Couch 48 - All are Welcome - really!

No, no dude - no live in anyone.
Friends - yes. Nannies - no.
You taking care of you with support from friends, the softball team, the dog walker, the therapist, and even a church sort of thing if you have a belief in that direction, etc.

Nannies. Good lord.

I was thinking about the softball team as well Stopdog.

I never would have imagined that I could live alone and be okay with it but to my surprise I actually enjoy living by myself... for now at least.

I may move back to MI to regroup , live with my grandmother.

Will that work with your job or would you look for a new one? Do you want to move back to MI?

whats up with your job?? can you live in MI and still have your new job

Trying my best not to email T again about what my mom said. I don't want to bug her too much. I hate any type of relationship (family, dating, etc.).

Why do things have to be so difficult?

Squirrel , I am sorry you are having a hard time. , unless you and T have an email limit Im sure it would be ok as you are in a bad spot.

As for my job,I don't think they care where I live, my co workers are in Calgary and FortWorth, I'm 3 hrs from FortWorth and forever from Canada. ... Even if it were just for the summer...after the project goes live then they may want me to move.

Well that's good to hear that your are flexible about where you live with your job.

No, there's no limit on email. She just only checks her email once a day, so anything I send won't get read until tomorrow. I could call her, but I don't want to wake her up (I don't know what time she goes to bed).

I think I will vent and send an email about the mother. T will be surprised that she is "acting up" again...usually it is the father who is pissing me off or upsetting me. Mom has only been the last few months.

I don't know why I mention my frustrations to family...it never turns out well. Neither of my parents think I should be taking meds for my problems and always bring that up as reason for my thoughts or frustrations. "Oh the meds are making you not think straight." I've heard that too many times. Hell...I didn't tell either one that pdoc put me on a 3rd med when he did. I didn't want to hear that I am "killing my brain" over and over again. I was worried about the 3rd med at first, so I turned to T and PC for advice as I'm not going to hear "get off your meds" from either of those venues.

Okay, I am getting off topic. Just getting POed at mom tonight made me relive the past. I hate when I do that.

So pissed off with my T. after my date last night I swore off relationships and told him I was going to "go wild" in the country and slowly go insane. He pointed out without my meds I would go insane rather quickly. It's still looking like an option.

Sorry everyone's having downers on the couch we all need a group hug. Except stopdog. Sorry I forgot.

Email sent, now to make sure I check my email in the morning and hope I have a response. She usually checks mer email at like 6am on weekdays. She's an early bird.

Need to get to bed soon as it's already 9:30 and I can't sleep in tomorrow since I have to go to work.

I think I may go and talk to the ESE Guidance Counselor (who is "in charge" of the teacher assistants) and see if she can talk to L about switching buses with me. I just don't want to look like I can't handle things. I've been handling it...I've just had enough. And L wouldn't be M (the woman mym driver hates), so it wouldn't be getting even with him so much. He doesn't know L, so he shouldn't have an issue with her yet.

I'm still hoping to be able to use my sick/personal time though. I could always ask the aide who is not on a bus and lives 45 minutes away from the school if she could cover the rest of the year. It would mean her having to get up early, but at least she is not M. Though it would be fun to have M ride just to annoy my driver. I don't know what to do. M knows my driver doesn't like her. Last time, he told her he as not happy because he had told me that he didn't want her on his bus. How rude. So M may not be willing to ride with him anymore...I don't know. She's pretty vindictive though, so she may find it funny to tick him off.

Well, off to bed I go. I need my sleep to not be aggitated with people tomorrow. Hopefully I will have an email reply from T with advice about the mother when I wake up.

Night couchies.

Sleep well Squirrel. Hope T writes you and you have a good day tomorrow.

Sorry I was napping!!! I just caught up. Good idea to talk to L. Maybe he doesn't like M cuz she gives him crap for being mean?? And I'm really sorry your mom isn't hearing it. You're like norma rae

She will if you will... if I will... it'll be like one of those huge linked kidney transplants, only for psychology... no?? yeah maybe not...

This is an area I am okay in. I don't have trouble being alone, living alone, and not being with a partner. I usually go for a few years in between. I don't do well being taken care of.

Ack. That would bring me down more. You all hug over there.
Where is my library?

Sorry SD. Amended my post

No I meant we each have to do something equally difficult. Okay it's not like a kidney transplant at all, it would be entirely different organs and I have no idea how that would work irl!! But wasn't it a brilliant idea... no?...

I was teasing, but thanks. I have no objection to you all hugging like all get out if you want.

So I would have to get hugged? Or be in a hot tub with a lot of others?
Those are pretty difficult.

No, I am not ready for that. Not ready at all.
Probably never.

Don't mind the dog!! Just spray her down!

I think I am safe - granite seems to be in bed. And I think we took her mister/spritzer away.