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Oh god, I have post-therapy brain. It was intense today, and I have no thinking power left. None. Just want to sleep.

Alas, classwork awaits. At least I have cider.

Even my pdoc tonite agreed with me about what is wrong with my face. Im gonna freakin kill the derm tomorrow if he doesnt hook me up with some decent drugs. Why would he make me suffer like this for another two weeks. Effin a. I know - first world problems. At least i have a bus to take me there.

I was threatened with the possibility of jail time about 10 years ago by my son's caseworker. She was falsely accusing me of stealing his SSI money. It sent me into a horrible, terrifying state of mind. I hope you are OK, and you are in my thoughts.

What is a zipcar?

Hope it goes well and is helpful. I'll jump in your pocket if you want.

I'm so scared about therapy tomorrow. She hurt my feelings and I didn't respond to the email. I think she may ask why I didn't. I hope I can simply say that she hurt my feelings. It wasn't really a hurt. However, it let me see that I'm all alone. She doesn't have to do anything outside of the hour we spend together. She has a life. I don't have one. I see that I'm so scared in many areas of my life. Her rushing off the phone with me, put me back into reality. I'm all alone. I'm so alone that I talk to random people when I'm out. I'm so scared of losing more people that I won't make deep connections. I feel if I cry, I'll feel a connection that isn't permanent. I'm tired of losing people. I can't lose anymore.

How will I say this? Will I cry? I know me. I won't! I might if I can listen to sad music before hand. Ugh! Tomorrow's session may be the one. Plus she wants me to lie down. I think with all of my thoughts, I just may try it again. What will she say to me about it all? She's nice but will she shed tears this time like she did last time. She shed tears for me when I didn't shed any for myself. Such empathy. How could I be mad at her? I hope she lets me ramble for a while as I process it all.

Now time for the first "Tonight Show Staring Jimmy Fallon", we'll have to see how he does.

I am about to start trying Jamaican Dogwood for my back pain/nerve damage. I am also doing celery and potato juice and elderberry juice.
I have been doing a lot of stretches and yoga poses I found on the web and using an inversion table. It is getting better but still not there. The chiropractor and I parted ways because I was in extreme pain for a couple of days after I last saw him and before the poses and the inversion table and he wanted me to go get x-rays. I said I would think about it, but I want to give it a couple of more weeks before I go rushing into x-rays.

Jimmy Fallon's first Tonight Show wasn't that bad

Yes. Appreciated. Thanks.

Hello Couch...

We arrive at the day for my P-Nurse appt. I need pocket riders for those willing. I'm really disappointed that the natural supplements stopped working for me. So pocket riders and support will be greatly appreciated. Appointment is at 11 EST.

I'm in, jersey.

[ETA: Ooo, this was my 2000nd post! This is where I get to pick a title, right? And I had more than 2000 posts with my previous account... I should change my user name to Locquacious ]

A car you can rent by the hour. They have them in big cities in the US and Europe and university towns (where i live). You sign up for an annual membership, then you can go online and reserve a car for about $8/hr, max $64/day. Free gas up to 180 miles/day. Aside from that, they are regular cars! Hondas, Fords, etc. I use these and the bus to get around. Also Amtrak. And there is a greyhound bus station in town, and a bus direct to the airport. Its pretty good.

hopping in jersey.. I really hope your appointment goes well today.

Hi all...
Jerz...I'm in, good luck.
Hankstah...tell the derm if he doesn't fix it there is a whole sofa about to get in a zipcar and come kick his a s s.
SD...glad the inversion table is helping, did the Jamaican Dogwood help at all? I've never tried that one.
CE...so sorry you're worried about that
Neutrino....good job
Granite...when do you leave for your trip? Do you have T today?

Hugs all around...

I have enjoyed the kids so much. My gs said he was going to move here when he grows up so he can see me whenever he wants.
My gd is still forming memories (she's almost 3) so she's not sure what to think of me, hard to get to close to her. Last night a can of play-dough and a rolling pin got her to hop up into my lap. I kissed her little forehead and she said "don't kiss me without asking" lol. Good girl.

eta: every time I offer my gd a snack she says "no, that makes me sick" lol (well, except cookies, she'll always take one of those)

Jersey I am in too! Hopefully the list you and your T made...will help you if you get anxious and forget all you wanted to say.

Wiki.... I'm so glad for you that you had a fun time with the grands... I cant help smile about you being a gmom....we are close to same age but my oldest is 17 and my youngest is 11...i'm such an old mom and you are such a young gmom

we didnt get home from Boston till 2:45 am. I got so tired around 11pm that I pulled into a rest stop off 91 and slept for an hour and that was just enough to get me the rest of the way home. I had to beat the snow. It was supposed to start at 1 am but luckily it started later and so we only had snow for the last 10 miles of trip.

I should get out of bed and doing a breathing treatment for my asthma....I can hear myself weezing...

I love that - dont kiss me without asking!

Yeah the snow started later, tg - i was out in it too. Sticky stuff!

Thanks for the pocket rides and support.

I'm in a pretty foul mood so I have to work really hard not to place that on her or T today. I was kinda already a little snippy with T this morning in a text, but I'll tell her sorry when I see her.

Okay. Gotta go get ready. The good thing is that this Nurse is only 10 minutes from me!

Well i almost started crying at the derms. I was like, ive already been going thru this for a month. He said, it should look more like acne. Im like, if you dont give me antibiotics im gonna go back to my old doctor. He finally wrote me a scrip. Him and his nurse kept saying it takes time. Wtf. I dont want cortisone, i have cortisone, it isnt helping! I swear hes trying to kill me. Freakin idiot. What do you call a dr who graduates at the bottom of his class? My freakin derm, i think.

hankster, healed, rts, wikid, cclola, stopdog, ike, bpa, neutrino, chopin, murray, mkac, tametc, critterlady, pbutton, granite, suzzie, aloneandafraid, cameraobscura, rterroni, whatawhat, (where is squirrel?), rainbow, smallestfatgirl, little lulu, bonniejean, (sallybriwn has been away a while too, hasn't she?)... Hello!

I hope the antibiotics help, hankster.

I have T hangover. And I reached out to the only RL friend I have whom I can talk about therapy with, and he didn't even respond to my message (and I haven't mentioned T related subjects to him since long before Christmas so it's not that I have bugged him incessantly.) Bah.

But I gave T the letter I'd written to him, and even managed to tell him that I wanted to discuss some of the things in it. I wish I could have been even more explicit, though.

Jersey....how did it go? (if you want to share that is...)