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I have 2 cats they are brothers but you sure wouldn't know it by looking at them! they are so different. stormy has a foot fetish too, it's so funny he loves dirty socks, rolls around with them grabs them in his front paws and rubs his face on them, sleeps on them etc. he drags them out of the hampers. He also likes shoes - he'll stick his face down inside them, and lay on them. He's so weird. But he loves his people, that's for sure! He lets everyone pick him up and cuddle him etc. Very laid back and puts up with everything. Rascal is just the opposite he could care less if we are here or not, only wants to be pet when it's HIS idea, won't let anyone pick him up, etc. I love my boys though. Pets certainly become members of the family don't they?

I'm still here not in the shower and definately not getting ready to go out maybe just one more cup of tea. not avoiding here am i

I realllllly need to get to cleaning this house. It's bad. SO bad. But I have no desire to do it. I know I'd feel a lot better if I made a dent.

I've been taking pictures of items for sale and posting them on a resale site, so that's at least something. *sigh*

I also want to make my vegetarian chili today....

OK, I'm gonna get off the couch (aka computer) and do some stuff. Dammit. LOL

Just read an email from work that pretty much destroys the hope that this big project will happen...meaning, no full time job imminent....Amazing how I can work so hard for 20 years to establish what I have...and in a year, it all crumbles.

MUE- just focus on one part of one room for 10 minutes at a time. Don't look at the big picture. Set small goals to get it all done. You could do it.

When you started working for the place was the job part time or full time?

guess i'm out of here see ya guys gonna tryand motivate

See how far I got? Haven't moved....haha...OK, OK, I'm gonna do it...

It was part time with the expectation to become full time. I was laid off in Oct 2011 from a job I had for 14 years. Someone that I've known for about 3 years then hired me part time with the intention of it becoming full time once some big projects took off. Well, those projects haven't taken off yet - so I'm still part time - only 1 day a week. *sigh*

I should've been looking for a full time job from day one....but I always felt pretty confident that the part time job was going to become full time. It doesn't seem very promising at the moment.

And the thought of selling myself and interviewing absolutely TERRIFIES me....so, many times, the fear stops me in my tracks. But unemployment ends in 3 weeks...and I have a mortgage on a home, a daughter, etc.

I've been sending out resumes and reaching out to colleagues, etc. Am working on meeting one of my old bosses (who works as a contractor in the toy industry) for lunch hopefully next week to talk about some possible part time work (nothing steady, just one-off projects) and to see if he can put out some feelers to his network of professionals.

I'm also fearful about not being physically capable of working full time. With these migraines and other pain, it's hard to imagine. But I'm sure once it happens, I'll manage...

I think once you get out there and moving you will manage.

My H lost his job back in May. The economy is tough out there. I'm sure you will land something. Even if it's something your not thrilled with, until you find something better you might just have to take what you can get.

Jersey is H working yet?

Morning all... I woke up at 7:30, so late for work...par for the course on a Friday.... ugggg
T at 1 and nothing to talk about....

Lola-no H has no "real" job. He took a job driving a tow truck but the pay is based on comission. No calls = no money. Last week he only got 3 calls total and he only gets 35% of the cost of the tow.

They shall once again call her Super Nanny for being first in the car line!

Maybe he should put up some signs about the tow truck company so people can see them, then hire a kid to go around and collect distributor caps.

Thanks MKAC!!! I needed to laugh my a s s off!!!

Feeling so out of control right now. T emailed me about finances....and I told him my instinct is to be done. Done with group. Done with therapy. Done with life. I'm out of control. In pain. SI'ing.

Just done. I asked him to let me know the total amount due and I'll put a check in the mail.

Wow, how did I get here.

MUE.... are you ok? Did you hurt yourself bad?

stop with the self injury, mue! I love you and cannot stand the thought that you're hurting so badly AND hurting yourself. PLEASE stop.

Talk to us instead MUE

MUE... Please post here. SIing is not going to solve anything. Talk to us.

I'm ok. Well, not really. I'm just bawling my eyes out.

I can't seem to hold onto anything good. It's just too much of a struggle. It's too hard.

I know this will pass....I'll be ok. I can't imagine letting go of T....he's been my lifeline through the worst times of my life...but I can't hold onto something I can't afford.

Have you and T talked about a financial agreement?

The past is awful. The present is unbearable. The future is scary. I just want it all to go away. But every time I open my eyes, it's all right there. Everything, just jumbled into one horrific nightmare.

MUE-can't you send him just a little at a time. Or go to every other week until you catch up?