will help and be a support to you way. I know it's scary; terrifying even but could it be a good thing really ?

I always get my most intense "separation anxiety" right after my session. Because it is at that point that I won't be able to see her for the longest stretch of time. Plus, I haven't had enough time to hardened myself back up. If I'm going to send a desperate email, it'll usually by right after I get home from session.

But after about a day, the "need" fades.

I totally get u

you have to be dependent on t in order to get better. its part of the process.

Wow, I get the same way. Feel like it's the end of the world and I'm all alone in the world feeling awful and no one cares. It comes sometimes the minutes before I leave. So hard to prepare for it too. Hard to understand because I worry that if I'm too dependent then she won't like it (t) and will pull back from me and not allow me to become dependent and then that causes yet more panic.

That's perhaps why your in therapy. You work through these feelings.

Hello tigerlily84,

For now, I think that you need a therapy, so it is some of good to be dependant of your T.

Relax about that, it is normal to be a little bit dependant, because you need this help for now. We will see for later.

I wish you the best!