Struggling a bit (trigger - sui thoughts)

((((MAST))))

I support you in whatever you decide to do, but you know, if your T said to call him then apparently HE thinks he can say something helpful, even though you doubt it.

Also..here in America we have this thing called voice mail. If our phone goes off when we are too busy, we can let the call go there and get it when we are less busy.

Maybe if you text him to call when he has time? This way he can decide when it's an interruption or not.

Thanks, wikid...
I don't know. I'm not in any fit state to make a decision about anything tonight, I think. But your support is worth a lot, as always. Also, that "voicemail" thing sounds totally nifty

If you are safe and don't feel right calling him now, respect that feeling but remain open to the possibility of calling him on another occasion.

And as you think about it on other occasions, do remember the reasons that he said you could call: he is open to hearing from you and he thinks he could help.

Thanks, Bill. I am safe. I really want to stress that - nobody needs to be worried, at all.

OMG.

I did send T the letter in the end, and today I got a txt message from him that conveyed so much compassion I can't quite believe it. He thanked me for being so open and asked me to txt him or write again if I need to. I have the best T. Sorry everybody else who thinks your Ts are the best - I'm afraid I bagged the top one.

I should change the topic of the thread but that can't be done... right now I don't struggle at all. I am really grateful for all the support I've been getting here. Thank you.

YAY!

Your T rocks. Does he skype in English? lol.
So glad that he contacted you.

I'm so, so pleased to read this

I am glad it worked out well for you.

I am SO happy for you Mast!

You SO needed this experience, and I'm so glad you got it!

And if you forget it, we'll all remind you!

When my T would travel to her home country on the other side of the world from me for 4-8+ weeks each year, I'd pretend I was on sabbatical The last year we were in therapy, we had already set our termination date and she was away for more than 3 months that year, November to February or March; basically all of winter (she had some condition she'd gotten as a child and if she so much as caught a cold, it could kill her). Since it was toward the end of therapy (we ended, end of June or July, I actually forget which!) I decided with all that time she was gone, I was going to write her a book about my life and therapy and how it had influenced my life in the long period of time we'd seen each other. I did not write that book then but I have since written a 50,000 word novel with National Novel Writing Month that combined my actual background/life mid-20's with my idealized life, what I would have liked for it to have been like based on what had actually happened and been my experience, hopes and desires through my mid-50's.

Think up a grand project? What do you really ultimately want from therapy and/or life? What if you were to pretend you could just reach out and get it? That you could just believe, "I can't wait until I meet the wo/man that is going to be my husband/wife in the next five years" and then figure out what you would like to be like for that relationship? "I can't wait until I can afford a home of my own" and figure out what you would like that home to be like and start saving for it and figuring out how to get it, etc. "I can't wait until I am my best friend" and picture telling your T about that experience when he gets back?

MASTODON:

Way to go! And thanks for setting me straight on that "best therapist" thing. I thought mine was, but now I see I was wrong, it's yours.