[WePow]

Have you ever felt like you were not sure why bother with therapy at all?
A part of me does not want to ever go back. No reason. Just feels like a circle.

[granite1]

Originally Posted by WePow

Have you ever felt like you were not sure why bother with therapy at all?
A part of me does not want to ever go back. No reason. Just feels like a circle.

whats going on wepow.have you been on a break from T

Yes WePow, I have, Usually when im not in crisis and things are smooth. But those are the times I cant work on root issues, when not putting out fires.

[Nightlight]

Sometimes I feel like that when I'm in the waiting room. Like, what a weird thing I'm doing, sitting there waiting, just to sit in a chair across the room from another person and talk once a week. It happens sometimes when things aren't either really good or really bad and it just feels...like an odd thing to do and I'm not sure why I bother. I'm not sure that's exactly like what you're feeling, but I relate in some ways.

[geez]

I have felt this way and do feel this way at times. I feel like I'm going in circles sometimes and wonder if it's just me or I need a different T. Nice to see you (((Wepow)))

[WikidPissah]

yes. I usually take a break for a few weeks. Rethink. Regroup.

You've been with your T for a while, does he have any ideas?

I'm sorta feeling that way today. I had been trying to end therapy anyway. Then some stuff came up I wanted help dealing with today. When I called t for our session today found out she has the flu and she sounded godawful, I told her to go back to bed and rescheduled. Now I'm thinking, well he11 I will just figure this out on my own. Now my thoughts are going to "anymore, it's more like I'm just paying her to be my friend than therapy and that's dumb". Gah.

[critterlady]

Just last week I told T I felt stuck. We talked about the stuckness. There's more talk needed, but it felt good to bring it up and work on it.

One thing he mentioned is that sometimes feeling stuck is a form of resistance. I think this time it is for me. There are a couple of things I'm really struggling to bring up, so I've been going around in circles trying to avoid them.

[WePow]

Thank you all sooooo much for your replies and insights. I am still going to T, I am just in a place that feels so strange. Critterlady, I think you might have hit the nail on the head. It does feel like I am fighting something deep and resisting. Just wish I knew what it was I was resisting!

The neck and headache issue has worn me out this past month. That may be a big part of it.

Thanks again!

[Sannah]

Is it a circle or layers?

I have but continued going regardless. After a couple of sessions 'it' revealed itself.

[photostotake]

I have a few times, but have never given into it. For me, it has been when something deep has been going on that I don't want to face. Right after my ED was revealed to my T, I wanted to rewind and put it back into hiding. I told him during our session that I think I'm done with therapy. I irrationally thought if I quit going, I could keep more of this to myself and recover on my own. Plus, he wouldn't be able to peel off anymore 'bandaids'. He talked me out of it (obviously the right thing to do). I'm thankful he did that.