Couch 26

I seem to always miss it when everyone is on the couch.

Hey RS..... Anyone else around?

think its just me

you sounded frustrated about T

No, just in a rut.. hard to open up with a man

I'm here.. Laptop in front of me, book in hand.. I keep coming back to it.

I used to think that was the reason i had a hard time too but then I started to see a woman...its not any easier...

I have alot of emotional pain inside...but i don't let anyone know... I wish I could have told xT about it but I fought it every step of way...

Hi Healed...what r u reading?

I had a women and found it easier to open up, although I am thinking I'm trigger shy in general from that experience... Therapy should be done like Catholic's go to confession!

Hey Healed, what you up too?

RS are you able to talk to new T?

Anybody want to borrow a very "helpful" grey kitty cat that thinks that she belongs on my laptop while I am attempting to work? She is a great helper.

I am reading Flipped by Wendelin Van Drannen.. It is a young adult novel. I am in the middle of the book The Problem of Pain by C.S. Lewis, I needed something alittle lighter to read.

I had both female and male T's. I am more open with my female T. It was hard opening up to the male T but there was no attachment like there is with female T. Male T was just there to chat with about every day things. He also was grandpa like. Big fluffy older guy.

Lola, new T does mostly CBT so its alot of problems from today and boundaries... I haven't talked about past or about having emotional pain or the causes...

I like her but there is no attachment or connection and seriously I dont want that...way to painful...

I get that Jersey... with my male T its like a buddy .

I would love a big fluffy older guy!!! I've been missing my FIL (passed away a couple of years ago) who was affectionate and would hug me... i don't remember my father ever hugging me... I saw a guy who reminded me of him at Walmart and I'm standing in ailse staring at him with tears in my eyes... I would have serious transference issues...

Lola- you talked before about that a lot. I wonder if you just need someone older?

My t is also a fluffy, older guy. The person who referred me to him called him a teddy bear and he really is.

I'm attached to him in a way I never had with any previous T, male or female. Even so, I still find some subjects pretty difficult to talk to him about. Some I think would be hard no matter who it was and some things I think are hard to talk about with him because he's male.

RTS-If that's the case, then yes there would be transferrence issues. This guy was very hugable and he had an affectionate side to him. He had butterflies all over his office and a gentle voice.

Jersey, I NEED him, I want a mother....LOL Im headed to bed ya'll night...

Oh I could never deal with a huggable T if he had a no hugging rule...it would be so hard.

good night Lola

Yes.. CL... I had that issue. Like for example- I could not talk about food nutrition or hormonal issues with him-and I'm able to open up to my female T because I just think she gets it being female and all.

It's been hard, but good for me to have a male T. It has been hard opening up to hime especially talking about the rape, and issue stemming from that. However, it is also getting me to be able to open up to male and see that they aren't all bad. As hard it is sometimes, I think it is necessary for me to have a male T as this time.

Goodnight Lola.