Couch 52 - Are you being served?

Well, rewarding myself with another break.

I ate lunch and cleaned up after myself.
I vaccumed the whole apartment.
I cleaned the kitchen.
I clean out the refridgerator.

All that is left is cleaning the bathroom, dusting, and finding a place for random little things. I'm proud of myself. I worked hard today. Is it wrong to be proud of myself?

EDIT: Working on a new chore chart now, since the other one stopped working. Maybe if I put the chores on different days than they were before it will work. Who knows.

((( Mastodon )))

It's not insane to reach out, even on the weekends. I find that sometimes just the act of reaching out to T helps me feel less alone with it.

New chore chart made. Maybe it will work this time. Using the internet as a reward today worked well in getting me to clean. Maybe I should give myself a reward (like go to the movies or something like that) if I earn all my stickers for my chores in a week. Movies wouldn't really motivate me though...so I need to think of something that will.

Well, I'm off to clean the bathroom and dust.

Hopefully it won't take too long.

Squirrel - chore charts sound like serious stuff.
You are quite busy.

I'm impressed Squirrel. I feel like taking a nap after reading about how productive you've been.

Well, I got a couple loads of laundry done. Now I have to pack, shower, get some stuff cleaned up from today, drop my daughter's friend home, stop at the pharmacy and then head over to my sister's house. I need to remember to bring work clothes in case I get called for an emergency since I'm on call after 4 PM until whenever. I have less than an hour before needing to get on the road, yet I feel totally not motivated to move. *sigh*

T replied this time Just a "Hi Mastodon, I got your message and I will see you on Tuesday, rgds, T". Which made me go all calm inside. Isn't it weird how the mind works?

Watching the Forsyte Saga (the 2002 version) on Netflix. It's brilliant.

Bathroom clean. Apartment dusted. All that's left is to find a place for nick nacks. I can do that tomorrow after I get done at the senior place, or later tonight.

I've never been this productive in one day, I hope it's not a sign that I'm about to enter a hypomanic stage. That's the last thing I need.

Almost time for dinner (yes, I eat early...like at 5pm). My chicken is still frozen, so I should probably start cooking it soon, so it can be done by 5.

Now just to think of a way to reward myself for doing all my chores in a particular week. I need something to motivate me to keep up with it this time. Maybe T can help me come up with something on Tuesday. Wow, I have a lot I need to get through. I hope we have enough time.

Squirrel...my youngest uses a chore chart. She has one on her desk in her room here, and another at her boyfriends apartment. She's very organized about it. She's the artsy type, so things would be everywhere when she was younger. We worked hard at teaching her how to be organized. A lot of it was me constantly putting things back when she was younger, but she got so used to things being in their place that she can't stand things out of place at all. I never thought I'd see the day that she was neat.

hey all.... I am not going to live in Wyoming...nice place to visit but not to live for me. I am actually going to ask if I can work til this project is complete from MI. I am going to let her have all the house furnishings. If my boss says no, I am going to quit and move to MI anyway.... its the only place I have any relatives who care about me at all. (grandma)

apparently we are offering closing cost now to speed up the sale of the house.... i hope these next 2 months fly by... I am over this mess.

Isn't MI where hankster is? Maybe you two could meet up and watch bonanza.

I moved a thousand miles to get away from relatives who loved me.

yes, Hank is from there... I am going to make a list of options and decide.

We'll be the new Alias Smith and Jones. Now I better catch up with the couch and see what I just signed up for!

Oh yay! There IS work here, and a pretty good community. And it's not so freakin hot. And we do have softball!

Eta: me & grandma can watch the games...

I feel much better knowing you have a plan.

I can face almost anything if I have a plan.

to be honest I am in the middle of a plan... I have a few choices. Thank you all for being so supportive. I appreciate you all and all the help you have given me over the years.

Lola...I care about you and I pray that this plan would bring you to a place of inner peace.

Changing the subject completely...

In relationship counselling, I think each partner should pay half.

Perhaps each partner could pay a percentage based upon income. If one person makes $100,000 and the other makes $10,000 - the 50% split would not actually split the burden upon each of them equally. If one did it by percentage of each person's income, that would seem fairer to me. But people in couples (I am assuming you are talking couples/marriage counseling and not like work group stuff or friends etc) share and split money in many different ways. If one partner has no income - how does the payment work?

i think i am truely loosing it . i don't know what to do

Very personal decision between the couple... Some people commingle money others don't .
Possibly if u want to think of scenarios for splitting cost of mc...you could use income or if one person violated the trust of the other than violator pays or if one person wants out of relationship and other wants to do counseling than maybe they should pay....

What's up granite?

Granite are you ok?

honestally i dont know .it is like my emotions are completely all over the place.i mean more then usural. i have been doing ok for a while no real melt down untill these few days . everything crazy i am even blanking out .like ill be doing something and just blank out for a bit .i think it might be from my lack of sleep . at least the blanking out. why cant i sleep .it is crazy making . this morning i was crying like a lunitic when my husband left me alone. i did go to the craft thng for a bit but didnt feel right so only stayed for a little over an hour and now i am back to crying again for no good reason.husband wants me to get out of the house and go for a walk with him before he goes to bed but i just dont want to. anyway sorry for spewing my crap again .ill be fine.

tequila it is. lots of it .maybe that will help me sleep. that is the answer for sure . sorry to be a pain here

Have you been talking to the mother? That will make you crazy. Or thinking about it, or being reminded of it in any way?

It's like when your computer isn't working. What's the first question you ask? This is the first question my ts would ask. I hate that they were right!