[Daeva]

From being around and reading different threads on here, I have noticed a lot of you don't know how to feel about therapy/therapists, your feelings fluctuate, some of you hate it, etc.

For me I have never fluctuated at all in the 11 months I've been seeing my T. I've always loved going to therapy, never have I dreaded going to a session, never. I have alwyas been happy and excited to go to see my T. Sure we've done a lot of work, even had some really intense sessions, but no matter what I always looked forward to my session.

Am I the only one?

[AllyIsHopeful]

It depends on the reason you're going. I personally struggle with anxiety and an attachment disorder, so sometimes I dread going. My feelings about my actual therapist never fluctuate, but to love therapy all the time doesn't seem possible for me individually. It's a lot of work and brings up a lot of anxiety, especially dealing with trauma work.
I'm not necessarily walking on sunshine knowing I'm going to go talk about certain extremely painful and triggering subjects.
Also, if you're extremely depressed, it is pretty impossible to be excited about anything. Especially when it is so bad that therapy sessions are the "highlight" of your week.

Just another perspective...

-Hope

[Daeva]

Yeah, I go for child hood trauma, OCD, Depression and BPD. Thats what I mean though--I've been that depressed/am that depressed, the session is my highlight. But it's ALWAYS my highlight which seems odd. I mean I have been nervous about going but always wanting to go. My T has triggered me a few times without realizing till I brought it up. She now knows never to say threesome to me

[PrisonBound]

I almost always look forward to it. The one or 2 times I haven't is just because I'm drained or tired. I go after work. Nothing to do with her at all. But I never miss..you gotta put the work in

Personally, I sometimes get frustrated with the side effects

[Daeva]

Yes!

The only side effect I get frustrated with is Transference.

[stopdog]

Originally Posted by Daeva

From being around and reading different threads on here, I have noticed a lot of you don't know how to feel about therapy/therapists, your feelings fluctuate, some of you hate it, etc.

I don't know what you mean by people don't know how to feel about it.

I personally dread it every week. I view it as an onerous event that may have some use. The therapist is just a person I pay rent to who will sit there and act like the human in the experiment of me telling another human things about which I do not normally speak.

[AllyIsHopeful]

Oh ok I think I misunderstood. I definitely feel mad amounts of anxiety on the days of my session but I have never "not wanted to go". Sometimes I dread it if the last session was heavy or if I know the topic for that day will be heavy based on how I'm feeling. I always love being there once I'm there, though.



-Hope

Originally Posted by stopdog

I personally dread it every week.

How come you go, Stopdog?

(just wondering)

[PrisonBound]

the couple of times I didn't feel like going was because sometimes (for me) it's easier just to bury things and not deal. When I feel like that, I know I really need to go

[stopdog]

Originally Posted by Autumn Skies

How come you go, Stopdog?

(just wondering)

It may have some use. Like chemotherapy or long division.

[Daeva]

SD you just compared therapy to chemotherapy.

Originally Posted by stopdog

It may have some use. Like chemotherapy or long division.

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[Karrebear]

The only time I dread my sessions are when Im nervous (which is almost every time). I love the feeling of closeness with my T. Thats about it.

[healed84]

Sure, I have been frustrated with T, but my feelings of trust and truly liking him has never changed, so in that sense I am with you.

However, there are times that I dread going because we are working on me and I need a lot of work, lol. I get frustrated while talking to T, because it brings up the crap I need to work on. T likes to say that my relationship with him is practice for all my other relationships and I am bad at relationships, so there is another reason why I love and dread T day. On the days that we connect, I am not too mad at myself, and I feel like I understand myself, my mental illness, my thoughts better are the days that I walk away from T, looking forward to my next session.

[eskielover]

I am so thankful to finally have a psychologist& DBT psychologist who are really helping me get through the rough times that continually hit me. I come away from my t & D BT feeling better.

I went through some crap & years of sui attempts before i finally left my marriage after 33 years & moved 2100 miles away where i didnt know anyone to start life over...& need all the help i can get...best help I've had at learning how to function again

[Mactastic]

I sometimes am anxious about my appointment but I never dread it and I have never cancelled or thought about canceling. I agree it's the highlight of my week, even when it sucks (which is most of the time.)

[purplemystery]

I always look forward to going, and anticipate it throughout the week. I treat it like the most important thing in my life. But, I do often get nervous about it and may not exactly be excited. Therapy is like an emotional roller coaster for me. I never know whether I will end up in devastation, turmoil, glee, or infatuation after a session. It's rare that my emotional state for at least the first few days of the week will not be directly affected by what happened in the last session.

[granite1]

I think the only time I really dread going to T is if I feel I have done something to upset my T. it terrifies me. going to T otherwise is frustrating for me because I so want to be able to do and say things that I just cant seem to do.i cant figure it all out but I am trying .

[healingme4me]

I've found therapy to be very beneficial, in my life. I wouldn't say that I count down the hours to my next session, but I don't dread my sessions, either.

[reesecups]

I have only dreaded seeing my current T once. When I admitted that something she had said/done had nearly triggered me to SI. I was pleasantly surprised by her response. I look forward to usually go there and get help figuring out what's going on with me as well as the people around me.

[ScarletPimpernel]

So long as I have a good T, I've always liked therapy.

I do still get nervous for some appts because I know she's going to bring up sometime I don't really want to talk about, but I have never regretted a session with my current T. I have never missed a session with any T unless I was sick or they had to cancel. Even if I wind up bawling, I always feel better afterwards. I consider my T my ally...the one person on this earth who choose to listen to me and support me (even if she is getting paid to do so)...but she isn't being paid to care...and I know she cares.

[purple orchid]

Originally Posted by Daeva

From being around and reading different threads on here, I have noticed a lot of you don't know how to feel about therapy/therapists, your feelings fluctuate, some of you hate it, etc.

For me I have never fluctuated at all in the 11 months I've been seeing my T. I've always loved going to therapy, never have I dreaded going to a session, never. I have alwyas been happy and excited to go to see my T. Sure we've done a lot of work, even had some really intense sessions, but no matter what I always looked forward to my session.

Am I the only one?

I love going to therapy, I'd go every week if I could afford it and my T would accept me!
I've done some difficult work but I've always felt T is on my side and so supportive, they are like my best friend that I don't have.

I've never dreaded going to therapy, but saying I love it doesn't sound right either. Maybe the word I'm looking for is appreciative. I appreciate being able to have a place and time focused on me. I appreciate having sometime whose soul purpose is to support and help me.

[A Red Panda]

I don't like going. I like my T, and I hope that going will be helpful for me, but I can't say that I've ever once looked forward to it - it is certainly NOT the highlight of my week.

I can say that going is progressively getting easier as I get to know him more. Unless something bigger has gone on, in which case I dread going.

But then - I have really large issues with appointments in general. So I find just GOING to the appointment as progress in my life. And the fact that I keep making myself go back, even though I really don't want to and there's nothing making me - I sorta find that to be part of my own therapy, haha. I've told my T that too a few times when he's seemed confused or frustrated over what to suggest to help me. I've been like "Just COMING to this appointment is a challenge for me T. Every week I don't want to come and yet I still come and then I force myself to tell you things that I don't trust you with."