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Jerz and MKAC...I lol'd at the T calling thoughts. I have wanted to call people's ts so many times! I would love to call Granite's T and say "WTF? Stop moving the damn chair you idiot, it's driving poor Granite crazy!"

Welcome back Artemis...we've missed you. Funny about the "wily" thing, I just used that phrase on a thread recently.

I have an Aqua something class at 9. Cardiologist at 1. Hoping that he has some insight into this pericarditis and can help me get off of the prednisone. (Every time I drop lower than 60 mg of pred, the inflammation in my heart gets worse and causes heart-attack like symptoms).

((( Lola ))) - I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you are able to get some real life support through this. Of course, the couch peeps are always here for you - but I'd imagine that some real life comfort would help.

Feeling yucky today - migraine, nausea, etc. - The kitties are such a handful. Just let them out to eat and play for a bit. I can't do ANYTHING when they are out because the barricades that I set up are not good enough to keep them contained to one area. *sigh*

I have an assignment in an hour, so I need to get showered and out the door....I have T this afternoon and then am taking my cat to the vet as he is due for a check up, shots and needs to get back on a flea treatment since the kitties have fleas.

I am trying to push myself in T to go back to what we were talking about last week. I am quite horrible at 'sticking with it'...and tend to delve into something for a session, maybe less than a session, and then go months without going back to it. Not very productive. Yet, I can't seem to get into that space. I did start writing some things down - so maybe I'll bring that in so I can get a jump start on talking about stuff. Parents, upbringing, love versus anger, etc. Blech.

Hope the couch peeps are hanging in there.....

No not thy grandma it was another one, but thank you

(((Lola)))

sorry I got it wrong....

lola I go for the bubble wrap also just for a bit. I have not read back to see if you have decided to go to the funeral and if your wife is able to go with you. have you asked her??? in this case I bet it would be ok to ask something of her.i am so sorry about your stepdad

Well we are in the 2 steps back mode... My H shared something he said to another guy in group. I said that is ironic that you would say that. i said it never bothered you in the past to do that to me. ( Its too long and complicated to go into.) H choose not to speak to me...went complete silence... Apparently i feel asleep during it which he was none to happy about so in the morning he wa still silent.

I made a point of saying you are choosing to be silent and that is fine just let me know if and when you want to discuss. He said I hurt his feelings... I said well you can have hurt feelings ... They are yours to have but what I said was truthful and how i have seen it and experienced it.

Any way...i am not taking on or reacting to his feelings or beating myself up for mine... So i guess that is still progress.

(((Lola))) sorry for your loss.. Call, message, or text me if you need to!!! I hope you got some sleep last night!

ART!!!!! hi my friend welcome back .nice to see ya and stick around

LC - sorry to hear.

((((Lola))))

Ready...that is still progress.

Went to therapist yesterday sounds like I'm gonna be diagnosed with schizophrenia .

sneezyyy

(((Lola))) sending hugs and good thoughts your way Lola so sorry for your loss.

Hi Granite, Wiki, Jersey, SD, CE, healed, BP, MUE, & everyone my half-asleep brain can't remember right now!

I've totally taken a step backwards and turned down T's offer for a session next week. SUCH a bad idea but I refuse to fix it. So sad. blah.

Pbutton.... let down the wall just a little or maybe just crack open the window and email, call or text and ask T if you can still have that appt.

Hi Sneezyyy,,,,

Was that your first session with the T?

Sometimes a diagnosis is good in that it will get you the type of help you need...

You know, I was thinking how much I wished we could create a list where we could get people to call our therapists for us, or where we could call a friend's therapist for him or her, but it's probably counter-productive in the long run, huh? Although in a couple of cases, where people just really cannot SAY what they need to, it seems like it would help move things along so much faster. Like, "hey, Granite's T, get the chair out of the ****ing corner and KEEP it out of the ****ing corner." Or, "hey, PButton's T, give her a ****ing appointment next week and get new ****ing scheduling software!" Everyone's life would be SO much easier and I don't think there would be serious long term consequences to the person's therapy. Although I admit the one time I did call someone's T, it was totally useless and he didn't call me back, but I felt better, anyway. LOL.

Ever had one of those distinct feelings that you must have done something to offend a person you considered a friend because they treat you differently than they have in the past. But even when you ask they say no.... you know things are not the same between you.

Its hard. You just have to accept that the relationship is not what it once was because there is nothing you can do as long as that person refuses to tell you what you have done to damage the relationship.

Ready, I know a couple of my friends worried about that with me at one point. It was really all about me being in the pit of despair and unable to function. I was so depressed and so convinced I was worthless that I was unable to really respond to anyone normally. You may not have done anything at all.

Inquiring minds want to know...

Well I'm off to work for the day. Maybe I'll get back on here tonight. If not, catch ya'all tomorrow!

I have been there ready. it is even harder when you even doubt that what you are feeling is right. like you feel something is wrong in the relationship but don't even trust your own perception that there is something wrong but it is nagging at you .then the person says nope and you question that . it is out of control confusing .it is hard to trust anyone or myself. this is my mind almost all the time its hard and I get it ready

have a good day at work art

MKAC... that is a very good point to keep in mind... but in this situation I see her interacting with other people as she normally does...

I realize there is nothing I can do about it.. but accept it.