Couch 52 - Are you being served?

i just wanted to say i am sorry to all my couchies for yesterday. my posts were harsh and very blunt and i am sorry .it was my crap spilling out all over. i promise i have put it all back in the box and is well contained for today. thank you for those who kind of insinuated that i might need to be a bit less judgmental and harsh. and maybe try to get along.i have no excuses i just sometimes act like a complete a $ $ and i am sorry.
MUE you took the brunt of it and i am sorry i could have worded things a bit kinder or should have continued to just minded my own business.i am sorry.

it is hard because i am not allowed to have his # or anything .i don't even have his read address.i have to send pks to a military hub and they send it to him .i can talk to him on FB but that is when he is on and i don't often catch him as it is a 13 hr difference and he is sleeping when i am awake .except for a small window of time. i do get to talk when he is on night duty

I would hate it if I couldn't talk with my son. Military families have it so hard.

I am going out to breakfast with H. We are out of coffee, and his cream, so....

Rainy yucky day here.

I have a vague idea about why my t was there, but it's really none of my business (Hippa and all that jazz.) I didn't realize she was there until they were walking the casket out (it was in a church with pall bearers) and then they ushered everyone out in rows. So I saw t as she walked out. We did make eye contact, which I was okay with... but I didn't want to stay for the reception and risk having to talk. I guess I had never really thought about running into t in that kind of situation. Grocery store or something like that yes... funeral no.

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Granite, I would also find it extremely difficult not to talk to my son. Shoot, my son still calls me on his lunch hour at his internship just because he wants to. I cannot imagine having to go for even several days without talking to him.

Wikid, out of coffee counts as a total emergency! You are so calm about it!

Morning couch friends

Speaking of coffee - I am making some more and breaking my one cup rule! I have to drive 90 miles to the wedding through a big city. So...I need to be awake. I detest city driving.

omg i forgot about his internship.has it gotten easier for him as he learns more .i remember you saying he was so scared

Morning Couch.

Well I woke up at 4:30 in the morning. Took an hour to get back to sleep, but at least I was able to sleep a little more.

Have to day off today, so it will be filled with cleaning and laundry. I will try to "restrict" my online activity until I am done. Or maybe occasionsally pop in as a "reward" after I finish a task. That might be a better idea. Give me motivation to clean.

Well, I should go get dressed and get started on laundry before the washers are all taken.

I hope everyone has a good morning.

It has gotten easier, but he is still really hard on himself, and worries a lot.

Mast, I got an email notification about a post from you, but it does not show up here. Are you okay?

Oh, I'm sorry - I removed it. I didn't realise that people got notifications by email, or rather, I'd forgotten how that works... and now I feel like an attention seeker. Bah. Gah.

I'm surviving cos I have to, darnit. But I'm not doing so great at the moment. Thank you so much for asking.

And I suddenly realise that I haven't had lunch yet - that would probably improve my life a lot, since it's almost four thirty!

Low blood sugar really messes with me, Mast. I hope you feel a little better after eating. You are not an attention seeker, and if you want to talk about it, please feel free. Big hugs.

I did not know there were email notifications. I wonder what email address I have registered here. Apparently not one I use on a regular basis.

it has an option stop but you would have to put in an e-mail for it to send notifications to i believe.

Well, I am finally out of bed for good this morning. My son was up most of the night crying on and off- I had a terrible headache for most of that time as well. Son, so nicely woke us up with his guitar at about 6am and that is when every sinus cavity in my face was pounding!! After booth kids were awake H took them into the living room fed them, got them dressed brought them outside so I could sleep for a little longer. So, finally.. with tylenol, coffee, and sleep my whole head doesn't feel like it is pounding.

Busy day ahead- last minute shopping for daugther's party, picking up tables and chairs, then back home to clean..

Who has time to feel lonely and low?

Taking a break from cleaning and rewarding myself.

-Laundry is washed, dried, and put away.
-Dishes are washed and put where they belong.
-Litter box is changed/cleaned.
-Groceries I bought on Tuesday are put away.
-Coffee table is cleared off of old mail.
-Dining room table is clear of stuff I didn't need (empty bags and stuff)...now just to find a place for the stuff I do want to keep.

I'm proud of myself...I've had a pretty productive morning (and it's only a little after 11am). I deserve a reward of internet time.

I'm giving myself 15 minutes, then to eat lunch, then back to cleaning.

I hope everyone has a good afternoon.

wow lol you can come clean my place next .. ummm windows???

Distractions really work well! Keep busy.... My xT told me that acting "as if" sometimes really helps and sometimes it even can make permanent changes in us. Even though at the beginning it may seem wrong to be "faking"...it is possible that we can internalize those changes... learn its not so risky to behave a certain way and that its not "wrong" to do the exact opposite of what your "nature" tells you to do since at least for me... my nature (or what comes naturally) is not always healthy.

Sorry, I don't do windows.

Wow squirrel...awesome job!

Lack of coffee is an emergency! What was I thinking? Oh, I know, I was thinking there was a Starbucks with a soy cinnamon dolci right down the street.

Going to the organic farm in the rain...should be fun!

Hi there, couch peeps.

Been feeling kinda quiet this morning. My daughter is happy, hanging out with her BFF. I am doing laundry, feeding the kiddos and getting ready to pack some things cuz we're heading to my sister's to babysit overnight - and we'll get to meet their new dog. I am in no mood to be all happy-go-lucky with the kids, which is what they expect from their crazy aunt. I hope I can snap out of this down place. Who knows, the kids may be just what I need.

Hope my couch peeps have a good day!

Mastodon...did you text your t yesterday?

No, I didn't. I've written a txt in my phone notepad but then I chickened out.

Yea. I understand. It's so difficult to reach out.

I just sent it now, though. I must be insane. I can't contact a professional on the weekend!

Thank you for bearing with me...