[rainbow8]

Yesterday my T emailed me that I could see her earlier on Tuesday so I wouldn't have to leave early for my pdoc appointment. I just got an email today that she is going out-of-town unexpectedly for the day. Unless I can see her tomorrow (I asked but I don't know what she will say) I won't see her at all this week.

I don't feel like doing anything now. I wish it weren't Sunday so I could talk to DBT T. I'm crying. Maybe my T will let me see her tomorrow. I will tell the pdoc how upset I get about T canceling sessions. Plus I'm worrying about snow next week, and I'm upset about what happened in Conn.--so terrible, all those little children killed. I want my T.

[unaluna]

Yeah this is going to be a hard week at least. I remember when princess Diana died, I would wake up every morning thinking about her. Same thing now. It's gonna take a while.

[ECHOES]

rainbow, I'm sorry that your T had something come up at this time.
I can understand your feeling hurt and angry about this unexpected change of plans.
Holidays and vacations can be so hairy. grr.

[rainbow8]

Thanks, hankster. Do you remember when John F. Kennedy died? I do. That was the worst!

Thanks, ECHOES. My T is going to a funeral--her friend's Mom, so it's not even something happy for her. I'm not angry, just sad and teary. I am glad I'm seeing the pdoc. I think my emotions are all out of whack and I need something.

[QuietCat]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

Yesterday my T emailed me that I could see her earlier on Tuesday so I wouldn't have to leave early for my pdoc appointment. I just got an email today that she is going out-of-town unexpectedly for the day. Unless I can see her tomorrow (I asked but I don't know what she will say) I won't see her at all this week.

I don't feel like doing anything now. I wish it weren't Sunday so I could talk to DBT T. I'm crying. Maybe my T will let me see her tomorrow. I will tell the pdoc how upset I get about T canceling sessions. Plus I'm worrying about snow next week, and I'm upset about what happened in Conn.--so terrible, all those little children killed. I want my T.

It's so upsetting when T's have to cancel on you. If my phone rings the morning of my appointment day my heart always sinks, and I don't want to look at the caller ID because it might be T canceling.

I hope she will see you tomorrow.

Rainbow
I hope you can see your T tomorrow. I am so shocked about that shooting in Conneticut. It is such a tragedy, I send my condolences to the people of America.
I think its important for you to tell T that you really need the support right now instead of suffering Rainbow

[rainbow8]

My T can't see me at all this week, though I don't know why she can't on Wednesday. My next appt. is a week from Wednesday on the 26th. I feel depressed.

[Nightlight]

My T just cancelled for a funeral too (and I was already waiting for over a week, so the last appointment wouldn't leave me with so much time over the Christmas break). I felt really sad for T, even though I don't know more details than it's for a funeral.

[adel34]

Hi Rainbow,
I'm so sorry t canceled!
Hopefully you can talk with DBT t. I really hope the pdoc appointment goes well too.
Thinking of you.

[rainbow8]

Nightlight, I'm sorry you're in the same predicament as I am. I feel sad for my T too, but sad for me because I don't handle her absences very well. I wish I knew exactly where she is.

Adel, thank you for replying to me. DBT T hasn't called back yet and I left the message last night. I feel like if my T really cared, she'd be able to squeeze me in tomorrow. She wrote that she'd be home very late tonight but she didn't say she wasn't working tomorrow. That confuses me. I think what bothers me most is that I don't have control over the situation. I'm only given limited information and that's what upsets me also.

QuietCat: That's how I am! My T cancels me by email, and my heart is racing every time I look at my email on the night before or the day of therapy. When I see that message canceling, and it's happened twice or 3 times so far, in 3 years, my heart sinks and I feel immobilized.

[Dreamy01]

Rainbow I'm sorry your T had to cancel. I understand completely how horrid it feels especially when something awful has happened in the news because you're feeling extra fragile. I hope you can hang onto the knowledge that T will be backe and take care of yourself this week.

QuietCat - I'm another whose heart sinks if the phone rings on my appointment day. Luckily this has never happened with my current T in two full years but it happened a lot with my former T and because she worked at an agency I couldn't see her any other time so I'd not only miss my appointment time I'd miss the week I do prefer private practice for the flexibility it offers.

[QuietCat]

Originally Posted by Dreamy01

QuietCat - I'm another whose heart sinks if the phone rings on my appointment day. Luckily this has never happened with my current T in two full years but it happened a lot with my former T and because she worked at an agency I couldn't see her any other time so I'd not only miss my appointment time I'd miss the week I do prefer private practice for the flexibility it offers.

My t is private practice so he does try to always reschedule me for that week. I'm glad for that.

He actually just cancelled on me this morning. but rescheduled for Thursday. I just hope he keeps the Thusday appt.

[skeksi]

I'm another one who got cancelled! I understand your frustration, Rainbow. I know T never cancels without a really good reason, I'm just childishly disappointed.