Is any couch better than none? Welcome to Couch 41

Yes, I realize that it is hitting a lot of people, and under normal circumstances I wouldn't worry as much at missing the appointment. It's just that I have several stressful things happening tomorrow. Oh well - not much we can do about it.

I'm sure I could. I'm not much of a phone person, but if it comes down to it I guess that is an option.

Hey everyone.

Leaving for T in 5 minutes. ...yikes.

Hope your T session goes well, Night.

Good luck, Night.

Whoa - looks like Monday did everyone in.

Ughhh... I'm in my super protective mode... which means no one is allowed in my fortress .... even though I'd like to open the door and let my H in.... its not happening...its like automatic... poor guy is definitely being treated like an outsider and seems so confused...

the sad thing is I think he thinks there must be a logical reason.... something he's done... or maybe he thinks its just because I'm a b i t c h...

Ha I was reading an Everest book and I just found out who Ike Mcaslin is. Sneaky Pete.

I thought Ike McCaslin was a Faulkner reference.

So, so anxious and paranoid. Legs won't work. Like a sloth on valium. Jumping at every little noise. I don't know what's brought this on. My T won't respond to my text. Boundaries suck sometimes. I just need him to acknowledge, thats all.

Gah! I've just looked up Narcissistic Personality Disorder. I don't know if it describes me, but it does seem to describe the way my T sees me.

And now I have a headache.

CE: beware looking up things no good will come of it

Right. And they talked about it in an Everest book! About accIdentally finding George Mallory In 1998. I'm innocently reading along here, when all of a sudden I'm confronted with indisputable evidence of my ignorance. Plus it was like meeting someone from pc IRL. Oh YOU'RE ike!!

I'm surprised you just looked it up now. But then my brother is a t and has been throwing the word around forever it seems like. At first I looked at how my mother was narcissistic. But then I realized the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.

Good morning... T today at 4pm. I constantly have this feeling of dread that he is going to call and cancel. I really wish that feeling would go away.

(( HUGS )) to my PC peeps that are struggling.

I'm miserable at the moment - woke up with an excruciating sore throat and swollen uvula that's making me gag and have trouble breathing. ACK! Now, typically, that would just be a nuisance - BUT I'm staying with my mom who just got out of the hospital, am responsible for taking care of her liver drain, and she cannot afford to get sick. AND my daughter is going on a class trip for 3 days next week that she is really looking forward to, so I don't want her to get sick. GAH.

I better call my doctor to get checked, just in case. It could very well be viral - but my sister's daughter just had strep throat a couple weeks ago and I was at her house a few times since then. Better to get it addressed ASAP considering the risk to my mom.

Mue I sure hope you get to the doctor today!! Feel better

morning people, care to share my raisins and cocoa almonds?
Gee Wiki, and I even have DECAF coffee today. woah.....

Hankster, you a narcissist? nah.

Hey everyone.

Therapy was weird earlier today. T just mirrored back everything I said, for the whole session. I guess she was trying to make me feel heard and understood. It just felt like I had a conversation with myself though.

Nightlight I think I wouldn't be able to get through an hour of that without going, GAH would you quit it? It sounds like Calvin and Hobbes.

Or you could find a way to turn it on her, the way Hobbes would do.

N: Stop repeating everything I say.
T: Stop repeating everything I say.
N: This is frustrating.
T: This is frustrating.
N: T is a big poop head.
T: T is a ... hey!!

Yes! Right?

On the one hand, what's left? I've told T she's hurting me, not understanding, making things worse...she really has kept doing those things. She doesn't seem to remember just how much she's done wrong. She thinks a fair bit is me and my perception. So today she just repeated back everything...and I feel like it was all for nothing and now I have no wait another week and who knows what will happen then.

Now I'm alone because of everything T has said in the past. I've got nothing good left to hold onto. I don't even feel hope anymore. It's like I've been so crushed by her words and actions. I feel okay about having a little help each week if I can afford it, but the big things I thought could be healed...it all seems hopeless or pointless to risk trying. I just get hurt and T proved how unstable and untrustworthy this sort of relationship is many times, and she wants me to put it behind me.

Good morning, couchies.

MUE, I hope you're feeling better soon.

Step away from the google when you're looking up diagnoses, either behavioral health or physical health. You'll see the worst case scenarios, which are generally unlikely to apply.

Morning all. Hope you feel better MUE. Sage tea with lemon, ginger and honey...kicks soar throat's *** every time.

Critter: I went to a class at the wildlife center to do animal care. (I already do a lot of admin stuff for them). They want me to cut up tiny frozen mice and pinkies. EEK. No freaking way. lol. The raptors will starve if it's left up to me. I think I'll stick to doing laundry and cleaning cages. I can handle the egg shells and meal worms, that doesn't bother me so much. Once my immune system recovers I am going to go for the rabies vaccine too. I prefer mammals.

1567 Undecillion Points to SAWE for eating somewhat healthy. But... caffeinated coffee is actually healthier than decaf.

not to worry. I have caffeine lined up right after this. (new smilies!!! Woo hoo!!)

say, Wiki, how about I cash in the undecillion points on some Thai basil-rice-with-tofu for lunch?