[WikidPissah]

This couch almost works like a chat...
Nothing is off topic.
All are welcome...the more the merrier.
So just post already, because we like you.

Just please be kind.
We have all been hurt enough.

Have at it...

PS: Wiki points if you eat a healthy breakfast!

[Raging Quiet]

Hello!

How is the weather where you are?

X

[WikidPissah]

Hey Rect....
It is an amazing day here in New England. Sun is bright, not a cloud in the sky, and there's a cool breeze coming off the ocean. Gotta love it!

Sweden is warm and sunny - at least around where I am. Today is a public holiday, so it's nice that the weather is good. The lilacs are in bloom, and that's just lovely. How's the UK?

[WikidPissah]

oh, I love lilacs! Ours were in bloom last month, I put vases of them every where in my house. You know things are looking up when the lilacs come out!

[mixedup_emotions]

Thanks for the new couch, wiki! Umm, I haven't had breakfast in...gosh....ummm...I have no idea how long.

Yesterday, I ate some tortilla chips mid-day so I wouldn't pass out....and then had a few french fries last night so I didn't get heartburn with my meds. Not doing too well in the eating department. But hey, maybe I'll lose a few pounds through this mess. I have quite a few to spare. LOL.

Hankster - (going back to your post on the old couch) - Thanks! I like the idea of just outright saying I'm not buying his excuses. I guess the challenge for me is to not freeze and cower. That's been a struggle of mine for a long time with certain people. I didn't think my T was going to be one of them. *sigh*

Mastodon - Thanks for hopping in my pocket. I hope you're not horrified by what you hear while you're in there. LOL.

Edited: spell correct. I don't hate tortilla chips. I ate them. And actually love them with my homemade salsa. Gotta make some more of that stuff. LOL

[Arethusa]

It's raining here.

[mixedup_emotions]

It's a beautiful day here in NJ. Sun is shining. Nice cool breeze. Windows are open.

Hey, wait? Why am I on the computer? I'm supposed to be cleaning!

[WikidPissah]

hi Arethusa! Sorry it's raining, but hey...maybe the weekend will bring sunshine! It's nice to have you with us!

[Arethusa]

yeah I hope so

Hey, Wikid, your bracelets on the last couch are amazing! I know you are sometimes critical of your own work, but you should not be. I willing to wager you could make a fair amount of money selling those. And thank you for the new couch.

Here is my proposed new couch for us to share. If anyone has other ideas for our hang-out space, post away!

Or maybe this one, as it has a separate little area for stopdog:

[murray]

Nice couches MKAC. Thanks.

I agree about your bracelets Wiki. You are extremely talented.

Okay, I'm about to hop in the shower and get myself ready to go apply for a job. Might need to take some immodium before I go at this point. sorry for the TMI...anxiety just does a number on my system....and I'm a bit stressed.

Oh and WTF is with my ex-to-be writing and declaring his undying love for me???? ....after ripping me up one side and down the other a few evenings ago on the phone...he said he was sorry and didn't mean to hurt me but I "made him"...man it's just like when he was living with me....

[mixedup_emotions]

Hey, can we have a "time out" room for when we have meltdowns and just need to cry?



Half hour til my session....I'm terrified.

[mixedup_emotions]

Originally Posted by murray

Okay, I'm about to hop in the shower and get myself ready to go apply for a job. Might need to take some immodium before I go at this point. sorry for the TMI...anxiety just does a number on my system....and I'm a bit stressed.

Oh and WTF is with my ex-to-be writing and declaring his undying love for me???? ....after ripping me up one side and down the other a few evenings ago on the phone...he said he was sorry and didn't mean to hurt me but I "made him"...man it's just like when he was living with me....

((( Murray ))) - I have the same issue with running to the bathroom. Been doing it all morning cuz of this upcoming T session. I hate it when my stress and anxiety affect my body in other ways. Ugh. Good luck!

And as far as your soon-to-be ex, I experienced this as well and I found it so painful to endure - the tugging of the heartstrings that is part and parcel of the cycle of abuse. I'm sorry you're going through it, but I am hopeful that you can see through it and keep moving ahead.

MUE, not to be callous or anything, but BUCK UP, Woman! This is YOUR therapy. You are in control. You are in charge. Remember that. Hang on to that. You PAY for this and you CHOOSE what is best for you. YOU choose. You and only you.

[murray]

Good luck MUE I know this is going to be very difficult but once you have this session you will hopefully be able to know if you can continue to work with to or need to move on. At least the uncertainty might be gone and I find the uncertainty can eat me up.

[unaluna]

I always have immodium in my backpack and in my house. I have a very delicate heinie. Usually it works fine, but when it doesn't....!!!!

[granite1]

i'm back heheheheheheee had a good time making cards and hanging with some good peeps. ready in the pocket and murry also good luck with the interview

MKAC good to see you around here (hugs)

next........you know you want to

[EllieBear]

Sweet! A new couch! I need somewhere to just lounge around today! I'm waiting for the repairman to get here to fix my washer and dryer two weeks after I called in to get them fixed. Gotta love warranty companies lol, but at least it's free. My house looks like a laundromat exploded in it.

In other news, I had a rough session with T yesterday. Some things that happened with my ex are trying to rear their ugly head for me to deal with, but I am already overwhelmed with the other stuff I'm working on right now. I really don't feel like I can deal with all of it at once, but none of it will calm down...so another reason I'm hanging out on the couch...my stomach is very unhappy and I can't go far from the bathroom today either. Funny that that was a topic of conversation this morning already cause I'm in the same boat right now. Unfortunately I can't just lay around the house all day. My kids are way too busy, which means I'm way too busy lol.

And, I almost bite the head off this mom at my daughter's gym yesterday. She's a gymnast, and she's taller than most other gymnasts. (She's only like 5'2", but when she's done growing she'll be like 5'6".). Anyway, these parents were sitting there in front of the kids calling my daughter a giant and saying she's huge and like twice the size of all the other kids. I wanted to turn around and say "Do you have any idea what comments like that do to these girls that are taller? My daughter cries herself to sleep at night over them! She loves gymnastics, but she tortures herself over whether she has to quit because she hears the parents talking about her like this!!". I was seriously livid. She accused my daughter and her friend of bullying the little kids just because they are tall, and seriously my daughter is the kindest kid you will ever meet. She is so protective of the little kids. She has never done anything but help them. I seriously had to restrain myself not to cause a scene.

[EllieBear]

Darn it! No dryer for another week! The broken part cause the main control panel to short out, which can happen but the repairman has never seen happen before. Just my luck today . Time to visit the laundromat! Well...not today. Saturday. That'll be my job for Saturday.

[mixedup_emotions]

Not feeling up to conversations at the moment, but I just got back from my assignment and wanted to update my peeps on my T session.

Well, the email didn't go over well at all. T started out the conversation by telling me that he believed it was best that we terminate. He was pretty adamant about it, telling me all the reasons why he felt it was best for both of us...The rest is a blur.....

By the end of the session, he agreed to continue to work with me, but we need to come up with a script that we can refer to if things go off track between us in the future (I have no idea what that's supposed to include), I have to commit to doing the trauma work that I need to do, and I have to commit to not saying or doing anything in group that would have the potential of compromising his credibility, no matter what's happening between us, and I have to commit to talking in group - and if I feel trapped, I have to come up with a way to communicate that to him so he can help me.

Not sure what I'm feeling right now, but it's not good.

[pbutton]

MUE, I'm not sure that sounds like a healthy therapeutic situation. It's creeping me out a bit.

[Squirrel1983]

Well, interview went well. They said they were interviewing 3 people and would pick one for the manager to interview (and if he liked them, they were hired...he had the final say). So, now just to wait. I wonder how many applicants they had (I'd imagine hundreds at a place like walmarrt). To be in the top 3 to get interviewed makes me feel pretty good.

Also went to the senior care place this morning to fill out final paperwork for enmployment there. She had originally said she could only give me between 10 and 15 hours a week when I was at the interview a week or so ago, which is why I accepted the Walmart interview. That changed though. She ended up giving me 18 set hours a week, with the possibility of extra hours some weeks when she needs more help. Between that and C, that almost earns me enough to live this summer. When I crunched numbers, I fall about 250 bucks short...which I could make in 5 jobs with my dad, if I want to risk him saying things again. Hmm...

Spent some time thinking about the situation with T this afternoon. I still have no clue what I want to tell her about whether or not I want to find someone else. She's helped me so much these past 2 years, I would hate to have to start over with somone else, but if they were available more often, it might be better. I don't know.

[karebear1]

Hi gang!