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We've touched on it a few times and talked about some options....but I need to face the facts about my financial situation. My income won't even be enough to pay my mortgage, beginning December 29th.

My insurance reached its cap, so it's not covering therapy at all right now. So, it's $113/week for therapy at the moment...and that's at a reduced rate. It's just not doable.

And the fact that it hurts so much is scary to me....to be that dependent. It makes me sick.

Sorry for being a downer on the couch.

When things become overwhelming, you have to step back and fix the things you can... one thing at a time. Have you posted a resume on Monster? What do you do for a living, what area...maybe my company is hiring...

Will the cap start over Jan 1? I'm with Jersey ...maybe every other week until things get straightened out.

Don't be sorry. We would like to help if we can.

http://www.careerbuilder.com/

One thing at a time. (breathing)

I'm a Contracts Manager....although most of my experience is in account management (I don't do outside sales, it terrifies me, but I do well with managing and growing existing accounts).

I think the cap will start over in February....but who am I kidding, I won't be able to afford the $400/month in private insurance by then if I don't have a job.

I really just need to find a job and conserve funds as much as possible until that happens.

http://www.rigzone.com

Depending on where you live, these are all oilfield related jobs...they pay well

Thanks for the support. The only place I go to when my craziness strikes. I love you guys.

http://www.simplyhired.com

Job is first priority... that will bring money. 1 thing at a time..... Any more thoughts on a roommate? Nice college kid or something?

Also, you could interview and submit your resume to a temporary company in the area...sometimes those job lead to full time jobs and it would be a steady income stream.... just a thought

or a head hunting company.... If we have these in my tiny neck of the woods, surely you have them in NJ.

I did submit my resume to a temp agency not long ago. Haven't heard back yet, but I will follow up. Thanks for the encouragement.

A friend of mine just called asking me to meet her for lunch. As much as I don't feel like going, I am going....because T always encourages me to do what I don't feel like doing, if it's something good for me, when I'm feeling so crazy....

...and I'm afraid T will have someone sent to my house, because my email to him was crazy....

excellent idea.... go with the friend. Ill pray for you, one thing at a time... prioritize and attack things one step at a time. (((((( MUE )))))))

hey MUE i know how hard it is to have to put yourself out there .it can be down right terrifying. i kind of like the idea of a temp agency for now maybe it might be worth a visit to one.then maybe they will do the looking and placing .you just show up.maybe it wont be the perfect job but it will be a job. i think you know that is something that has to happen and it is terriying i know

Sorry just put the kids down for sleep. MUE could even clean houses or watch a kid out of her house until she finds a job.

Does anyone ever find themselves getting ready for T and have NOTHING pressing to talk about?
If I'm not in crisis mode, I got nothing....

Lola-happens to me a lot. Just go anyway and stuff will come up when you get there

its so awkward..I just walk in and go.... "ok what today".... Makes me wonder if I even need T anymore.

He wants me to learn to let out little Lola in session.... I don't know how to do that. I told him he should take me drinking then!

Letting little Lola out in session can't be "forced" she will come out eventually.

Lola,,,, why not do something child like? color? I found that when I'm coloring that I just start talking and not thinking what I'm saying (didn't do it in therapy but with a friend who I confided in)... can you talk about how you felt when you were little? maybe talk about the oldest feelings you remember having?

Yeah I thought so too... but Adult me is very cautious around men and she doesnt appear to want to come out, I need a game plan. T said I need to trust him and let him be the strong one for me....but I can't seem to let that guard down. This sucks!

I have no trouble telling him stories...I have trouble expressing feelings with them. I have spent my entire life keeping little me under wraps, you know. Then bam in therapy they want to let her lose. I need to be hypnotized.

I know how you feel Lola. I feel like if my week was boring or uneventful then I do'nt have much to talk about either. But I know that I still need T because of how unstable I am when something does happen. And there's all these unresolved things that just kinda float around. Maybe your T can help you develop a game plan of some sort for your off weeks? When you do'nt have much to bring up but still want to cover things?

MUE: I hope you feel better. One thing at a time, you can do it..

I have/had same issue.... I had something that I didn't want to tell T about past and I had to have him sit on same wall and us not looking at each other to talk about it...

20 seconds of courage to talk about the one thing you thought you wouldn't say out loud... ?

once my t suggested we pick a feeling and talk about a time I felt that way... that really brought up a lot of stuff ....

I started with scared....

Thanks RS, I may use this. Sila, I have no off weeks ... I go 2 x's a week.... because for some reason without it ....I obsess over it and spiral out of control, so 2 x's a week keeps me on an even keel. 35 minutes to think about it or swing by the bar and do shots....LOL